Fighting tears of frustration, I climbed the bus steps with my oversized backpack and a crumpled hamburger bag. I was embarking on an eight-hour ride from my parentsâ Maryland home back to my university in Ohio. The station was closed, I had nearly taken the wrong bus, and I had forgotten to bring my paperback novel. By the time I boarded at the last possible minute, all of the seats were filled with families, old folks and other college students. I squeezed my way to the back of the noisy bus where there was one vacant seat in the next-to-last row.
I flopped into the seat and tried to calm down, mechanically flashing my seat mate a tight smile. As I took deep breaths, I could feel his gaze, and a moment later I really looked at him.
âHi.â
âHi,â he replied with a sly grin. He was about my age, probably another student. He had a trendy goatee and black earlobe-length hair like a wet seal. His exotic eyes were black and long-lashed and he had a narrow, golden-brown face. He looked like a young pharaoh. He looked like my first boyfriend.
For the first hour we rode sitting upright, not speaking, not touching. I kept giving him sidelong glances through a blonde curtain of hair. I had a navy wool overcoat; he had a black leather jacket. We used our coats as blankets and to define soft, polite barriers. The boy smelledâŠnot good, exactly, but not bad, either. He smelled like leather and laundry and cigarettes, and like a slightly exotic young man whoâd been on a bus all day.
After a while, he shifted so that his knee lay touching mine, but I didnât move away. It felt pleasantly cozy. We both relaxed into drowsy boredom and our bodies seemed to flow gradually together. Our coats began to overlap. By the time I fell asleep, my mind drifting through disjointed sexy images, I could feel the entire length of his body against mine.
Hours later, we both woke with a start when the bus pulled into a station. We blinked at each other like newborns and I sat up, embarrassed. I had been leaning against his shoulder as we slept; had he noticed? Finally, he spoke again: âHow far now to Pittsburgh?â
âAbout an hour, I think. Is that your stop?â
âYes, Iâm going back to school. Where are you going?â