We aren't supposed to feel this sort of desire for each other, you know that. Lust is one of the deadly sins, isn't it? But lust, desire, that's exactly what I feel for you. My bones ache for you in shades of flushing red and darkest blue. And if I were to die from the pleasure of drowning in you, if my happily partaken sin did turn out to be deadly, who would mourn it? Not I, not my white bones in the grave or my heart, full still of you, that lives on. Death and pleasure, perhaps they are closer relatives than we suppose.
I told you I would be here tonight; I've always loved the ballet. Graceful, gravity-and-death-defying: great lovers die and are reborn from the ashes of their passion on that stage. Beauty and madness form equal parts of love, lust and art, as they do in real life, acceptable on this platform but shrouded in secrecy in reality.
I half hoped you wouldn't be there. But you were. You couldn't stay away, you told me. Couldn't you? I wondered. Do you mean your lust led you here (and tell the truth, you didn't put up much of a fight did you?) or do you mean only your death could have prevented your presence tonight? I wonder. But no matter, your breath is on my neck now, and I don't care.
In the interval you made no move to pull me away, no, you waited until the ladies and gentlemen that we are were told to be seated once more, then you gripped my arm, too tight, burning me, and pulled me into the women's bathroom. Once inside, you don't touch me, you very deliberately don't touch me, you know the effect your energy, your body heat, has on me; you simply walk forward, slowly, forcing me to back up until I'm pressed against the large mirror, cold glass a cruel antidote to your hot breath.
I can't fight, and I wouldn't want to. I unzip my dress of my own accord. It falls to the floor. I'm wearing a black lace lace-up bodice, thigh-high hold-up stockings complete with Cuban heel. You bend, kneel before me. Your long fingers trace a path up the backs of my legs, along the seam of my stockings, your mouth searing a secondary path upwards along the inside of my thigh as my legs open for you.
Your mouth arrives at my wet sex and my fingers dig into your shoulders, wanting to guide you forwards, but you don't move. Your breath is like a fire that moves inside of me, consuming me in waves of pleasure and torturous anticipation. You stand up, leaving my breathing ragged, my heart beat erratic, my sex burning for you.
You turn me around, your fingers finding the laces of my bodice. At first you pull the laces out of their holes slowly, so slowly, but I push back into you, grinding myself into you, the crack of my ass finding your length, desperately needing you inside me, and then you're ripping my constraints away. It drops to the floor, and my modesty with it, and you whirl me around and push me back so roughly the glass almost breaks. Your hands are on my hips, your mouth on my neck.