I first discovered exhibitionism in the basement of a bookstore. My brother, John, was browsing through the Film/TV section when I came up behind him and touched his arm.
'I'm done,' I told him. 'Are we going?'
He looked up and smiled. 'Did you get what you wanted?'
I held up the bag. In it was an Italian cookbook, with my promise to make John and his wife dinner that night. We ambled slowly to the stairs, pointing out different books on the way. I tend to buy books impulsively, even though I have a stack of them sitting unread on my bookcase at home. I put it down to my ever-changing mood, and the fact that I don't know what I'll want from one day to the next.
At the top of the first set of steps was a small landing, where they'd placed a couple of display racks of postcards, gift-type books and those magnetic poetry kits. We stopped to have a look. John was laughing at some mini joke book, when I began to get the feeling that I was being watched.
I glanced casually back down at the basement. A young guy who worked at the store was putting out some audio books, just below the stairs. When I looked down at him, he quickly averted his eyes and started pretending to examine the tape in his hand. At first I didn't think anything of it. People stare at other people all the time, and, without wanting to sound conceited, I've noticed a few men giving me plenty of second looks.
I started flicking through the postcards, when I felt eyes on me again. I looked back at the young guy and caught him staring in the same way. I was just starting to enjoy the flattery when I suddenly realised that I was wearing a pretty short skirt. It was a hot day so I had worn something airy, and my freshly-shaven legs were bare. I figured out that from where he was standing, the young guy had an excellent view straight up.
I was a little surprised at first, more by my reaction than what the guy was doing. I should have been mortified and quickly gone up the second flight of stairs and out of the store. But I wasn't embarrassed at all. I paused for a moment and went back to flicking the postcards.
I let him look.
Maybe it was because he was cute, but I definitely got an instant thrill from knowing that I was on display for him. Everyone else was just browsing and buying books as normal, with no clue that I was showing off so intimately to a complete stranger; he the voyeur, and I the exhibitionist. There was something simple about it that made sense to me.
John looked at me as if he was ready to go. I hesitated.
'Did you want to find something for dad?' I asked. 'His birthday's on Saturday and you still don't have anything.'
'Oh, yeah. I forgot about that. It means going up to the second floor.'
I twisted my face a little.
'Well, I won't be too long,' said John. 'How about I just meet you down here in five?'
John disappeared upstairs. I looked discretely back down into the basement. My lovely peeper was still there, putting some stickers on some of the tapes. I turned my head a little so that I could still see him from the corner of my eye. When I could tell that he was looking again, I moved slightly in his direction, and stood with my legs just a little further apart. He stopped applying stickers. His hands were still. I had his complete attention.
Making sure there was no one else at the bottom of the stairs, or anyone coming up them, I slowly bent down and looked at something on the bottom of the rack in front of me. My little skirt slid up my thighs even more. I was wearing a thong that day; white lace. I suddenly imagined that I was a pole-dancer up on stage, bending low for the horny young man beneath me. Below, I heard him dropping the tapes to the floor with a clatter. I glanced down and saw him frantically picking them up.
With a smile to myself I picked some random item from the rack and straightened up. He'd had a good look at my ass, so I decided to give him the alternate view. I turned so that I was facing him dead-on, but never actually looked at him directly. Someone came down from the ground floor and walked past me. I waited until they were gone then pulled my skirt up very slightly with one hand, stopping short of anything that would look too indecent to the casual onlooker. My heart was thumping hard. I'd never done anything like this before, and I wasn't sure what had come over me.
My young man, of course, had a wonderful view. I pictured what he would be able to see from where he was standing: The straps of my heels clinging tightly to narrow ankles that led up to my shapely calves; the long, smooth expanse of my thighs; the tiny, white triangle of lace that barely covered my pussy. I imagined his heart beating fast like mine, his hands shaking, his stiff cock pressing against the confines of his jeans.
I was getting so wet. I began to wonder what dirty fantasies he was having about me. Did he want to put his head up my skirt and go down on me? Put his fingers inside me? Or did he want to bend me over the banister and rip my thong off in one sharp, violent motion, so that he could put his desperately hard cock in my slippery cunt?
I felt the danger. Someone could have come up the stairs any second and they would have seen; would have known what a slut I was being. If there hadn't been so many people around, I would have shown him more. I would have pulled my panties aside and let him see my damp slit.
I was thrown off when John suddenly reappeared beside me.
'Okay, now I'm definitely done,' he said.
'Great.' I tried to stay calm, but I could feel that I was blushing.
'Do you want to look at anything else?' John asked.
I decided that it was time to end my little show. 'No. Let's go. I have to get things started for dinner tonight.'
I let my skirt drop and walked nonchalantly upstairs with John, never looking back. I was so hot, yet slightly afraid. I'd never had this urge to show off before, and my head with spinning at the thought of what I'd just done. It was naughty, slutty, yet utterly exhilarating. And what struck me most was the feeling of control, of having power over a man like that. I showed him as much as I wanted him to see, and no more. It was a rush that I wanted to feel again, and soon.
*
The next day was another scorcher, and I was working from home. By the afternoon I had pretty much finished everything I needed to do, so I decided to go out; just see what happened. I knew that I was going to try it again. It had been on my mind the whole morning, and as I went upstairs to change I was so excited I could barely think straight. I stripped out of my sweats and T-shirt, my standard working-from-home outfit, and opened my closet. I had already decided what to wear before I'd even got upstairs. I took the little summer dress off the hanger and held it up against myself in front of the mirror. I hadn't worn it since the year before, but I was sure it would still fit.
I took off my underwear and stepped into the dress. It was loose-fitting but tight around the bust, and didn't quite come down to my knees. There were five buttons down the front. I left the top three undone. I sat down on the bed and looked at myself in the mirror. My long, pale legs were very much on display, and as I opened them a little, I got a flash of my bare pussy under my little dress. My long, red hair sat on my shoulders in thick waves that led the eye naturally downward to the peaks of my small, pert breasts. I held my shoulders back, pouting at my reflection, then realized what was missing. I took a glossy lipstick from my dresser and applied it slowly and evenly. When I'd pressed it into my lips my look was finally complete. I felt sexy, and I was ready to show off again.
I'm not sure why I decided to drive to the mall. I guess because it was public enough that I could be safe, but still busy enough to provide me with opportunities to show off. Once I was inside the mall, I became acutely aware that I wasn't wearing anything under my dress. I never leave the house without underwear, and it was a little scary to think that this thin summer dress was all that stood between complete strangers and my nakedness.
The cool, climate-controlled air made my nipples hard. Looking down it was so obvious, and it gave me an idea. I went into a store that sells cosmetics and bath oils. I shop there often, and there's this one really cute guy who works there. He's a little young for me to date, but not for some harmless fun. I found him in the third aisle, shelving some men's deodorant.
'Excuse me?'
He looked my way, and I could immediately see from his face that I had chosen the right outfit that day.