There I stood. Half an hour early in front Ella's door. I was so anxious about it this time. I was sweating bullets dreading what was to come, yet the idea of just leaving and not going trough with this never crossed my mind. In fact her "therapy" was at the center of my life. It was all I thought about every day.
Instead of knocking I decided to be bold and just let myself in. Her door was unlocked as usual and when in the living room I saw Ella casually walking around with nothing on except a garter belt. No panties no bra, just the stockings with a lace strap, 4 inch fuck me heels and a not so subtle choker with the silver polished "SLUT" logo.
"Well, well, well, someone's early. I like your eagerness. Since I have some questions for you about the other day its good you came early. I just got done with my make up." Ella placed her hand on her hip and smiled at me.
My eyes were wide and my dick felt warm. I was growing an erection just watching her in that pose. Thank God I have been jerking off on a regular basis thinking about her and her thick cock lover.
"Take your clothes off and sit next to me." Ella sat on the couch and patted the cushion next to her.
I stripped and sat next to her. She giggled seeing that I was half hard already as I sat with our thighs touching.
"Put your legs together." She said softly and pushed my leg a little. My dick was sandwiched and pressed under my thighs making it not visible.
She took my hand and said "Today is going to be very special." She looked me in the eyes leaning on me and holding my hand. "First, tell me how you felt about what happened the other day."
"Well, I didn't expect it to happ-"
She cut me off "Wait, before you tell me, first tell me in your words what you think happened."
"Umm, your boyfriend walked in and I gave him a blowjob like you wanted me to."
"Is that all? Because from where I saw it, it looked like my lover fucked your mouth while I got off on it." Her demeanor was calm while degrading me. "Then he busted a load on your face."
Before I could respond she continued. "He laughed when he came home and said that he's never fucked anything more pathetic."
I didn't have anything to say but felt her gently holding my hand.
"Did you notice his balls?" her eyebrows moved up slightly.
"Yes, they were...full and hung low. It something that I think about every day. How you suck on them an pull them. I love playing with my balls when I jerk off and wish you could do the same with mine." I confessed.
"Do you still think about how his thick cock made you choke? He made you look like his bitch."
"I try not to think about it..."
"Did he hurt you with his big juicy cock?" She squeezed my hand slightly.
"It did hurt a little when he started getting rough."
"I really enjoy it when you're being hurt. How does that make you feel?"
"I don't know why you keep doing this to me. I never wanted to have this type of relationship with you. I just wanted to be friends Ella." My voice cracked a little.
"Shhh, it's okay. Therapy is hard. You accepting who you are takes time and I know my methods are unorthodox but we are making great progress." She put her arm around me. "Today is going to be different, you will just observe and learn. I want you to ask my boyfriend to teach you how to fuck like him. I want you to pay close attention and see why you can't do what he does. It's a huge part of your growth, understanding and acceptance."
"What do you mean?" I asked with my dick completely hard between my legs.
"He's going to be here any moment now. It's been 3 days of me sucking on his balls and denying him orgasms. His huge cock is ready to destroy me. He's eager to fuck the shit out of me." Ella's voice was trembling. "We also agreed that he will be nice to you today. You don't have to be afraid, he won't bully you this time. So when he comes politely ask him to teach you to fuck."
"What am I supposed to say? "Nathan please teach me how to fuck like you?" It feels...-"
"Yeah, that's exactly what you'll say. And there's no shame in it. A beta male like yourself asking a true alpha to show him how its done. You will just watch and learn." Her voice became stern.
I looked to the floor and nodded in defeat.
"My next question is very important and I do want to remind you about our client therapist privilege. What you tell me will stay between us." Ella gently guided my face back to her direction her finger under my chin. "How do you feel about Nathan?"
"How do you mean?"
"You've sucked him more than once and last time it was just you and him. Are you developing any feelings for him? You can't deny that you openly stare at his cock when he uses it. Its clear how much he turns you on."
"I don't have any romantic feelings for him if that's what you're asking...but I do think about him a lot."