In my everyday life as a single mom I am reserved and conservative. I have never dressed provocatively. My wardrobe is usually classic and reasonable. A relationship, even a casual one, is not right for me at this point. I have not been with someone, or even dated, in a long time. I satisfy my sexuality through fantasies.
I get a thrill out of being viewed as a sex object. In high school I was a boyish looking ugly duckling. Now, I know that have an attractive body - I am slim and slightly toned. Still, I get very excited whenever I realize that I am desired sexually. This excitement makes me post this story.
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Looking for a little excitement, I recently participated in a Karaoke contest at a bar. The contest is held every Thursday. The top two performers move on to the final, held on the last Saturday of each month. The top performers at the final receive sizable cash prices. There are no judges, the winners are determined by the noise the audience makes. A mixed urban crowd, many younger professionals, sometimes groups of college students. On Thursdays the bar is usually crowded and it is packed for the final on Saturdays. The participants are all over the place - some are great singers, some are terrible - some show up in jeans and t-shirt, some dress up for their show.
I had been to one Thursday event and to on Saturday event, so I felt I knew what to expect. I was looking forward to the thrill of performing in-front of people. I was excited and nervous.
I had thought a long time about my outfit. I finally decided to go with 2 inch pumps (5 cm), black stockings, a tiny black g-string, a heavily padded black bra, a slim brown skirt ending just above the knee and a tight long sleeved black top. The skirt and the shoes showed of my legs and the bra made me appear a little curvier.
Selecting these items and dressing for the evening was very sensual for me. I bought the stockings and the g-string just for this occasion. I felt very sexual wearing these items, even though I knew nobody would see them. The tight skirt and top emphasized my body.
There were eight contestants. I was the third performer. Later, I realized that it is an advantage to go on at the end. I think the host gives these spots to people he knows and likes.
I was really nervous. Even though I had fantasized about this moment for months, I almost backed out. I do not like crowds and I hate public speaking.
