This story is a work of fiction. No actual events or people are portrayed. This story is a revision of a story of the same title I published on Literotica many years ago. Many thanks to 'AirSearch1' for editorial assistance.
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I came home from work on a sunny Friday. "I'm home," I shouted and wasn't surprised when Julia's answer sounded like she was on the patio. I went to the fridge, grabbed a beer and took a swig.
"Want something to drink?" I asked.
"No, I'm good thanks."
I ditched my shirt and kicked off my shoes before sitting on the couch to peel off my socks. I noticed a newsletter lying on the coffee table. It was produced in an amateurish fashion and touted the local swingers club. I didn't know we had a local swingers club.
A quick perusal showed it was mostly a listing of dates and places for meetings and parties with a few announcements about new members and some departing couples. I looked at Julia on the patio. Prone on the chaise reading a magazine. Nude as usual, her plump ass seemed to smile a welcome to me.
I couldn't help wondering where she'd gotten the news-letter and why she'd left it for me to find. Was she drifting away from me? Had I done something wrong? Was I even supposed to see this thing? I took it with and joined her on the patio. I sat near her in one of the lawn chairs and tapped my thigh with the rolled newsletter.
"So, what are you reading?" I said.
She half turned to one side and showed me the cover of her magazine. It had a photo of a naked family group on a beach. "I picked up this naturist magazine today. It's really fascinating."
I waved the flyer in a vague gesture at the sky. "Subscribe to this too?"
Color rushed to her cheeks in an instant, then she smiled. "Oops. I thought I threw that away."
"Not happy with me anymore?"
"No. You're wonderful, Dan. I've just been curious...for a while now. You know, you hear all these things and you just wonder what it'd be like."
"Where do you hear those sorts of things?" I sipped my beer. She was going to say from Gina. Gina was nice enough, but basically a clown.
"I know you don't like Gina, but she and Roy play those sorts of games. She raves about how much fun it is. I'm just curious. In a fantasy sort of way."
"You got this from Gina? Figures. They ought to join a bondage club so Roy could spank her a good one." I wiped the sweat from the beer bottle on my pants' leg.
"How do you know he doesn't?" Julia giggled.
"I don't. Regardless, I usually keep my fantasies to myself. I don't leave them lying around where they could give you pause."
"You have fantasies?" Her grin was impish. I couldn't stop myself from grinning back. "Tell me all about them. Tell me right now."
My face grew even warmer than the sun. "Not right now. I'll think about it. Tell me why you're not happy with me."
"I'm happy with you. I love you. It's just a curiosity thing. Although, I did think maybe we could go to one of these naturist beaches and test run our feelings about being naked around people we don't know."
"Aren't those places just a cover for a bunch of fucking around with other people's wives?"
"No. Actually, there are some rather strict ethicsβ"
"Ethics for being naked in public?"
"Yes. Now let me finish. I was just reading how it's considered very rude to stare or show undo interest in other people. They don't allow any unsolicited photography either. The whole idea is to enjoy the freedom of nudity without a bunch of puritanical or sexual hang-ups."
"Where does the fucking your buddy's better half come in?" I sipped again.
She rolled fully onto her side and bent a knee. A single drop of sweat ran between her tits. "God, you're being a toad today. Did you have a bad day at work? Fucking doesn't come into it. Sexual contact isn't allowed in public. Actually, according to this article, a man having an erection in that setting is considered extremely rude."
I watched the trail the sweat left as it rolled out of sight under one of her boobs. "How does a guy, surrounded by naked women, not get a stiff one?" I was getting a little stiff talking about it.
Julia giggled again. I loved that sound. Musical and playful at the same time. "By thinking about mowing grass and changing engine oil instead of pussy and tits."
I had to chuckle. I held the newsletter up. "So, what's this?"
"That's fucking your buddy's spouse." Her lips grew tight and her eyes narrowed.
"And you have an interest in that?" A tremor crawled through my gut.
Julia's brow furrowed and she chewed on her lower lip. My heartbeat quickened. She was about to tell me something I didn't want to hear.
"I see you looking at other women from time to time. You're not blatant or lecherous about it, but you do it. I guess I look at guys sometimes too," she said. "I was thinking, maybe there's an itch there that wants to be scratched."
"We're married, we're not dead. Besides, I've never acted on it. Just looking doesn't hurt anyone. Scratching can be dangerous."
"True. There is that. I'm not suggesting we run out and join this or any group. I don't want to jump into bed with any of your friends or your brother either, no offense. I'm just researching it. You know, being curious."
I sat there staring at her brown eyes. They spoke to me, trying to console and reassure. I wasn't sure what to say or do. Sure, I'd given more than passing glances at pretty women from time to time, but I'd never done anything more than that. Had Julia? Was she left unsatisfied by my efforts in bed? Why was she curious about this?
"I trust you. You know? But I've never thought about these things. Not in these terms anyway. Jules, are you bored with me? Are you falling out of love with me?" I asked.
She dropped her magazine and came to me. She threw her arms around my shoulders and kissed me. "Of course not. I'll always love you. Obviously, this has made you upset. I'll get rid of this stuff and we'll forget all about it. Okay?"
I glanced at her heaving chest and the soft mounds of flesh there. I couldn't help myself, I squeezed one of them with gentle firm pressure. I shook my head. "Well, you need to get out of the sun before you burn. I'll think about all this, you know how I like to over-think the room."
Julia smiled and kissed me again. Her tongue found mine and I savored her taste, she'd been drinking brandy. I gave her a quick pat on the ass and stood.
"Don't brood too much. It makes your stomach hurt," she said.
I nodded. "I think I'd like to have sex before dinner today. All of this makes me think I need to mark my turf or something. What do you think?"
"Great minds think alike. Come on, I'm going to wear your ass out big guy. Then I'm going to feed you like the king you are."
"Hey, is this one of those, reassure your man with sex and food things you read about in Cosmo?"
"You're so smart. That's only one of the reasons I love you." Julia grabbed my hand and dragged me to our bedroom. I only put up a little show of resistance, but that conversation didn't stray far from my mind.
After dinner I wandered out onto the patio with a glass of beer. I shivered in the early twilight. Sharing Julia with another man was out of the question. I wasn't really keen on being with another woman either. Yeah, it had its appeal, but I wasn't dying for it. Was Julia thinking the same way?
I sipped the beer. What was the worry, she'd fuck some guy? For some reason that didn't really bother me. I'd get to fuck some woman and it'd be even. The worry was she'd hook up with a guy who was infinitely better in bed than me and I'd lose her to that stranger. The real truth? I was afraid. Afraid I wasn't good enough to keep her. My gut hurt and my eyes misted over.
Julia, wearing her robe and rubbing her hair with a towel, came onto the patio. I blinked several times in rapid succession. It didn't work. I tried to be nonchalant wiping my cheek. Julia had always been an astute observer.
"What's wrong? You're thinking about that swinger thing, aren't you?" She stopped drying her hair and let the towel dangle from her hand.
I nodded. "Nothing's wrong. Just sitting here torturing myself."
"Don't do that. Those magazines and that idea were just a fantasy. I don't really want to do any of that. They don't mean anything."
I sipped my beer, then offered her the glass. She took a sip. I looked at her as my heart pounded in my ears. "Am I good in bed Jules? I mean... good enough?"
"Of course you are, Dan. And before you ask, no, I wasn't faking that orgasm earlier. I've never even thought to fake one with you." Julia tossed the towel on the chaise. "You are by far the best lover I've ever been with."
She dragged a lawn chair close and sat down, putting a hand on my knee. "I'm lucky to have you and more importantly, I know how lucky I am."
God, she was beautiful. "You don't think my dick is too small, do you? That guy you were with when we met was a lot bigger than me, I mean taller and heavier. I'd guess the rest of him was bigger too."
She frowned at me. "Now you're just being ridiculous. Why do men always think that? A great big penis, porn star big, is kind of scary."
"Maybe so, but you didn't answer the question."
Her frown grew, displaying her exasperation. "No, your dick isn't too small. You're not hung like a horse, but you're the perfect fit for me. And Cal was all show and no go. God, I wish I'd never brought that damn flyer home."
"Me too. Where did you get it anyway? I mean, did you ask Gina for it or something?"
Julia shook her head. "Terri and I had lunch at that new bar and grill. The one I asked you to take me to last weekend. Anyway, there were a few of them in a rack by the door along with a bunch of other advertisements and brochures. I picked it up on a whim."