I was going out with Jim for 3 months when he pretty much begged me to come with him to a tantric workshop. I had never even heard about tantric or tantra before. I went on the net and read stuff about Hindu sacred chakras, and well I didn't understand it but it sounded something philosophical so I agreed.
We arrived at 8pm at this house in the outer suburbs of Toronto, where I was living at the time. Jim rings the bell and this tall guy with a shaved head, wearing what looked like a cream sheet opened the door.
"I am Gerald," he warmly introduced himself, inviting us inside.
As he ushered us into his dimly lit house with only candles lit in every room, a lady walked through the door. She had long flowing blonde hair, a pretty face and was also wearing a cream gown.
"Welcome to our home. I am Shisa the goddess," she warmly spoke and smiled as she took my arm and walked me into a large living room.
"Is this your first time at a tantric workshop?" she asked me.
"Yes, and I don't know what to expect, never done anything like this and not sure really what it is," I answered honestly.
"Take a seat and I will explain," she said to me as I sat down on a sofa in the back of the room.
"Well, tantric is about sensual enlightenment and tonight we will teach you how to practically open yourself up to the power of Tantra," the goddess explained.
Another two couples arrived. We all stood up to meet and greet. I don't think I was dressed appropriately. The one girl, Nadine, a brunette with long hair, was wearing a very open black mini dress, showing plenty of cleavage and tight around the butt. She had a sexy figure. Her boyfriend, Mark was wearing a suit. The other girl, Jenny, a blond with short hair, was wearing skintight jeans and an equally tight shirt. I was dressed in my work clothes; plain black trousers and a collared blouse. Jim was wearing jeans and a black shirt.
"The last couple is not coming - they called to cancel so let's begin. I don't explain anything like a lecture, but rather we get going with the practical and you learn that way." Gerald explained to all of us.
"For the first hour we will go through the concepts. We give you a brief demo and then you will try it out for yourselves." Shisa the goddess interceded.
"Each of the guys take a seat on a cushion and your partners sit down on the second cushion facing you!" the goddess instructed.
The lights in the rest of the house were turned off and the only light was that from the burning candles. It was a little scary. Some music was turned on. It sounded like music I had once heard during yoga classes.
I took my high heels off and sat down on the cushion placed in front of Jim, as he sat facing me.
"The first step is to make a connection with your partner. You will both need to sit facing each other in a cross-legged pose as in yoga. You must each lift up your right hand and feel each other's heart while looking into each others eyes."
"It is best actually done with you both naked, skin against skin. For now concentrate on looking deep into each others consciousness, feel each others aura and take in their energy."
I was shocked that this even got suggested. I looked around the room. The couple besides us was trying out the pose. She was maneuvering her body to sit cross-legged yet with his legs intertwined with hers and their bodies in close proximity yet not touching.
Jim lifted his hand and put it on my blouse over my breast, trying to locate my heart somewhere underneath it.
I was heated with anger about having to do this. This was nothing like I expected. I was expecting a lecture or group discussion. Jim noticed me getting really tense.
"Do you want to pull out- I never knew it would be like this?" Jim asked me.
"Yes, I am not doing this in public!" I ranted at him in a loud angry whisper.
Gerald approached us when he noticed us having a little tiff.
"Everyone is shy and afraid at first, but its best done without preparation and not knowing what comes next. Trust me its something wonderful and you will not regret it!"
"You can get up and go to our bar, have a drink and give yourself a few minutes to relax into it and just go with the flow. If you decide not to continue it is no worries." Gerald reassured us.
We got up and I drank a glass of red wine that Gerald poured for me, while Jim downed a double tot of vodka.
The alcohol was just what I needed. I was relaxed in a minute.
My head was buzzing and I felt a bit dreamy, with the words "go with the flow, go with the flow, go with the flow," reverberating through me.
Gerald and the goddess showed the others how to do a "yab yum". They disrobed from the big sheet like clothes and sat down facing each other in the nude.
It was hard not to take a look at the two adults plainly nude in front of us, uninhibited. I couldn't help myself from taking a look. He had big genitals, which just hung in between his legs. I looked more carefully and noticed that he had no pubic hair and was smooth all over his genitals, making its presence more pronounced. I had never seen a guy like that before. The goddess had an amazing slim figure, was about 5.8 foot tall, well toned and she had small but pert breasts. She had a tiny blonde patch of hairs on her mound shaped like a rectangle and then was smooth below.
I felt guilty looking at these guys like this, but then, wouldn't everyone?
They sat down on red satin covered cushions in the middle of the room. They called this place the alter. Candles and burning incense surrounded them.
The yoga music was turned up and all the couples watched over them as they demonstrated for us.
He opened his legs wide and she did the same but she sat facing him with her legs folded over his and her butt raised up in the air. She adjusted herself and moved closer to him with her thighs folded over and resting over his. Their genitals were close to each other's. Her palms were closed, facing upwards and placed flat on his chest and his on her breasts. They looked intensely into each other's eyes. This embrace supposedly made a tantric connection between their chakra energy fields.
"The Kundalini is ones most powerful force, it's a sexual energy and it rests in ones pelvic core. Tonight we are going to teach you how to use this energy and how to flow it up through your entire being, giving your body a renewed life and a full body orgasm. Yes, Full body rather than just in your genitals." Gerald explained.
"To do this you need to both tighten your pelvic muscles and hold it in as tight as you can for at long as you can, sucking in your breath right down and into this region. When you cannot hold any longer you will then rotate and gyrate your pelvis pushing the energy upwards through your body. Guys, imagine that your testicles are heavy rocks, you need to hold them in tightly with your breath and then you need to swing them into motion, releasing wave by wave of potent energy. Girls, imagine that your vagina is a deep valley and it needs to be filled up with rocks, as your swing you take in more energy and then direct it upwards from your pelvic floor, like a spring, to permeate your whole body," this time the goddess spoke.
"Ok, enough demonstration, now for you all to do this, take it slowly and feel the energy between you." Gerald spoke as he got up and put his robe back on.
Jim and I sat down again and this time I let him hold his hand up against my chest. We tried to repeat what we had just witnessed. It was quite difficult getting our rhythm to coincide. Gerald put his hand on my back and tried to show me how to breathe in deeply and to take the breath deep into my core. When Jim rotated his hips I wanted to laugh. It looked funny. The goddess was suddenly standing over us and was trying to get us to time our breath release at the same time.
"Ok, Rachel, breath out quickly in little spurts and with each spurt rotate your pelvis towards Jim," the goddess instructed.
I felt embarrassed rotating my hips like this. The goddess was not leaving so I thought I better take it seriously and I gave it a go. Jim tried it too. After a few minutes we were in rhythm with each other and our breath was working well with our bodies.
The other couples were practicing too.
"Ok, we will now teach you a bit about tantric massage. It needs to be hands on so each couple will go to a separate room with cushions. I will show you to them in a minute. In the room is a little his and hers gift from us. Its what you will wear for the rest of tonight. It may be a shock but you need to just go with the flow and not worry about being judged or looked at. We are all in this together and it's all in the fun of the experience. All the "his" gifts are the same and all the "hers" gifts are the same. We have based them on the sheet you completed for the course where we asked you for body measurement/dress/pants sizes. The colors are based on your astrological star sign color, and they are brand new."
"Once you are comfortable in the room and in your new attire, the girls must first lie down and the guys will give you a massage, later we will reverse the roles. Between Gerald and myself we will come and give you a one to one lesson."