This is the fourth of my series on Joanie. It is better to have read the others first, but it can be read independently. Feedback is encouraged.
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If you have been reading these recountings of my insane freshman year in college, you may recall that I am a computer science major. Since I was a geek almost since birth, I was mostly self-taught when I entered college.
I knew how to program, knew lots of languages (Java, Python, C, C++, etc.; even the old fashioned ones like Fortran and Algol) and had taken a course at a local two-year college on object programming, a subject not taught (not even close!) at my high school.
I read the book and studied hard and probably could have taught the class better than the professor. Or at least I thought so at the time.
The upshot is that upon entering college I was an advanced student, and my adviser placed me in upper level (junior/senior) computer science classes. I became fascinated with the idea of protecting computers against hackers.
One of my professors once said actually that perhaps the best way to protect against hacking is to have already been a hacker, so you know how to think like one and anticipate what a hacker might do. It was a casual comment, a side point suring his lecture. His remark resonated with me.
At first I was amused, because extending the logic one should first be a criminal before becoming a policeman, or better, a police detective. That sounds nuts. But that is because I was thinking of blue collar crime; it made sense, I thought, for white collar crime, such as financial fraud.
Anyway, all this is to explain when I had my epiphany in my dream about how to take revenge on the men (Frank, Adam, Josh, Stu, Zach, Jack and some others) who tried hard to destroy my reputation and sexually objectify and degrade me back in my hometown over vacation, I was already an accomplished hacker.
Maybe I was not ready to hack the defense department or the NSA, but modesty aside, I was damn good. And this skill/talent was integral to my revenge plan.
I worked out the plan in my head, but I needed a sounding board.
There were only two people I could trust with my idea: my best friend Mary and my boyfriend Mike. I had already told both of them most of what had happened to me. I told a little more to Mike because he kept getting me drunk to loosen my tongue.
I ran my plan by best friend Mary first. Her first reaction was horror, and as she calmed down from her shock at my idea, her horror slowly turned to massive disapproval and worry.
I should point out that Mary had a strict Catholic upbringing. She is enormously sweet, generous, and always is there for me. She is the best friend I could ask for. She is however very conservative about things sexual. I have reasons to believe she has a weakness in favor of exhibitionism just like me, but there are two differences between us in this regard.
The first is that my boyfriend is Mike, and hers is Tony. Tony is a bit of a jerk and one of those boys who likes sexual conquests, even if he truly cares for Mary, and is always there for her. He is also amazingly good looking in a classical Roman way. But his sexual tastes are tradition male tastes.
But when Mary gets drunk, just like me her conservatism tends to weaken and if Mike were her boyfriend I am sure she would be a full-fledged exhibitionist. But Tony is not Mike, alas.
Mike is a wonderful guy, but he is twisted sexually, and actually continuously pushes me towards exhibitionism. When I am drunk I am often willing to comply.
When Mary is drunk, if the stars are aligned just right, she too can be a little exhibitionist, and there was that one time (never repeated) when she fucked Tony and then let Mike take her as soon as Tony came and pulled out. I know, because Steve, John and I were there watching. I'll never forget that scene. So Mary is complicated.
All this is to explain her more calm reaction: "Are you nuts?" Mary had said. "Surely you see how dangerous your idea is, not to mention the possibilities of being degrading and humiliating. How and why did you ever think of such a crazy idea?" Mary went on like that for a good five minutes.
This was not the reaction I had hoped for. Finally, when she saw the disappointment in my face, she did manage to say she would think about it, and asked if she could discuss it with Tony, now her boyfriend.
I told her yes, since I may want Tony's help to pull it off, in any event. But mentally, I had given up on Mary. This was sad, because I needed her moral support, and also complicated things, because she was an integral part of my plan.
Then I discussed it with my boyfriend Mike in a quiet corner of a coffee house near campus. This particular coffee house did not have wifi, so it was never overly crowded. If Mike did not agree, I had to give up; I could not do it without him. I also wanted his approval.
His reaction was different from Mary's, to say the least. Mike said to me, "Joanie, your plan is a stroke of genius. And you are the unique person I know who could pull it off, and have a good time doing it. Wow."
To emphasize his enthusiasm, he pulled me forward and kissed me passionately, right there in the café where we were sitting, sipping coffee, and drinking. Fortunately he did not knock over my coffee cup.
When I broke the kiss he leaned back, beaming at me. I think what I saw in his eyes was pride, as if I were his student or something. In some sense maybe I was. Mike's reaction was more what I was looking for.
We sat there and discussed it for a long time, further fleshing out the details together, until Mike had to leave to go to class. I left too and went to the lab. I wanted to begin work on my project right away.
The idea was a construction of a very particular kind of computer virus, along with a defense against it. I went to the professor to tell him my idea, leaving out all the sexual details. Well, mostly I did.
"So these boys in your hometown are passing around compromising pictures of your friends, you say?"
"Yes," I replied to my professor, who was a thirty something man. He was not especially handsome, and dressed like a geek, but he clearly liked his students, and since I was one of the best of his students, and the only girl who was one of the best, he also liked me. No, it was not in that way. He liked me as a professor likes his top students. I continued, "and videos, too."
Professor van Morgan (we called him Prof VM) looked at me, and he saw me as a sexual young woman I think for the first time since he had met me. Before that moment I had been just another student; but apparently I actually had a real life with hopes, dreams and fears, and a sexual life, unrelated to my studies.
Prof VM said, "Well." I noticed as he paused he was checking out my body, even if he tried to be discrete. But a girl always knows. I no longer dressed like a geek, and I was wearing body-fitting clothes. They were not at all revealing, but they fit my curves like a glove.
And I have excellent curves. I have large breasts, but not too large, a tiny waist, proportional hips, and long, shapely legs. I am a walking hourglass. After he had checked me out while lost in thought, he continued, "This is most irregular, and may be illegal, you know."
A piece of advice my mother gave me when I became a teenager was that when I found myself in an awkward situation and did not know what to do or to say, I should just smile. She said, "You have a great smile, especially when you show your pretty teeth. Try to smile as much as possible." I never actually did, being a somewhat morose geek. But just then I heard her words in my head, and I gave Prof VM a big smile.
"Oh Prof VM, this is just an exercise. I have no plans to use it," I lied. "It is just a wish fulfillment fantasy. But I think I could really enjoy it, and you always say in class that if we enjoy what we are doing, we do a better job."
He was sold on the idea, my smile, on my figure, I could tell. I was beginning to think he was lusting to see those mysterious pictures; he had seen through my pathetic ruse that they were pictures and videos of my friends, and not of me.
But bottom line: He gave me his approval. I thought about what picture I could show him if it ever came to that, and it was fun to daydream as I found the idea erotic, but of course I knew that I never would show him anything. Once he saw such a picture, it could never be taken back.
Now I had official approval to go ahead with the virus and its antidote, and what's more I could use it as my class project, making my school work that much easier than if I had to both construct my own virus, and also do a separate project.
That had been worrying me, but it turned out to be easy to get permission. No doubt it would be less easy successfully to construct a virus, but I thought I could do it. What was more worrying was getting the cooperation of Connie and Susie. I decided to tackle that next.
My plan was to make an irresistible sex video of us girls, and arrange to have Adam, Frank or one of the assholes become aware of its existence and steal it. They would no doubt pass it around to the usual suspects, and embedded in the video would be one hell of a computer virus, designed by yours truly, just for them.
As I suspected, Connie was the easier one. She liked sex, that was clear, and she desperately wanted revenge. She had been completely humiliated by Adam's secret recording of her gangbang and his subsequent distribution of the resulting video. She was scared to date men at her own college.
She strongly suspected, but basically she knew, that the WTC Club (standing for "We Tapped Connie") at her school was angling to gangbang her themselves, in some sort of reenactment of the video. They were inspired by Adam's video, and indeed, that is why they had dated her in the first place.
This had hurt her a lot, since initially she liked all of them, which is why she slept with them, one after the other. Two of them she had liked more than the others. When she learned that they had all seen the video before they even asked her out,. she had the anger of the cruelly deceived.