March 2012
This feeling is so good it ought to be illegal. Technically I suppose it is, which is maybe what makes it more fantastic.
It's a glorious day -- unseasonably hot and summery -- the kind of day where almost everyone finds a grassy country park in which to picnic. I can see them enjoying themselves on the field through the canopy of trees, laughing; playing ball games; Frisbee; cycling; walking dogs; eating and drinking. All beneath a cloudless, azure sky.
The birds high above us are in full voice, scant leaves atop the budding treetops occasionally whispering as they catch the gentle breeze. It's cooler in their shade but not by much, the air's slight dampness the only indication that it's still Spring.
Beneath my feet the woodland floor is a fragile and spongy ecosystem, littered with old twigs, leaves and moss, struck with the golden rays of sun that penetrate the branches of our natural awning. And just tens of feet away a burgeoning violet carpet of traditional English bluebells is sprouting in the unexpected early summer conditions; their fragrant sweet smell being carried to my nostrils beneath half-closed eyes.
I'm breathing heavily, almost panting, my skin lightly flushed and perspiring in the heat. Cool tree bark grazes the alabaster skin of my sacrum, and the warm hands of my fiancΓ© hold my hips an inch or two below the hem of my Paramore T-shirt; the Brand New Eyes butterfly now showing distinct signs of wear. But it's comfortable and loose fitting: the two qualities that made me choose it today.
As his fingers dig gently into my flesh he either doesn't notice the extra kilo that interrupts my otherwise trim belly, or accepts the flaw as part of the package. It's one of a suite of minor physical imperfections that I carry; fragments of insecurity that chip away at my confidence and would probably consume me if I didn't have him to regularly remind me how pretty I am and how much I mean to him. Though I'm a big enough girl to know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and he's ever so slightly biased, I still shine inside at the thought of him loving me for who I am and not solely for how I look, or what I can do for him. For reasons I cannot easily explain, part of me -- the self-doubting teen who should have grown up fifteen years ago -- still needs the reassurance.
Day-old growth on his chin prickles my neck and I tip my head back, smiling as he nuzzles against me and places tender butterfly kisses across my exposed throat. My long, dark mane snags lightly on the rough tree trunk but I barely notice as I wrap my arms around his torso to grab fistfuls of his pale red T-shirt and feel his powerful yet sinewy body move against mine.
Our closeness has a profound effect on me. A series of tiny things, both internal and external, accumulate to paint a bigger picture of my arousal; the quickening of my pulse; ears becoming warm as they turn a deeper shade of pink; mouth reflexively parting to allow my hot breath to escape into the atmosphere for the trees to convert back into oxygen; nipples rising beneath my lacy bra; a fire beginning to smoulder in the pit of my stomach. All the signs point in my favourite direction.
His strong hands roam south over my pelvis and continue round to cup my voluptuous bottom. The yoga trousers in which I've been teasing him all morning are already rolled down, nestled just below the crease where my thighs join my backside, and the touch of his palms against my nakedness sets off a shiver. I love the feeling of him against me and smell of his skin; a faint mixture of soap, heat and that inexplicable pheromone that magically makes us compatible. He just smells "right"; always has.
His breaths form an irregular pattern as he draws me against him and basks in the scent I've strategically dabbed at my pulse points. It floats up between us -- sometimes concentrated, sometimes elusive -- then mingles with the muskier forest and drifts away from our bodies to be lost among the foliage.
Whether it's the abundance of negative ions in the air or proximity to the man I love, I feel centred, radiant, connected and happy. But also hot. So hot. Being outside in the sun always makes me horny, which is a double whammy given the day I've had so far. I perspire a little more and my T-shirt briefly clings to my side, then releases as we sway and hug.
The thudding of my heart momentarily takes over my primary senses. I focus on its rapid beat, the organ swelling close to the surface, as if it's about to escape my chest and connect with his; joined through our thin clothing via an invisible force as we embrace. I glow internally, feeling new and giddy, like this is my first time all over again but with the considerable benefits that experience brings. Love is definitely in the air, though the line between it and lust is blurred.
My elevated pulse and state of undress are primarily due to the location of his cock. His wonderful phallus effortlessly splits my hairless folds and drives up inside my slick, yet tight channel. Like a head on one of the young, pink foxgloves that we passed as he urgently led me hand-in-hand to this spot, my trembling petals fit snugly around him each time he rams home.
It feels divine to be out here, defying decency, breaking the law and trying to remain discreet. But what better way to venerate this natural setting than by fucking in its midst; demonstrating the birds and the bees to the birds and bees.