Journal entry, September 11, 2002
It cost me a small fortune, but I finally got the information I wanted. The ticket cost another pretty penny, but I knew it would be worth it. Now if I can just find the Howard Theatre. I am not familiar with the city, so it takes me a while. When I finally get there and park, it is already a little after 8:00. Can’t be helped. I pick up my ticket at the box office and go inside. The show is already underway, and the house lights have been turned down low, as I expected.
I allow my eyes to adjust, then follow the usher to the correct row. As I work my way to my seat, I see you and the man who must be your husband in the middle seats, your attention focused on the stage. I am in luck. The ticket I have purchased, after bribing the manager, is next to you and not your husband. As I approach my seat, you glance up and you recognize me. A quizzical expression flashes across your face followed by a brief flash of a smile. You then turn your attention back toward the stage.
I settle into my seat and watch the performance for a minute, taking stock of my surroundings as I do so. Yes, I think, this will work just fine. I look over at you, and I see your face highlighted by the partial illumination provided by the stage lights. The various colors play across your immobile visage, creating a lively lightshow that highlights your features in turn. Unsure how you will react to what I am about to do, I decide to proceed slowly, giving you the opportunity to stop me whenever you choose to do so.
You are sitting close enough that I can smell your perfume, and I can hear the soft whisper of each breath you take. I sit, immobile, enjoying being close to you, listening and inhaling your essence. You are sitting in the center of your rather narrow seat, legs pressed together, eyes focused on the stage. Now it is time. I move my left arm across my body and slip it beneath my other arm, providing some cover for what is to come. I extend my fingers and they come in contact with your arm. You move your arm away with a start, surprised by my unexpected touch. It takes you a moment to recover, and soon you are slowly leaning back in my direction. Now I am able to touch your arm again, and I move my fingertips up and down the silk sleeve that covers it. I caress your arm, fluttering my fingertips along the section that I can easily reach without being too obvious with my movements. I feel a slight quiver move through your arm, and I take this as a sign that you are enjoying my touch. You shift your position, moving your body in my direction. I wait a moment before proceeding to make sure that your husband has not noticed your movement.
Now my fingers can reach the side of your breast, my seeking fingers hidden by my arm and your closeness. My fingers move around the side of your breast, gently stroking the part I can easily reach. You sigh, a long, soft sigh. I stop. You move further in my direction, and now your side is pressed against the armrest that is between us. I have more ready access to the full side of your firm breast, and my fingers drift over it eagerly, teasingly. I feel the fabric of your bra beneath your blouse, and I try to imagine its color and shape.