There I stood. Half an hour early in front Ella's door. I was so anxious about it this time. I was sweating bullets dreading what was to come, yet the idea of just leaving and not going trough with this never crossed my mind. In fact her "therapy" was at the center of my life. It was all I thought about every day.
Instead of knocking I decided to be bold and just let myself in. Her door was unlocked as usual and when in the living room I saw Ella casually walking around with nothing on except a garter belt. No panties no bra, just the stockings with a lace strap, 4 inch fuck me heels and a not so subtle choker with the silver polished "SLUT" logo.
"Well, well, well, someone's early. I like your eagerness. Since I have some questions for you about the other day its good you came early. I just got done with my make up." Ella placed her hand on her hip and smiled at me.
My eyes were wide and my dick felt warm. I was growing an erection just watching her in that pose. Thank God I have been jerking off on a regular basis thinking about her and her thick cock lover.
"Take your clothes off and sit next to me." Ella sat on the couch and patted the cushion next to her.
I stripped and sat next to her. She giggled seeing that I was half hard already as I sat with our thighs touching.
"Put your legs together." She said softly and pushed my leg a little. My dick was sandwiched and pressed under my thighs making it not visible.
She took my hand and said "Today is going to be very special." She looked me in the eyes leaning on me and holding my hand. "First, tell me how you felt about what happened the other day."
"Well, I didn't expect it to happ-"
She cut me off "Wait, before you tell me, first tell me in your words what you think happened."
"Umm, your boyfriend walked in and I gave him a blowjob like you wanted me to."
"Is that all? Because from where I saw it, it looked like my lover fucked your mouth while I got off on it." Her demeanor was calm while degrading me. "Then he busted a load on your face."
Before I could respond she continued. "He laughed when he came home and said that he's never fucked anything more pathetic."
I didn't have anything to say but felt her gently holding my hand.
"Did you notice his balls?" her eyebrows moved up slightly.
"Yes, they were...full and hung low. It something that I think about every day. How you suck on them an pull them. I love playing with my balls when I jerk off and wish you could do the same with mine." I confessed.
"Do you still think about how his thick cock made you choke? He made you look like his bitch."
"I try not to think about it..."
"Did he hurt you with his big juicy cock?" She squeezed my hand slightly.
"It did hurt a little when he started getting rough."
"I really enjoy it when you're being hurt. How does that make you feel?"
"I don't know why you keep doing this to me. I never wanted to have this type of relationship with you. I just wanted to be friends Ella." My voice cracked a little.
"Shhh, it's okay. Therapy is hard. You accepting who you are takes time and I know my methods are unorthodox but we are making great progress." She put her arm around me. "Today is going to be different, you will just observe and learn. I want you to ask my boyfriend to teach you how to fuck like him. I want you to pay close attention and see why you can't do what he does. It's a huge part of your growth, understanding and acceptance."
"What do you mean?" I asked with my dick completely hard between my legs.
"He's going to be here any moment now. It's been 3 days of me sucking on his balls and denying him orgasms. His huge cock is ready to destroy me. He's eager to fuck the shit out of me." Ella's voice was trembling. "We also agreed that he will be nice to you today. You don't have to be afraid, he won't bully you this time. So when he comes politely ask him to teach you to fuck."
"What am I supposed to say? "Nathan please teach me how to fuck like you?" It feels...-"
"Yeah, that's exactly what you'll say. And there's no shame in it. A beta male like yourself asking a true alpha to show him how its done. You will just watch and learn." Her voice became stern.
I looked to the floor and nodded in defeat.
"My next question is very important and I do want to remind you about our client therapist privilege. What you tell me will stay between us." Ella gently guided my face back to her direction her finger under my chin. "How do you feel about Nathan?"
"How do you mean?"
"You've sucked him more than once and last time it was just you and him. Are you developing any feelings for him? You can't deny that you openly stare at his cock when he uses it. Its clear how much he turns you on."
"I don't have any romantic feelings for him if that's what you're asking...but I do think about him a lot."
"I see. Okay this is important and I need you to be honest. When you think about my boyfriend do you think about him or his swollen cock?"
"Always his cock." I felt a rush saying it out loud.
"How do you feel about his big cock then?"
"When I think about it I get the same feeling when I see it in person. It's a mix of intimidation and anticipation. I know it will definitely hurt because he's going to enjoy himself at my expense by humiliating me and using his size to inflict pain. But I also know I will get so aroused from watching him fuck that it feels like a high."
"So his cock is like a drug? Are you telling me you're addicted to his massive penis?" Her tone was almost mocking in laughter.
"I just know what he can do with it and can't help the way it makes me feel. Especially knowing how he can do things I can't."
"What things? Tell me in detail what you feel like is the difference between the two of you?" Even though Ella in our previous encounters has pointed it out I knew that repetition is a method of hers and I knew I had to play along.
"It makes me feel really jealous. His size, his girth, his length. His balls are so much bigger than mine and I want to know what it's like to have my balls sucked like he does. He's very experienced and fucks hard every time. I know I can't make women orgasm like he does."
"I figured as much. You do know that being aroused by another man and particularly by a man like my sexy boyfriend makes you a faggot right?" She smiled at the end.
I looked at her with a blank expression with nothing to say.
After she enjoyed me being silent for a while and her words weighing on me she said. "Cheer up! There's something else by the way..."
"What's tha-" Before I could finish my sentence Ella turned my face towards hers and kissed me. It started as a lip kiss and then gradually became deeper, it became more. Her soft warm lips sent shockwaves trough me. I have no idea how long the kiss lasted but it was a significant amount of time. For as long as it lasted I was the happiest man on the planet. I had forgotten that she promised me kisses.
When she slowly pulled away I kept my eyes close and felt the bliss run trough me. As I slowly opened my eyes I saw her looking up with a smile and biting her lip slightly. As I adjusted my gaze I saw the 9 inch stellar thick cock I sucked 3 days ago hulking over me with his proud owner completely naked and menacing. I was so passionate when kissing I didn't notice him entering the room and waltzing close.
"Looks like we can start today's session right? I've been waiting for release a while now." He said grabbing his shaft towering over me.
"Actually babe, my patient has something to tell you. Isn't that right?" Ella nudged me.
"Uhhh, yes. Nat-Nathan can you um-"