Piper
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I keep thinking about that night. Actually, I keep thinking about Dust.
How he was so horny despite his nervousness. Him being so cutely out of his element and stumbling through it all. The way he didn't put me down and instead wanted to go along with my interests. How he was so nice and considerate, but put his foot down when I suggested something he didn't want to do.
That might have been the best thing I'd ever been given, and I let it go so awkwardly. I guess it was a one-night stand, but still! I could have at least given him my number.
Then again, he did block me on Bunkmates afterwards. Maybe I went too far without realizing it. I'd ask a friend, but I'm definitely not close enough with anyone right now to talk about that. I don't want to scare people away again.
So I've been stuck, rotating the memories of that night in my head like I'm watching my laundry do the spin cycle.
Every night, when I'm alone in bed, I think about it. When I watch porn, I think about it. I can't get that wonderful experience out of my head!
That's why now, an entire week after that night, I nearly squeal when I see Dust in the public library. Thankfully, I have enough brainpower to cup a hand over my mouth and step to the side of the aisle he stands in.
He blocked me. I have to remember that. I went too far with the BDSM stuff and now he wouldn't want to see me out and about.
Still, I can't help myself. I have to at least see what he's reading. I'm the helplessly curious kind of girl, after all.
I peek my head into the aisle and-- What?
In his hands, Dust skims a page midway through Fifty Shades of Grey.
Okay, no. He might not like me, but it's my duty as someone into BDSM to smack that book out of his hands and toss it into a fire.
"Hey, Dusty," I say, entering the aisle.
He flips out and hides the book behind his back. He tries to look casual, but he's got no poker face. "Dusty? Since when did I have a nickname?"
"Since I decided it would be cute. Oh, and you can quit hiding that book now."
With a defeated sigh, he holds the book out in front of him.
"Hey, don't give it to me. Toss it in the trash where it belongs."
"Huh? But I thought you were into this kind of stuff."
"I am, and that's why I hate it. That stupid series makes it look like BDSM is for people with mommy issues that can only be dealt with by fucking girls who look like her."
Dust's face twists up in disgust. That book might as well be a used condom from the way he's looking at it. "Okay. I see your point. I'll put it back. Not throwing it away and getting in trouble with the library."
He puts the book back from whence it came and I turn to walk away, knowing I've overstayed my welcome.
"Hey, where're you going?"
Turning back around, I find Dust hot on my heels. "Well, you blocked me, so I'll get out of your hair."
"I didn't mean to! I mean, I did. Kinda. But I immediately regretted it. When I got home, I was so nervous. For some stupid reason, I thought my parents would immediately know what I was up to that I tried to cover my tracks. I didn't block you, I deleted my Bunkmates account." He taps his fingers together, all cute and nervous-like. "Actually, I wanted to see you again."
The pieces fall into place in my mind before he can continue. First the book and now that blush; not quite a nervous blush, but an embarrassed blush. The blush he had when I first brought up sex in the cafe last week. Taking those both into account, I can only guess he wants more.
Still, that doesn't mean I can't toy with him a little.
"Oh? Why would that be?" I ask, feigning ignorance.
"I-- Um-- Well, I--" he pauses and his blush deepens further. "Can we sit down for a minute and talk?"
He leads me upstairs. It was empty enough downstairs, but this looks to be a reading room without a librarian to man it. Without any staff, this floor is completely deserted.
I sit at a wooden desk as he takes his seat across from me. The poor boy can't help but fidget with his hands as he thinks of what to say.
"So?" I prod.
"Well, um, last week was nice. I'm sorry if this is too much, but I've never had that kind of experience before. I wasn't quite expecting whoever I hooked up with to be so accommodating." He flinches. "Not that you came across as bad in the DMs or anything! I just didn't think everything would go so smoothly."
"Accommodating? You're the one that ended up taking it in the ass."
He makes a cute little freaked-out noise. "What I meant was that you kept checking in on me and making sure I was okay with everything. I was so scared, but everything felt fine with you. Even when I was all handcuffed, I didn't think anything bad would happen."
No, no, wait. If he keeps going on in this way, he's going to make me blush. That is the opposite of what I'm trying to do.
"But why would you want to see me again?" I ask.
He squeaks uncomfortably. "Well, the thing is, I wanted to try getting out and doing more stuff. Things that my parents might not exactly approve of. I've already joined the university's queer club, but trying to broaden my understanding of myself and interacting with people I'm not supposed to is making me even more stressed. That night, though. When I let you take control and--"
"Fuck your ass."
He cringes. "Yeah, that. It was relaxing. And I know I said I was panicking when I got home, but it would be that way no matter who I saw. And after that panic subsided? I felt at peace in a way I haven't in so long."
I smile. It seems I'm the only one who's been unable to get our night together out of my head.
"So what do you want?" I ask.
"I... I think you know."
I lean across the table, a drop of lust falling into my smile. "Tell me what you want. Say it and you might get it."
Dust gulps. "I was wondering if, maybe, we could turn it into a regular thing. You get to-- to dom me and I get to relieve my stress. A, um, friends with benefits sort of deal. Well, acquaintances with benefits, since we don't really know each other that well."
I tap my finger against my lips and look up, as if I actually have to consider this. "I don't know," I say, "Maybe. You'll have to do one or two things for me first."
"What?"