If you haven't read the previous chapter I suggest doing so since it adds context to the characters and events. If you do not like cheating or cuckold themes, you probably shouldn't read any further.
Hope you enjoy!
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Rose
I lay on the bed, staring up at the ceiling, my mind racing with guilt and confusion. The events of the past few days played over and over in my head like a bad movie. The hot tub with Paul, the club and locker room with Carlos... I had crossed lines I never thought I would, and now I was paying the price. My stomach churned with nausea, and my heart felt heavy with shame. How could I have been so reckless? So stupid? I love Will, truly I do, and yet here I was, sneaking around behind his back, letting other men touch me, kiss me, fuck me. I am a terrible person, a terrible girlfriend. I deserve to feel guilty.
Earlier this morning when I was getting ready I looked in the mirror and didn't recognize who the person staring back was. I grew up in a Christian household and went to church every Sunday. I've always been told I have a good head on my shoulders. I'm someone who has worked hard to pass all my classes with straight A's. Every day I try to be kind and treat everyone with respect no matter where I go. I've never cheated on any partner before...
That person feels like a distant memory right now.
I'm used to getting hit on; it's nothing new to me. I'll have guys flirt with me while I'm hanging out at a bar with my girlfriends, or when I'm in the grocery store; hell, even when I'm sitting and waiting for my car to finish an oil inspection! I'll admit, I do enjoy the attention. It makes me feel good. But I've always been a pro at brushing those attempts off. Why are these investors any different?
Even though I know deep down that I've been blessed with an attractive body, I still get insecure. Just like most people, I'm constantly judging myself every day, pointing out features that, no matter how minuscule they may seem, bother me to my core. I hear Will tell me how beautiful I am all the time, but sometimes it sounds more like a parrot repeating the same thing with the same tone. So, it's nice to receive compliments from strangers or my guy friends occasionally.
Last night I tried to act normal around Will. I hated lying to him; he doesn't deserve that. But I can't tell him what happened, at least not
here.
It would have to wait until we got back from this trip.
Earlier this morning Carlos invited me to breakfast with the guys yet again. I declined. Instead, I walked around the resort to try to clear my mind. If I keep hanging out with them it will only make things worse. I know that I need to cut it off with them completely.
A few minutes ago, I sent Will a text and told him that I miss him. I haven't gotten a response yet; he must be busy in his seminar.
This trip was supposed to be a fun little getaway for me but instead I'm wasting it laying inside the hotel room. I knew that Will would be busy with his job but... I thought we'd spend more time together. So far I've spent more time with the investors than my own boyfriend. Exploring Maimi with someone would be better than doing it alone.
For some reason my mind starts to think about what Paul had mentioned last night inside of the hot tub:
"I like to turn the boyfriends and husbands into cuckolds"
. I can't get over the way he said it so casually, as if he were telling me how he likes his coffee.
I pick up my phone and search the term. The first result is a Wikipedia page, and I click on it. I scan the article, my eyes widening as I learn the definition. A
Cuckold: The act of someone watching or being aware of their partner having sexual relations with another person
.
They call the other person a 'bull'. Website after website I click through, intrigued by what I'm reading. My stomach churns as I think about Paul's words, about him wanting to turn Will into a cuckold.
Would he be down for something like that? Surely not....
The thought sent a shiver down my spine, and I couldn't help but imagine what it would be like, having Will watch me with one of the investors. I had always dated men around my age, but now I was starting to see the appeal of older men. There was something about their confidence, their knowledge, that was incredibly attractive. And these men had almost an infinite amount of money, they could go anywhere and buy anything. And I'll admit, that does add to the appeal a bit...
I shake my head, trying to clear my thoughts. This is crazy. I can't just start fantasizing about cheating on Will, no matter how tempting the idea was.
Suddenly there's a knock at my door. I put my phone down, then walk over to the door and open it.
Standing there is Paul, looking as charming as ever with a small smile playing on his lips.
"What are you doing here!?" I ask, surprised.
"Well Rose, Carlos told me your room number. I hope you don't mind me dropping by unannounced."
I raise an eyebrow. "Why did you want my room number?"
"To see your pretty face," he says casually. "I missed you at breakfast this morning. I know you probably needed some time to collect your thoughts on... recent events. So, I thought I'd swing by and see how you're doing."
I step aside to let him in, my mind racing. "I'm fine. Just needed some time to myself."
He walks in and looks around the room. "William's at his little seminar I presume?" He asks.
I sense an arrogance the way he said 'little'. Almost like he was belittling him. I close the door behind him. "Yeah, but he'll be back later."
Paul walks over to the bed. He turns to face me, his eyes roaming over my body, lingering on my chest for a moment before meeting my gaze.
"I see you're wearing one of the outfits we bought you. You look stunning darling."
"You shouldn't call me that..." I protest, walking over to him. He was right though; I was wearing one of the outfits they bought me at the mall a couple days ago. It's just a black top along with black joggers, accompanied by a two-thousand-six-hundred-dollar necklace wrapped around my neck. I still can't believe I own a chain this expensive. Before this trip I was rocking fourteen-dollar fake chains from JCPenney.
"Why? It's a modest word. Classy. Perfect for a fine, eloquent women like you." Paul says.
"I know but I'm with Will and it's not really appropriate..."
"I don't think he'll really mind." Paul says, sitting down on the bed. He pats the area next to him. "Come over here and sit, let's talk a bit."
I obey, sitting down next to him. "We really shouldn't be talking. Not after what happened yesterday..."
"You mean after we fucked?"
I'm shocked by his bluntness. I can't believe he's being so forward about something like this.
"Yes. I don't know what's gotten into me this trip, but it was all a mistake... I'm not normally like this. What we did shouldn't have happened. I'm not that type of girl-"
"What type of girl are you referring to?" Paul asks.
"A fucking slut!" I shout, crossing my arms. "A cheating whore who goes behind their boyfriends back and hooks up with men twice her age!" My voice is shaky, hopefully Paul doesn't notice.
He looks at me with a sudden intensity that makes me feel like he can see right through me.
"You're not a slut. The guys and I don't fuck sluts," he says firmly, his eyes never leaving mine. "You're an amazing woman, strong-willed and independent. You deserve the best of both worlds - a loving boyfriend who cherishes you and a fulfilling sex life that brings you joy and satisfaction."
"How can you say that? You don't even know me," I stammer.
"I know enough, and I'm pretty good at reading people." Paul replies with a smirk. "You're not some young naive girl looking for fun. You're a woman who knows what she wants and isn't afraid to go after it. You have drive, discipline; it's why you got a 'big girl job' barely a month after you graduated. You're a great person, with strong morals." He puts a hand on my thigh.
"You deserve to be pleased, Rose. And I think this trip is making you realize that William isn't cutting it. You need more, and always secretly have. That's where I come in. I'm here to explore your sexuality. Take you places you never thought possible."
"It still doesn't make what we did right. How could you even say I have morals when I betrayed Will?" I say, pushing his hand off my thigh.
"I know it's going to sound crazy, but someday you'll tell William about the events of this week. And he'll love you for it. Like I said yesterday, I have years of experience doing these types of things. I'll turn William into a great loving cuckold. Not only will he know about your infidelities, but he'll also find it hot and encourage them."
There's that word again.
Cuckold
.
"You know, I was actually just researching that term before you knocked on my door. Because you mentioned it last night... And I don't think you could turn Will into one. He's not like that." I say, defending my boyfriend.
Paul puts his hand on my lower back. "Trust me, he'll make a great cuck. He shares the same attributes as the other men I've made submit to the lifestyle. I observed him those two nights at the club; he watched you dance with Carlos. He was so infatuated. He silently freaked out and frantically searched for you every time he lost you on the dance floor, and I could see his mind wandering to all different types of scenarios. I could tell he was imagining you and Carlos fucking somewhere. Don't get me wrong, I think he's a nice guy. But in my opinion, he's
too
nice. He's a lover not a fighter. He'll submit to the lifestyle, easy. All he needs is a little push."