My boyfriend and I had just made love, and we were in that sweet post coital daze. My boyfriend, whose name is Jake, knew that I was at my most vulnerable at such moments, and he said to me, "Gail, tell me about your sexual fantasies."
"Where is this coming from?" I asked him. We had never discussed erotic fantasies before. Oh course, we had only been lovers for the last two months, but still, this seemed to come out of the blue.
I was a little upset by this, because I have sexual fantasies by the truckload. I have so many, developed over long chaste periods when I had to rely on self-stimulation for erotic release. It was so nice to have Jake to make that much less necessary. Of course I still masturbated occasionally when I was alone, but Jake did not know that.
"You are my fantasy, come true," I said to Jake, hoping that would end it. He didn't buy it, and kept the pressure on until I broke down and told him one of my fantasies.
"Mostly my fantasies revolve around exhibitionism," I finally told him. That was insufficient; he wanted an example. I decided to keep it as harmless as possible.
"Well," I said, "Sometimes I fantasize that I'm nude around the apartment, and walk into the main room to get something and people see me." I should explain we live in an apartment in New York City, and our main room is like a fish bowl, where around 30 apartments across the courtyard can see into it, under the right conditions.
We always leave our blinds open; too, because I love whatever sunlight our apartment can catch. Besides they're a little broken, making them a pain to raise if ever someone lowers them.
"Go on," Jake said.
"Well, it is after the sun sets, and when we have the lights on everyone across the courtyard can see everything that happens in our main room if they care to look," I began.
"Oh, they'd look if you paraded around nude, I assure you!" Jake was referring to the fact that I have a nice body, with nice boobs, something he enjoys to the max. I'm 25 years old, so my boobs have no sag in them. I'm sure that will come with age, but I can wait. I'm a patient girl.
I'm also pretty hairy down there. I get waxes, so that I can wear bikinis, but still, I do not have a shaved, bald pussy; actually I think that is gross.
Jake dropped his voice to almost a whisper for no apparent reason and said, "Have you ever done it?"
I hate to lie, so I just did not answer. I tried changing the subject to what he wanted for dinner. He didn't buy it.
"You have, haven't you?" he said, much too loudly, with excitement in his voice.
"Well, maybe once or twice," I whispered. "I was naked in the bedroom and needed something from the main room, and just entered quickly to get it. I don't think anyone noticed, it was so brief."
"You're naked now, you know. I left my cell phone in the main room. Would you please be a hell of a sexy doll and go get it for me?" Jake said. It was clear to me he was turned on by the whole idea. I was in a way relieved; I thought he would think I was perverted or something.
"I don't know, Jake. It's very embarrassing, and nothing I'm proud of," I replied. Also it was dark out, and all our lights were on, making our main room something of a fish bowl for our neighbors across the courtyard.
"This is so exciting Gail. I had no idea, and I love it! Do it for me, and linger in the main room, and I'll make dinner tonight. Wait: I have an idea."
Jake left and went into the main room himself, naked. I guess he was hiding his phone. He came back, and said, "Now please get my phone for me, sweetheart."
So I did it. But I could not find it, and I was naked in the main room for a good five minutes looking for it. Five long minutes is a long time to be naked and on potential display. We have a second bedroom (Jake has a big salary) and since it was dark Jake went into it while I searched for his cell phone. Nobody could see him there, but he could watch the people across the courtyard that had their lights on.
I saw that Jake was checking out the apartments across from us to see if anyone was watching me, and later he told me he saw people in three apartments across the courtyard were enjoying the view. I got aroused when he said this. We then had sex again, and Jake was even more of an animal in bed than he usually is.
That is how it began.
The next night after we made love, Jason made me tell him another one of my fantasies. He wanted to act them out. As a consequence, we ended up going to some bars with me wearing transparent blouses and no bras. A few days later I had to take an up escalator in the subway wearing a super short skirt and no panties. These were my "harmless" fantasies, and I was running out of them.
When I actually did run out of my harmless fantasies, Jake of course still wanted more. I said okay, I would tell him some more, but they were too wild for us to act out. They were just fantasies, I explained, and some were even illegal, involving other people. He had to agree not to pressure me about them.
Jake was desperate to hear them. He was really excited. He agreed, and in retrospect, he agreed much too quickly.
"These other fantasies involve other people," I said again. Jake works at a hedge fund in New York, which is why we have such a nice apartment. I am, on the other hand, a registered nurse, and I work at a large hospital in Manhattan. I make a lot less money than Jake does. Jake was anxious for me to continue.
"Well, you know how it is. Sometimes the male patients flirt with me. Sometimes they flirt quite a lot. I enjoy flirting back. It helps their morale and is actually good for their recoveries, or at least that's what I think."
"And your fantasy is...?" Jake said.
"The R rated one, or the X rated ones?" I asked him. I was getting into telling him my fantasies, now that I knew he enjoyed them. Hell, he even got off on hearing them! He was always an animal in bed after I told him one, even if I had told it to him before. Jake told me to start with the R rated ones.
"Well, one of them is that one of the men recovering from an operation who is close to leaving the hospital has a crush on me. I often see their privates in the course of my duties, and sometimes they get erections when they have to expose them to me."
"Let me guess," Jake broke in. "You fantasize giving them a going away present of a blowjob, right?"
"Now you're leaving the R zone and entering the X zone," I said.
"Okay, what happens in the R zone?"
"Well, I take a long look at their erection, for example, and then I tell them they must be embarrassed, and ask would it help if I showed them something, too?" I said. "And then I lift up my blouse and push my bra off my boobs and let them take a good, long look. Then I lean over them, with my boobs still exposed, and kiss them lightly on the lips."