I was raised in a home where sex was not spoken about & sexuality was looked down and frowned upon, I was never rebellious, and I was without doubt controlled both in thought & action; if I were to somehow manage to break a rule, I was punished. I believe my upbringing is why I have a deep desire to be disciplined, controlled and am a semi- exhibitionist. As an adult, I have found someone who's managed to turn the control and discipline into something sexual, something I crave & once a month he gives me an "assignment."
This month, my "assignment" took place in the middle of the night out in the backyard. The neighbors homes are not one on top of another, we live in the South, we have a decent distance between homes, there is an old dirt road a couple of hundred feet from the backyard, people drive down it day & night, there is also a highway you can easily see from the backdoor; so even with it being the middle of the night, someone could very well see me,
My task he told me was to get up at 3:15 a.m. go into the backyard wearing only a bathrobe & ankle restraints. In the pocket of my robe I was to have my nipple clamps with chain. I had to bring a lawn chair over to the fence, place the chair in front of me while I stood with my back against the fence. Next I was to bind my ankles to the fence, open my robe, and bend over the chair to let my tits hang on the back of the chair all the while rubbing my fingers in circles around the nipples. By this point my breasts are aching, I'm not allowed to continue playing, because he told me I must stand up straight & SLOWLY run my hands through my hair, along my face & neck stopping just above my tits. Run my fingernails down my sides, over my stomach, rub my hips with my fingertips, bend at the waist & continue down my ass, the outside of my thighs, the back of my knees, my calves & then back up again until I got to my outer thighs, move my hands to rub my inner thighs & the outside lips of my pussy, only the outside, up my stomach, my sides, cup and squeeze my tits, tweak & roll my nipples between my thumb & finger over & over until my nipples were hard nubs, then pinch my nipples until I wanted to moan [and I wanted to moan], stop and begin the next part of my endeavor.
He knows nipple stimulation alone will cause me to cum, this would be getting me wet. He knew being outside, the danger of being seen, was sure to get me worked into a sexual frenzy, wanting to rub my pussy, feel my juices, finger my clit, stick my fingers into my holes, but he was not allowing that -- he wanted to work his control before he'd allow me any sexual release. Of course I would have to follow his instructions flawlessly.
I had to undress, I was now out in the open, completely naked, exposed, ankles retrained, back against the fence, my heart racing, my inner thighs were slick, but, I could not touch myself, I was not permitted to touch the dripping juices wetting my excited cunt, instead I had to stand at attention absolutely naked, let out no noise, just stand and count, count to 1000.
The night air was cold, yet my cunt not only stayed wet, but as I counted I got wetter, so much so I could feel my pussy dripping its wetness down my inner thigh. I wanted desperately to go back inside and finger my pussy, play with my erect clit and nipples, all I could think about was the dripping wet, how much I wanted to go inside & masturbate, I was at 562 when headlights started coming toward me down the old dirt road, I couldn't move, I couldn't put my robe on, I had to stand at attention, counting, my pussy was twitching, 563, 564, 565, 566, a truck drove past, I was so aware of my nakedness, thoughts of 'what if I 'm seen,' those thoughts only got me more aroused, I could feel the wetness from my pussy had dripped to my knees, I was on the verge of orgasm, my cunt was letting of mild spasms, but had to continue counting, I wasn't allowed cum.
853, a truck drives down the old dirt in the opposite direction, it stops, it's not too close, the thought of that truck driving by makes me start wondering 'did they see me?' 854, 855, 856, 857, my drenched cunt is contracting & making me squirm, I feel the hot wetness on my calves, my nipples are aching, my clit feels like it's standing at full attention, I WANT to touch myself, I want to put my robe back on, I want to un-strap my ankles and run inside, I cannot, I must continue to stand at attention to accept my task & count. At 875 I was instructed to bend over & take out the nipple clamps & chain, attach the clamps to my nipples & pull the chain tightly then put the chain into my mouth, my nipples are like pencil erasers, fully erect, throbbing.
