I could feel a hand on my breast, caressing and kneading slowly, and the heat and moisture built up inside my belly. I eased my left leg up, and I felt another hand chase the waves of pleasure across my belly, searching downwards to tickle and touch me. When I felt a finger push gently inside me, feel it dip into the wetness, smear my juices around inside, started to come. But then I woke up. The sheets were all twisted around me, and it was my own hands I’d felt, not Justin’s at all.
I groaned quietly, but in despair and not joy. To say I was frustrated would be an understatement - I’d simply been dreaming about him again, and it was getting worse each time. All attempts to ease the pressure weren’t working any more. My God, I was even doing it my sleep now! Somehow, even though he was across the other side of the world, Justin’s voice was enough to drive me wild with desire, but he wasn’t here to finish the job. Before my eyes could fill up, like that had a few nights ago, I tried to put everything out of my mind and get back to sleep.
When I got to work in the morning, I found some quiet time alone, and tried to write out a graphic email for him, detailing last night’s dream. Maybe it’s the conservative upbringing, or perhaps we’re just shy, but I couldn’t write down much of what I felt or thought. Just thinking about it made me squirm in my chair and I couldn’t concentrate. I had to abandon this attempt when more work came along.
At the end of the day though, it was still just me, walking back home, and Justin not there. I walked past my new neighbor’s place and saw Diane out front watering the lawn.
“Hi Gloria. How are you?”
Such a simple greeting, yet it was enough to make a tear fall, something Diane saw.
“Oh honey, what’s wrong?” she asked, taking my arm and leading me onto her front porch.
“I miss Justin, that’s all. He’s only been gone for three weeks, how am I ever going to wait for three months?”
“I’m sorry Gloria. I know it’s difficult when my Peter’s away, but at least he’s usually back by the end of the week.”
“Where is he this time?” I asked, wanting to move on from the subject of Justin.
“He’s working in Vegas again. This job seems to be working out, but I know what you mean about them being absent. There are some things a woman needs a man for, if you know what I mean.”
I blushed, but also laughed at the look on Diane’s face. “Yes, I know exactly what you mean, and that’s part of why I miss Justin so much.”
Diane and I spent the next hour talking about our men, our relationships, and even a bit about sex. In the shade of the porch, and with a glass of wine and good conversation, I was beginning to feel better.
“Thanks for the conversation,” I said, standing and getting ready to leave “It’s no problem,” said Diane. “Any time you need to talk, just come on over.”
I thanked her again, hugged her and left for my house next door.
A few nights later I was lying in the bedroom reading a book, still trying not to think about Justin, when I noticed a light go in Diane’s place. My window is a little higher than hers, so I could look down into it. There was a buzzing, just at the edge of my hearing, and it seemed to be coming from Diane’s room.
I didn’t really understand what it was, just an unusual sound in the dying summer twilight, so I looked out of my window and into Diane’s. I could see a bare leg, definitely female, angled on the bed. A dash of pink toenail polish confirmed that it was Diane’s foot.
The buzzing sound, the naked leg, and finally, a little moaning from inside the room finally completed the picture for me, and I ducked away from the window, embarrassed that I was listening to Diane with a vibrator, but also giggling slightly. I wasn’t so embarrassed that I stopped listening though, and I listened to Diane working the vibrator, her moans changing with the accompanying change in tone from the device as it moved into and out of her body.
Diane was into a rhythm now, and I could hear her three quick gasps of breath, and then a long moan; three more gasps and a moan. My brain was alive with the pictures flashing in my imagination. When I realized that my own hand had found its way automatically to my pussy, I felt detached, watching my fingers swipe three times across the clit, and dip a finger into my pussy, each time a little harder, a little deeper. Diane finished before I did, but my eyes were locked on the site of her splayed leg across the way, my head resting against the wall as I slid two fingers inside my pussy and came hard on my hand.
Some times I would hear the buzzing again, but I thought it rude to listen. I didn’t see her again walking to and from work, but at the end of the week, her boyfriend came home. This time the noises coming from the bedroom just made me sad and depressed that my husband wasn’t here to do the same to me.
I talked to Justin each night, clear across the other side of the Atlantic. A week later I could hear the buzzing again from next door. With the phone in my hand, I moved to sit near the open window, but couldn’t see anything.
“Can you hear that?” I asked Justin.
“No. What are you listening to?”
“It’s Diane, from next door.”
“Yeah? So?”
“Well, um, I think she’s – ”
“What is it, honey? Is she OK?”
“Oh, yes. Hah, yeah, she’s fine, she’s just, you know –”
“Gloria, what’s wrong?” he asked.
“Well, I think she’s got a toy. You know, a , a vibrator.” I whispered.
Justin laughed.
“Well, don’t disturb her privacy, honey. You wouldn’t like it if someone saw us, would you?”
“Oh, no, no. It’s just – It just reminds me of us, you know? I miss you. I miss being in bed with you.”
“Yeah, I know. I miss you too. But I’ll be back soon, I promise.”
“But not soon enough!”
I couldn’t help it; I started crying on the phone.
“Oh, my darling, I miss you too. I can’t go an hour without thinking of you,” he said.
“I know,” I said, sniffling. “I just hate it when you’re away. I mean the phone calls help, but –”
“Yeah. It’s pathetic, isn’t it, how much we love each other?”
When I looked out the window again, I could now see Diane!
“Are you OK, Gloria?”
“What? Oh, ah, yeah. I can see Diane now.”
“Gloria!”
“Not that, Justin! I can see her legs, that’s all. Well, now I can see her hand. Oh.”
I could see Diane’s hand. Not her pussy, but I could definitely see her hand and arm, and they were moving. I couldn’t say anything for the moment. I was shocked by the fact that I was watching Diane pleasure herself, but I was also getting aroused.
“Honey?”
“I can see her,” I whispered, and I couldn’t take my eyes off her.
I heard him swallow on the other end of the line.
“Wh-what you see,” he said quietly.
“I can – I can see her leg.”
“I don’t know if you should be -”
“It’s tanned and slender. She has nice legs, good muscles. Aw, jeez, that’s nice. Her thighs are not as tanned, but they’re creamy and smooth.”
“That – sounds….nice” he said.
“Yeah, and I can see the muscles in her thigh moving. They’re flexing and moving.”
“Yeah.”
“She’s lying on the bed, with her knees in the air. Oh, Jeezus!”
I hadn’t noticed until now, but my own hand was in between my thighs. I didn’t DO this type of thing, I thought, but I couldn’t stop myself.
“I can see her hand moving,” I whispered.
“Tell me,” he said.
“Her hand, her right hand, it’s – I can’t see. Hang on.”
I couldn’t believe it! I was moving the chair, hoping to get a better angle down into Diane’s room.
“I can see her now. All of her. Oh God.”
“What? What do you see?”
“I can see her breasts. She’s touching one of them. Squeezing it. Pulling the nipple. Christ!”
My own hand, of it’s own mind, was doing the same thing through my blouse. That hand shook, as it undid two buttons, allowing it to slip inside and fondle my breast through the bra.
“Justin?” I said.
“Yeah honey.”
“Are you – can you feel yourself?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are you excited? Are you a little bit hard?”
“Yes.”
“Will you touch yourself?”
“I can, if you want me to.”
“Please,” I whispered.
I heard a brief rustle, and he was back.
“Tell me,” I said. “Tell me what you’re doing.”
“God, Gloria.”
“Because my hand is inside my blouse, stroking my breast, Oh, a nipple. Oh.”
“I love that nipple,” he said, and I knew it was true. My left breast is more sensitive than the right, and Justin knows it.
“Tell me,” I said.
“OK. Um, well, I’m stroking it, God, it’s hard. It misses you, Gloria.”
“And I miss it. Is it big?”