My name is Jane, I am a pervert. I know I am, I searched online to find out about people like me with a compulsion to show themselves naked, or partly so.
That is what many sites called it, a perversion.
When I was growing up I was the flat chested girl with big glasses and ugly clothes, my mother saw to that.
By the time I was 18 I had filled out but Mom insisted I wear those terrible heavy tight bras, I hated them because they left red marks and hurt.
I had a boyfriend named Dick. Really! We were Dick and Jane, we went everywhere together from the 8th grade. Dick was a little heavy, and he wore heavy glasses, too.
I guess we were meant for each other.
We did kiss a few times but then when Dick tried to touch me I would make him stop, Mom told me all about boys and what they would try to do.
Then the Summer after we graduated we were sitting in his car up on Council Butte, that was a place everyone went to neck. He reached out and tried to rub my right tittie and I let him do it a little. It felt so good, then when he unsnapped my bra and began to rub them I was in heaven!
Those straps seemed to almost cut into me, they hurt.
Well, one thing led to another and I was on my back and my panties came down. Dick got most of it in before I pushed real hard to make him stop. But it was too late, he sprayed his stuff all over me.
I guess some got inside because it was just 2 months later and I knew.
Dick and I got married a week later, it was the way things had to be.
That first night I relaxed as Dick first rubbed my breasts, I started when he put his hand right on me between my legs but I gritted my teeth and let him. Then he was on top of me, he grunted in a minute or so and I was suddenly all wet and gooey down there.
I thought that was all right, I could deal with it and besides, it did feel good. But then I got big, and he lost interest. I was 5 months along when the blood came, I went to the hospital and that was the end of that. It was the end of any more children, too.
I cried but now I don't know for sure if I meant it.
Dick was a computer whiz, he got a good job and I was happy I guess. He made very good money so we had a nice car and a nice house. I asked him if I could get contact lenses and he said sure.
Dick always said sure, no matter what I wanted.
It was great to be able to see without those things on my nose, always rubbing sore spots and getting dirty. I was so happy the day I got them that I even went and got my hair done in a new style.
I looked at myself in the mirror and I realized I was actually pretty! So I went to get some new clothes, too. All of my dresses went past my knees, the blouses were thick and heavy. I had long since gotten bigger bras though, as I had filled out to a full "B" cup and the old ones Mom made me wear were all "A" cup.
I was trying on one skirt after another, the saleslady kept bringing me more to try on. She was happy because I bought a lot of them, and some nice blouses, too.
I didn't notice when she handed in 3 more blouses to try that when she turned away she didn't get the curtain fully drawn.
I had pulled off my blouse and was standing there in nothing but a pair of white panties and lacy soft bra when I happened to look up.
A man was standing there not 10 feet from the curtain staring at me!
I gasped and reached for the curtain, yanking it shut, horrified. Then it hit me, the idea of him seeing me like that filled my mind and my body just let go, I had a huge crashing orgasm. It was so strong my knees went weak, I had to sit down, gasping. Never in my life had I ever felt anything even close to that.
Not even when I used my fingers and thought of someone seeing me doing it.
The saleslady came by and peeked in, she saw me sitting there.
"All you all right?" she asked, concern in her voice.
"Yes, fine, thanks." I quickly dressed, paid for my items and left. I know I was looking around for the man but I never saw him.
Dick came home and when he walked in the door he took one look at me and came to a complete stop.
"Wow!" was all he said, finally.
I beamed at that, we barely got through dinner and Dick was tugging at my clothes. I tried to slow him down, I tried to feel the same thing I had felt earlier, even letting the fantasy into my head. It worked, not as well as before, but I did orgasm, the first time ever with Dick, I realized.
Everything before had been warm and nice and felt good, this was great!
That was when I began to change, to become the pervert I am today.
A few days later I actually left the house with just a blouse and skirt and panties on, no bra. I had never done that before, I felt naked and I was sure everyone knew instantly.
I went to the same store, and tried on some tops. I even let the curtain gap a little but I saw no one, no men at all. Still, the idea that someone might see me made my vagina pulse, all by itself the muscles twiched, and I was full of this warm and fuzzy feeling. It was almost like I wasn't there, like I was standing off watching.