I had sex with two boys during my first semester of college. I'm not even sure it could be called sex. Even growing up in small town Texas in a very conservative family, I had an idea of how sex should be, and that's what I expected. Boy was I wrong.
The two boys I'd let fuck me, were both so anxious to fuck, there was almost no foreplay and no variety. Both times, it was pretty much, 'wham bam, go get me a beer.' Neither of them went down on me, and even though I was perfectly willing to give them blowjobs, I didn't offer to. I stood on principal. What's good for the goose . . .
Needless to say, those experiences didn't do much to further my desire to try it again. I thought sex was supposed to be fun and exciting. I wanted to learn about it from someone who knew what he was doing. I just wanted to play and laugh and have fun with it.
In my fantasies, sex was chasing each other around, wrestling around, tickling, joking, teasing, and laughing. I hated that it was all serious in real life, at least it was the two times I'd done it.
Hell, I had more fun with the two girls I shared a dorm room with. I mean, we didn't have sex or anything, but there was a lot of teasing and laughing and even a friendly grope now and then.
I was extremely happy when the spring semester was over and I could go home for the summer.
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A week after getting home, my older brother and I decided to go hiking at one of our favorite places, along the Canadian River. Of course, during the summer, it could hardly be called a river. Except for a few shallow pools, there was barely a trickle of water.
Mark was a year older than me, a real jock, on the college football team, and a very protective big brother.
After several hours of hiking in the hot sand, we came to a place the locals called Walnut Grove. There were a few dozen large walnut trees, a nice grassy area, and a half acre sized pool that was usually a foot or so deep.
"We should take a dip and cool off before we head back to the car." I suggested. Neither of us had brought a bathing suit, but as we'd often done, we settled for going in the pool in our underwear.
The pool wasn't deep enough to swim in, but we could lay back and relax while the cool water ran over our bodies. I chose that moment in time to seek guidance from my older (and I hoped more experienced) brother. "Mark, I need to talk to you about something."
He must have recognized the seriousness in my voice. He peeked over the top of his sunglasses and said, "Okay, shoot."
"It's . . . well, it's not something I feel comfortable talking to Mom about, but I really need-"
"So, it's about sex. Am I right?" He accurately guessed the topic.
"Yeah."
"Then you came to the right person." He said with a chuckle, "What would you like to know?"
"That's the first thing. I figure you, being on the football team and all, not to mention you being a good looking hunk, you've had more than your share of sex. Am I right?"
My brother laughed out loud, and when he could, he said, "Hum, I don't know. I guess I'll have to check the school manual to see what 'my share' is."
I shot him a scolding look, "Don't tease me now. I'm trying to be serious. How many girls have you had sex with?"
"Serious, huh? Okay, if you really want to know, more than five, less than twenty."
"Okay then. Now, I don't want to know who or how many times with each, just the first times with each. I've had sex with two boys, once each, and it was so disappointing both times, I never went out with them again. How did your first times go?"
"Before I can answer that, it would help if I knew what you found so disappointing about your experiences."
My brother didn't make a sound or interrupt me in any way as I described my two experiences to him. When I was finished, my brother was quiet for a long while. Finally, he shook his head, "Fucking idiots!"
"Mark, please tell me it's not always going to be like that."
He took off his sunglasses and looked at me, a tear running down his cheek, "I wish I could promise you that, Bev, but I can't—or at least I can't tell you how many fucking idiots you're going to have to go through to find what you're looking for."
"How was it for you—the first time with a new girl, I mean?"
"I'm afraid I'm not going to be much help. I've never had what you'd call a real girlfriend. Most of the girls I've been with have been at parties. There was nothing serious about it at all. As for the fun thing, it was all fun. Hell, I didn't even know some of their names."
I let that soak in for a few seconds before asking him, "How do you feel about them now?"
"What? I . . . I just remember having fun. Other than that, I don't think about them at all. They got what they wanted, and I had fun. That's all."
"What do you think they wanted?"
He shrugged, "To be able to brag about fucking some football players, I guess."
"Was there a lot of drinking and laughing and playing around?"
"Oh yeah." He responded with a chuckle.
"That sounds wonderful." I confessed
"No, Bev! Don't say that. You're not one of . . . them."
His words hit me like a sledgehammer, "You pompous ass!" I shouted at him.
"What?"
"I'm the little sister of a big bad football player. I can't be anything like the groupies he fucks at parties. I'm supposed to be better than that—on some kind of pedestal or something. Well, I've got news for you, big bad football celebrity big brother; I'm no different than those groupies. I am starving for some fun—sexual fun, and I don't give a shit who gives it to me."
Without anything else being said, and like we'd done a dozen times before, Mark and I got out of the water and stretched out on the grass to dry before getting dressed. I must have dozed off. When I woke up, my brother was lying on his side facing me, his head propped up on his hand. He was just looking at me.
I happened to glance lower and was shocked at what I saw. His cock was hard, the engorged head and perhaps two inches were protruding from under the top of his briefs. I had to tease him, "Thinking about your little groupies, or just perving on your baby sister?"
He followed my eyes down to his crotch, "Gezzz, sorry." He said while making a futile attempt to pull his briefs up enough to cover his exposed cock. He finally gave up and just covered it with his hand.
"You didn't answer the question." I teased him.
"I . . . uh . . ."
I giggled, "So, you were perving on your little sister, huh?"
"No . . . I was just . . ."