You receive a text. You're five minutes from your work being done. You're to meet me downtown. You know the hotel but you've never been there. It's over by the city square near the park and opposite City Hall. You bite your pen and wonder if you really should. Those other times were crazy and so much fun... but they were soooo WRONG.
You mustn't ...then again, your husband isn't home for another three days. What harm could it be? You screw up the courage.
"I'll be there" you text me back.
You arrive at the lobby and find the elevator. You're all demure and perhaps a bit childish with the sunglasses on as it's nearly six on an overcast day. Still you can't look at anyone behind the front desk. You can't look at the maid pushing linens down the hallway. You can't look at the couple walking across the lobby with their dog ready for a walk in the downtown portion of the city. You just would DIE if you were recognized.
"I'm awful at this," you think as you tap your foot at the elevator, "I don't do sneaky well. Good girl. That's me. Bored boring good girl. SO HORNY THOUGH!"
The elevator arrives. Sure fucking took long enough. The doors open and you slip inside thinking that everyone in the building ... in that part of town... even the dog must have remembered you, (despite the sunglasses and the silly scarf on your head and the long coat). You're inside though and the doors have closed.
"It's the third floor,
right?
" you ask yourself.
It is.
Good.
You've at least pressed the right button! You can't stop shaking; giddy doesn't come close to describing what's happening inside you.
The doors open at floor number three and you see the arrows for rooms 310 to 350.
You step down the hallway to room 327. The door is partially open. You're going to knock but then, THIS is the day you take charge and be your very own damned affirmative bitch who gets what she wants. That woman doesn't knock. She opens doors, enters like a boss, and makes the things she wants HAPPEN!
So you suck in your breath, push open that door and peer into darkness. It's okay, you're a big girl. You're a director at the company and people call you boss...
now step inside like a boss girl!
Three steps into the shadows you call out in a squeaky girl voice...
"H-hello?"
You caught a heel on the rug as you came in. You just sounded like the squeak from a washed plate. You're slouching like you are at the scary fun house at the carnival waiting for a clown to jump out at you with a chainsaw. Ugh, good work girl...
straighten up. Sound-off like a she-wolf and...
"Hello?" you say again, sounding even more like a question this time.
"Oh hi!" I say directly behind you as I step from the bathroom. My hand pushes the door closed. You're inside. WE'RE inside, more importantly.
You spin around.
Okay... not good
.
You were all dorky and awkward and...
My hand is on your ass, pulling you in towards me. The hand comes up, right along your back. It's a hand that knows what it's about.
Now that same hand is alongside your face. It's simply there, moving back and forth along your jawline; fingertips running into your hair back and forth until they bend and pull you by the back of your head in for a kiss... a kiss taken, not so much given - but not unwelcome either.
It's then you notice my robe was open. Aside from that, perhaps body wash is the only thing I'm wearing.
The other hand finds your hips and you are pulled in for the full embrace, the full snog, the full smooch. You open your mouth. There's no more pretending now ...IS THERE!
I seize up your purse from out of your hand; tossing it on the console behind you, before pull you back into me. I ask about your day and rub the back of your neck while we stand there, clothed woman, nude man, (and all of it most improper). We're adults making terrible decisions; bad decisions, dangerous decisions.
You babble about your day. You talk a lot; it's all rapid-fire machine gun bursts of words stringing together your points of interest and concern. You babble and laugh at your own observations and you realize you are not alone... I'm listening. I'm looking at you dead in the eyes and listening and hearing you and letting you go on and...
"My husband never does this," you think out loud, the epiphany bursting in your head and out your lips; rippling through your neurons and exploding like a thousand stars of clarity.
"Keep going," I tell you, my eyes not straying from yours.
"Keep going," I tell you, my eyes never straying from yours.
You talk and tell and share and reveal like it's a massive fiber-enriched dump at a restroom break... that whole day is unloaded within a space of a few minutes. You feel almost like you should wipe and flush but it's all gone... the day is gone. Now the night is here -and so am I.