I was an impulsive child. As I grew into my adult world, I felt more of a need to control. Control every aspect in my life was all too prominent. It made me tired, it made me worry, it gave me a few early wrinkles and made me gain weight.
After my children grew into their own adult lives, I began exploring ways to release that maddening need to control. It was like a whimsical step off a cliff, like the image depicted of The Fool in a deck of Tarot.
One night, I threw caution to the win and let my impulsive side shine just a bit.
I do not usually consume anything other than alcohol when I go out with anyone, things like pot, make me feel quite ill.
A friend of mine had suggested taking Delta 8 or 9 instead of drinking. On Friday night, I popped a Delta 9 gummy and hopped into my husband's car and headed downtown.
We enjoyed this bar that had a piano player inside. It is always a good time and the owner of the bar treats us like royalty.
We arrived at 9- just as the piano guy was setting up. We ordered our usual drinks and caught up with the bar tenders, we were frequent fliers at this stomping ground and they knew us by name.
An hour into our night and about 3 Moscow Mules down, I began feeling a bit flirty. On our 'night out' which was nearly once a week, I always wore something that show cased my breasts. I can't hide them. I am a BBW with DDD sized cups, you bet I like to perk them up and show them. I caught a gentleman trying to casually glance at my alabaster bussom. Each time I looked his way he acted as though he wasn't looking. I decided to just stare his way until he tried to steal another look, and within a few moments his eyes locked on mine and the look on his face was like that of a child caught with his hand in the cookie jar. I smiled and ran my finger over the crack of my cleavage, pulling the dress down to reveal my black and white laced bra. He blushed and looked away briefly, then looked back at me. My husband caught onto what was happening and put his arm around me and whispered in my ear (my eyes still locked on my peeping Tom) " He wants you." I grinned and said, "I know."
The gentleman waived his hand to the bar tender, leaned in, said something and then smiled back at me. Within a few moments, my husband and I had fresh drinks. I raised my glass to him to thank him and walked over.