"Who are you, fucking Caligula?" I asked him, pissed as hell.
"No, babe, I just thought it might spice things up. You know we're pretty rigid when it comes to sex. You lie on your back, I stimulate your clit, then I climb aboard and that's it."
"What more do you want, Evan? We make love like most married couples do."
"Yes, I know, but, Chrissy, I'll bet your imagination comes up with all sorts of things when you fire up the vibrator."
He was right but in the face of his debauched suggestion I wasn't going to give him the pleasure of being right. My fantasies were mine.
"I know you, Chrissy. I'll bet when you're in fantasy land you do what you're told. Am I right?"
He was, again, right but to me it was just a fantasy. Married sex was supposed to be different.
"Dave told me about when you guys dated in college, the four-way you had with his roommate and two other dorm guys?"
"Asshole, he promised never to tell anyone about that." I was angry and embarrassed but a little titillated all at the same time. Even so, I was a married woman and he should never have said anything to Evan. I'd never do it again. I was young.
To be honest with myself I'd fantasized about it more than once when I was masturbating.
"Dave has a big mouth."
"Did you like it?" He asked.
"I don't remember. It was a long time ago," I said hoping to lie my way out of the conversation.
"I think you did. Did they all fuck you?"
"Evan!!"
"Well, I think they did and privately you liked it. And if you did then why is my suggestion so weird? It could really broaden our sex life. More fun for both of us."
"You're a pervert. Why would you ask your wife to be a sex toy for friends and possibly total strangers if you weren't a pervert?"
"Because...I think you're my little closet submissive. Look, I love you like crazy but I think you'd really enjoy yourself and I'd be turned on watching. Besides, you always tell me how attractive you think Bill is and he'll be there."
"Pervert!"
"One of the other wives already said yes."
"What? You're making that up. Who?"
"Janey."
***
I remembered the four-way very well but that was a time when I was still experimenting and everything was new. I did a LOT of things. I was 19 for fuck's sake. But I felt I had to grow up and be an adult.
After our conversation I went in the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I wasn't a raving beauty but I was certainly pretty; 5'4", short black bobbed hair and blue eyes. I always knew I had a beautiful body. Everything was in the right place and the looks from men confirmed that.
In daily life I saw myself as an attractive married woman, definitely not a sex toy. I started to think about how I presented myself in my fantasies and the more I looked the more I realized that Evan was right, I did what I was told and I loved it. Just the thought of it got me wet.
In nearly all of my fantasies I was used by my partner or, I had to admit, multiple partners. But isn't that the kind of thing that all people do in fantasies? That doesn't mean you run out and start fucking everything in sight.
That's why they're called fantasies.
I was mad that Evan had pulled back the curtain on my sex drive, even a little bit. I thought a lot about that four-way. I orgasmed at least twice that I can remember. Their 19 year old cocks were at their peak, hard as a rock and able to shoot a stream of cum five feet. I had a lot of sex in college, especially after that got around and even though I asked Dave not to talk about it.
Maybe he told Evan because he figured that the statute of limitations had expired.
I went for a walk and called Dave.
"Hey, darlin'," he said, chipper and cheery, "to what do I owe this call?"
"You told Evan about the four-way. Why'd you do that?"
"Well actually I didn't start it. Steve was with us at the bar and he brought it up because he thought Evan knew and we were talking about some group action and assumed you'd be in. Then he turned to me for the details and...well...I might have talked too much. Sorry."
"You should be. Now Evan wants me to do it."
"Well don't you want to do it? Sort of a reunion with the boys and I'll bet Evan's getting a hard one just thinking about it."
"We were 19, Dave, what the fuck?"
"You liked it then and I bet you'll like it now. As I recall you let us do whatever we wanted and you sure seemed to be happy. I know we were."
I just hung up the phone. I couldn't talk about it anymore.
***
The next morning while showering I let my lusty thoughts loose and remembered the four-way and how they each pinned my wrists to the wall while they took turns fucking me. While the memories flooded back I started fingering my pussy. I'd forgotten how great it felt to give myself up to them. They fucked me for the longest time and I urged them to fuck me more but I'd worn them out. When I climaxed in the shower I got a little too vocal and Evan knocked on the door, "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine, just dropped the soap," I covered.
I let the water massage my cunt and at that moment I thought back to what really sent my pussy over the edge that day and every other time...their intense eyes. They desired me so completely I felt swallowed up by their lust. I loved them fucking me but I may have been even more excited about how they looked at me.
I liked being watched while being used.
I saved it for my fantasies and filed it away when I got married. I thought that only a slut would have those kinds of nasty thoughts so I'd kept it to myself and away from my husband...until now.
He'd seen through the facade and Dave's retelling simply cemented what he suspected and now he and his friends wanted to take me and apparently Janey, dogging.
Dogging was a version of public sex that was catching on locally at a couple of parks. Exhibitionists would drive to a well known area of the park, turn off the car, flip on the dome light (a signal to random men) and have some sort of sex for the voyeurs jerking off outside the car. When it was over the light went off and the exhibitionists drove home.
Unless...
Unless one of the 'entertainers' opened the door, a signal that they were inviting some of the voyeurs in for a blowjob or to fuck the wife or girlfriend.
It was the very definition of debauched but when I read about it online I got hotter than a campfire and jerked myself to glory. I imagined it was me in the middle of the park and now my own husband wanted to take me there to watch.
Maybe he'd gone there as a voyeur, I didn't know.
I had thought that settling down would mean putting away those urges but I was wrong. Even before I talked about it again with Evan I was craving the idea.
This conversation not only revealed my fetishes to Evan but revealed his dirty little mind to me. Were we just playing at being a conservative married couple? Apparently so. Now we'd have to talk about it seriously.
I asked him to sit down at the table.
"It seems that after five years of marriage there are sexual things we've kept from one another and I don't think that's healthy. At the least it's frustrating having to hide things from the one person you supposedly can confide in."
"I agree."
"Do you? When we met and fell in love I thought you wanted a normal girl and I've tried to be that for you but that's not the complete me. That's the role I've played for you and then when I'd masturbate I let my submissive slut out of its hiding place. I've hidden it but you seem to have figured it out anyway."
"Chrissy, I'm not that intuitive. A couple weeks ago at the bar Steve got fairly drunk and told me a lot about your sex life in college and after graduation. He admitted to fucking you many times over the years. And then Dave chimed in and then Bill with story after story. On more than one occasion Bill said you were the featured 'entertainment' at his frat house parties."
"So what did you think of me after hearing all that?"
"Initially I was kinda shocked but with each story, and believe me they couldn't stop, I got hornier and hornier. One of my fantasies was always to share my wife with a group of men and come to find out I was married to a full throttle submissive and didn't even know it."
"So you really want to take me dogging?"
"Ya baby, the guys will be there to make it more comfortable the first time."
"What if strangers want more than just to watch?"
"That's up to you. You can have as much cock as you want. I'll just enjoy the show."
"Evan, this is bizarre talking like this. For me it's like waking up from a coma. I'm very excited."
"Me too. Now after all this talk I need some pussy so strip for me and then spread your legs."
I happily obeyed.
***
I called Janey to ask if she was really going to do this and her ambivalence made me think I was the only one of the wives who said yes.
"Evan said you were in."
"Ahhh, I don't know. I mean, having sex in public is really not my thing. I mean, I could do it but I'm definitely not into having some strangers groping me. The whole thing is a little gross in my opinion. How about you?"
"I'm gonna do it. In fact, I'm looking forward to it."
"Chrissy, why? I never would've guessed you for dogging."
"Deep inside me there's a submissive slut being held hostage and both Evan and I want to let her out."