"Well good morning to you too, bitch; it's like in the AM, so that's morning, right Holly?" A flounced, voluminous peasant blouse enhanced the humongous cleavage mashed into the table. Some of that prime tit-meat was bulging onto the table, top and underneath. I slid into the opposite side facing her noticing the Bohemian print on her frock. Holly looked taller than me seated there as I noticed a cigarette in her hand. Ms. McMichael was using a saucer as an ashtray staring at my face, intently.
"Who cares? Where is my man; don't play in my face, this shit is important, okay?" She took a drag as I noticed a server bypassing us ignoring her smoking. Holly was drawing attention but cared nothing about it.
"Didn't you ghost him first?"
"That is not what's on the table right now; so, you better not try none of that "bros before hoes" shit with me or we're chunking it out on the sidewalk outside. I did what I did, made a gametime decision for both of us; fucked up and dropped the ball. Now you're gonna sit here and hold down a guy that was more than willing to share me with you. DID YOU FORGET HOW WE MET?!! You forget the other BBC in the motherfucking room, huh? Wasn't no great love story, dude! You were all up in my damn titties before I bounced; or did you forget that shit while you were hugging it out with my gawd damn man?!"
"Chill, people are watching." I cautioned as the server returned filling my water glass. Holly was nursing a mug of black coffee.
"I don't give a fuck; I could wipe my pimply ass with what they think! Now, are we good, or are you gonna play the role with me about this cheating shit?" Holly McMichael cut through all the banter with this strained distressed look on her face that drew some disparaging looks my way from an adjacent booth stuffed with guys from the boulevard. I knew better than to meet their eyes, as I answered.
"Holly, he left town with a duffle in the back of his truck. I don't think he's coming back."
Tears started streaming down her face making the mascara run freely as she buried her face in her hands. I was given the impression she would've hunched over the table if she were physically able.
"AW FUCK, SHIT!! FUCK ME, MAN!! FUCK ME!!" Holly shouted at the top of her lungs. Her grief was palpable enough that time seemed to stop for a moment as all eyes found the booth we shared. A server walked over leaning over Holly's big back with a handful of tissues intermittently shooting me a look or two. I just sat there as the women whispered before the server went about her rounds.
"Sorry." I offered contritely taken aback by her facedown sobs.
"Eighteen grand."
"What?"
"Eighteen motherfucking grand, dude; that's how much it cost." My face wrinkled up at the assumption that my work wife and two-time fuck buddy went to Vegas to sell her cooch.
"I don't wanna know." I started to slide out of the booth intent on leaving Holly there alone fueled by the memory of Phil's emotionally disheveled face as he bit the bullet telling me about her betrayal.
"That fucking hospital was chomping on my ass for the rest of that money, with interest. It was already too late when I found those bills in his stuff! Wasn't my fault he never applied for medical insurance; didn't have disability even though he knew he had acute heart disease! Derbin ain't coming up off no checks working the takeout window at the chicken shack, so what the fuck was I supposed to do while he was laid up, huh? He couldn't do his fucking uber job. He had to take his time recovering, but those bills didn't give a fuck! What was I supposed to do, man; I GOT KIDS! You wanna sit here and turn yo' fucking nose up at me; then give me a fucking answer! I'm shit, right? GIVE ME AN ANSWER!!"
"Hey, I would've loaned you some money." Holly sat up looking distraught, huffing and sniffling, giving me the impression, she might plant a ham sized fist in my mush if I kept talking. Instead, she slapped a handful of paper towels into her face blowing her nose loudly as one nearby couple got up and moved to another table. Holly watched raising a middle finger at the guy's female companion before I reached over pulling her hand down. I wilted under her tear-soaked gaze, unused to seeing her in this manner.
"I should get up and go back there and commence to stomping on the bitch neck, huh?"
"I got no money to bail you out of jail tonight."
"But you got eighteen grand to pay my nigga's medical bills on a last notice, right? How about my fourteen hundred dollar rent after we moved into a bigger place I just got stuck with the bill for, huh brother? My kids got needs, man...Derbin works part time at the chicken shack and my old BBC was on the mend; couldn't even help me with the kids, so I had to start letting stupid ass Derbin have them on weekends."
"Why didn't you talk to me, Holly?"
"And say what; all you wanna do is fuck around with my big ass titties! That's all anyone ever wants to do with me! Nobody cares about the bitch holding these motherfucking boulders; so why should you? We work together, man; I fucks with you for real, but I don't open my shit for public consumption. I learned early on that a bitch gotta hold her own nuts in this life! Ain't no Prince Charming coming for a basic female, even with these big ass fucking titties. STOP FRONTING!! What would you have me do?"
"Shit, Holly." I took a sip from a fresh cup of coffee placed in front of me by the suspicious server.
"So uhm, I was feeling the burn with all the bills, my screaming kids and my man who couldn't do much of anything but lay on the couch and watch Netflix. That shit felt like it was my fault because he was boning the fuck out of me when that stroke got his old ass in a chokehold. I was so scared that night; thought I was gonna lose him. Phil was out for a few days, and I thought that motherfucker was gonna die on me."
The paper towels were soaked through as the waitress returned with a new handful looking angrily at my face. I didn't say a word, knowing better than to give a damn about some stranger's opinion of me.
"Shit, I lost it when my kid kept asking for some little video game shit and almost got child services called on me for busting his narrow tail with that belt. Derbin's bacon thot put him up to it, but he took that shit back because he knew I was gonna come back to that trailer with my strap. I did what I had to do."
"What did you do, Holly?"
"Online shit." She sniffled some more while taking a deep drink of coffee as I processed.
"Online shit?"
"Yeah, I was in the shower crying under the spray worried I was gonna have to get Phil into a shelter because I couldn't do it with the kids and him, keep my job and not have a nervous breakdown. I was shitting bricks and those bills never stopped coming. So, I used these; used my girls to close the gap in my fucking pocketbook and you can kiss my ass if you think that makes me a piece of shit. These titties been plaguing me since I was twelve and I can't count the number of times I had to beat a guy bloody just to get home from school. Can't count the number of "indecent proposals" I got from people and grimy fucks just helping themselves! Derbin ain't shit and ain't never gonna be shit! But I got these right here!"
"You made an Only Fans page?"
"First night was a bust just figuring that crap out and getting my cash app card registered. I said fuck that noise but got me one of those cam pages thingies. Just sat there looking stupid with this tube top on not knowing what I was supposed to do. Some geek came into my space asking to see my tits, so I told him I wanted a couple of hundred. Motherfucker paid up, on the spot! Just to see my tits; for a minute or two, dude! I got six Bemjamins that night, then logged off because I thought that shit might be illegal. Didn't want the police arresting me for porn shit; I don't know, alright?! Came back later that week...gravy train ever since."
"Why didn't you tell Phil?" Holly looked at me starting to hunch her shoulders, then looked away out the restaurant's paneled window at the sparse street traffic.
"I just didn't."
"Why?"
"Stupid I guess; that money started rolling in along with the compliments and talk. I uhm, liked the attention and those guys would listen to whatever I had to say, and some really uhm, engaged with me. Phil just, seemed to be drifting away but I never had any intentions of fucking him over. Hell man, I knew those guys just wanted to get in my pants, but I told myself I'd quit once I made my big score. Well...this weekend was that big motherfucking score. After I traded with you, I figured I'd tell him I was catting out at my friend's house. It was spur of the moment sure, but I'd been working up to it for weeks."
"How?"