Dear Diary

'Punishments should always fit the crime', that sounds fair but life isn't always fair. Especially when you're a slave like me..

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There was once where I failed to swallow all of a customer's cum after he pulled out of my pussy and stuffed it into my mouth. It wasn't like I didn't want to swallow it all, it was just that his cock was too big for me to properly swallow it. And I knew there wasn't any excuses not to obey any of Master's instructions, like swallowing all the time.

As what my Master had lectured me on, Swallowing cum is a form of respect towards the man and something for us slaves to receive as an reward for our hard work. But failing to swallow a man's cum is a form of disrespect, as it basically tells the man that I didn't respect his hard work in fucking me and that I didn't want a reward.

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There had been many times where I had failed to swallow the men's cum. It were all unintentional. Like having 2 cumming cocks in my mouth, constant non stop blowjobs, and those sickos that loved to pee in my mouth after I had cleaned their cum-filled cocks with my mouth.

In the olden days of slavery, mistakes and failures could lead to torture and death. Thankfully, now in the modern world, mistakes could be corrected and failures could be disciplined. Below are the list of punishments that I had to do so far whenever I failed to swallow a man's cum, along with simple background of how it happened.

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1)My former teachers

One night, as I did my work as a prostitute, my former teacher opened his doors and I was shocked to see him. Praying that he wouldn't recognize me, I went into his home. I kept looking down as there were 2 others in the living room, all were my former teachers. After standing in front of them and taking off all of my clothes, one of them asked if I was Qinhua.. and I froze.

My mind was blank and I knew I didn't had any other choices other than to be honest.. so I told them the truth.. that yes, I was their student back in school.. and yes.. I am a prostitute..

The blowjobs, handjobs and sex went on and eventually, I failed to swallow all of their cum. My former teachers were actually pretty cool about my failure.. but they didn't pay for the service.. and reported the incident to my Master.

Master and the gang were obviously unhappy with my poor performance, and my punishment came in 2 parts.

First, in the public park men's restrooms, I had to be video recorded by Dickson, my neighbor, as I stripped naked, got down on all fours and licked the men's urinals cleaned with my tongue on my knees. Drinking and licking the fluid that was stained on the urinals.. and licking the floor below them.. those pee soaked stains.. before I had to play with myself on camera and orgasmed on my knees.

For the second part, as expected, I had to service and fuck the 3 customers which I had failed before, my former teachers... for free. But this time I had to do it in my own home.

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2)The gang birthday party

At one of the gang's birthday parties where a man had his birthday, us slaves were treated like sex meat livestocks to be prepared, eaten and used.. (Yes, I'm not the only slave in the gang, obviously.)

I was assigned to be the blowjob meat sack with my hands tied behind my back and hair tied to a steel bar behind me.. (the hair part was painful to be honest) and kneeling on the floor with the yoga pads for my knees.

After the 8th or so cocks, I accidentally leaked out a drip of cum at the corner of my mouth, which I quickly licked it up and swallowed it. However, the man that had just came inside my mouth saw that and he announced my failure to everyone...

One of the men that were in charge of the sex party, came and questioned the man. As usual, only the men's side of the story was heard and I got slapped in the face for my failure.. Even though I had quickly apologized for my mistake, none of the men were interested in my stupid excuses and were only concerned with punishing me for my defiance in obeying their orders as a good girl. One of them even said, "A mistake is when you accidentally fails. Constant mistakes equals to a failure, and you are a failure."

That sentence hurt me a lot and I was totally terrified.. I was already at the mercy of hundreds of horny and strong men..

The next thing that happened, I got released from my bondage and had my hair pulled and dragged as I remained handcuffed behind my back. Initially, I thought I had to drink pee or cum again.. possibly even feces.. but I was dead wrong..

The men dragged me out of the condo and brought me naked body out to the public!! First, I had to squat down onto an opened drainage and peed into it in front of the men that had followed me to video record my humiliation and to have a good fun time watching me embarrass myself.. Secondly, my head got stepped down and I had to drink the muddy water in the drainage that I had just peed into.. Finally, I had to grind my body against a street light pole until I orgasmed.

Once I had done all that, and the men had decided that I had proven myself worthy again to be fucked and used, 2 of them took turns to fuck my pussy in the public before they brought me back to the party and told everyone what I just did for my punishment.. >< It was humiliating.....

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3)Red dot of connections

Have you ever wondered what's it like to be living in a small village where everyone knows everyone? Like that cute guy you saw at work was actually your ex boyfriend's brother, or the man you just fucked in a one night stand was actually your co-worker's friend, or that older man whose cock you sucked was actually one of your dad's friends.. That's what it feels like living in Singapore.

Everyone knows everyone.

It's just a little red dot on the world map.. it's a small country.. the smallest..

And that was why.. when I serviced that one customer.. suddenly my former work colleagues sent me my nude pictures and asked me if they could have a go at me... At a discounted price if not my naked pictures would be posted all over the internet with my face, phone number and home address..

Singapore has a weird law.. that if your naked pictures got exposed, they would probably try 10% of their resources to track who spread them and 90% of their efforts to find and punish the naked person and punished them for indecent exposure of one's body.. aka me. I didn't want to go to jail or pay a fine which would lead me into more prostitution work to clear my debts off.. so naturally, I told my former co-workers on my usual price of $100 per service and begged them not to spread my naked pictures.. They promised that they wouldn't if I serviced them for the hefty price of $10.

When I showed up to the location that they wanted me to be at, which was a downtown private mini bar. I was instructed by Master to wear a loose purple mini dress with purple high heels after I told Master what had happened.

I went into the mini bar with Master and saw 6 of my former male colleagues together with 3 women. My former colleagues, (FC), told everyone what happened by explaining to them that I am a cheap horny and slutty prostitute that used to work with them in the office.. only charging $10 per fuck because my main goal was to fuck as many men as possible.. Everyone laughed at me before Master ordered me to remove my dress.. which I did.. After Master set up a camera on a stand to video record everything and went to the side..

I don't have a perfect memory and I didn't see the video footage.. but I remembered that I had to crawl naked around the mini bar while barking like a dog in front of the men and women..

Eventually, the men couldn't resist anymore and started to take turns to have their way with me. All 6 of my FCs, with the 3 women also making me licked their pussies until they orgasmed on my face..

My heart sank into the lowest despair and humiliation when Master told everyone that I didn't make an effort to clean up the mess on the floor.. the mess being the men's cum and the women's juices.. The FCs suggested that I should be punished for that and Master agreed. Master went away and brought in something that He had prepared for me in the event of my failure..

As the men and women laughed out loud at me.. I had my head stepped on by Master, knelt on the floor, butt up, hands cuffed behind my back as I got fucked by a huge husky dog.. and all of it was video recorded on camera..

Because I was crying, not smiling, and not happily moaning in pleasure, Master removed his foot and pushed the dog away before asking me if I wanted to be punished further for not putting in effort in entertaining the lovely ladies and gentlemen. I apologized and the doggy fuck continued..

After my humiliating doggy fuck, Master told everyone that the video would be sent to them so that they could share them with their friends.. and possibly increase the chances of meeting more of my former friends, classmates and colleagues.. Everyone cheered as I smiled with tears flowing down my face..

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Although I kept telling myself that I hated being treated like nothing more than a fuck toy for men.. My pussy is always wet and I am always ready to be violated.. The truth is.. I love being treated like a piece of sex meat.. Whose sole purpose in life is to worship, serve, suck and fuck men and their cocks..

Serving women isn't new but it's weird for me.. (I'm sorry)

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Anyway, to end this diary entry off, previously I was given homework to do on the things I am grateful for. Master had given me another piece of homework to do and it's about my top 10 favorite things that I love to do on my free time.

1)Watching Anime

2)Reading manga

3)Watching porn

4)Drinking alcohol

5)Masturbating indoors and outdoors

6)Being naked in public

7)Sending nudes and setting myself up for blackmail..

8)Vibrators at home and in public

9)Dressing super slutty and walking around in public

10)Wearing my slave collar in public

Bonus: 11)Peeing in public..

To clarify:

1)Watching anime: I am intrigued mostly by fantasy stuff, magic spells, another world(isekai) and of course, slavery. Anime like 'Another world with my smartphone' or 'Slave harem in the labyrinth' or 'Redo of healer' are some of my favorites.

2)Reading manga: again, I love the slave stuff.. but also martial arts genre like 'Martial peak' or gaming types like 'The Gamer'.

3)Watching porn: At first it was just an assignment that Master had ordered me to do. But I started to get immersed into it with gang plays, rape plays, public plays and slave plays.. Seeing how happy the female lead is while serving the men is something that I will always strive myself to be like. I actually have a lot of pride in my ability to serve men..

4)Drinking alcohol: at first, it was to numb the pain of my body and my mental health. Because I was physically hit on, kneeling for too long, and being fucked by so many men, my body actually hurts after doing so much stuff.. so the alcohol helps. As time went on, I find myself being less concerned about doing humiliating and degrading stuff in front of men and in the public whenever I drank some alcohol.. that actually helps me to be more extroverted since I am actually an introvert.

5)Masturbating indoors and outdoors: If you read of my routine, I had to orgasm pretty much a lot of times at home and in public as ordered by Master. Although initially I didn't like the idea of orgasming in public, I had learned to grow fond of it. Especially when there were huge risks of getting caught when I'm orgasming in public.. The excitement of possibly being seen by someone or risk being caught red handed by someone other than the police, always seemed to excite me and making my nipples more sensitive and my pussy even wetter..

I guess I'm not an extrovert or an introvert or an ambivert.. I'm just a pervert........

6)Being naked in public: same as above. The risks involved makes me very sensitive and horny and wet.. The best part is when I couldn't find my clothes when I walked naked in public, orgasmed and returned back. That sense of panic and helplessness that I felt would make me go crazy.. like I didn't know what to do as I was completely naked in public without any of my belongings.. I couldn't even call for help as I didn't have my phone with me.. All I could do was to walk back home naked.. praying that I wouldn't be seen and I would always end up orgasming again because of the intense fear and embarrassment that I would receive if I were to be caught naked in public... Just typing about this makes me horny.. :)

7)Sending nudes and setting myself up for blackmail: Yes.. I'm an Machoist.. (opposite of sadist) I honestly love to be blackmailed into doing erotic stuff for men that I never met before.. Being at their mercy makes me feel so lovable and worthy.. like I am their good little pet.. Bit of course, I wouldn't actually want my naked pictures to be on the internet.. As I had mentioned, Singapore laws aimed at the ones that posed naked rather than the ones that shared those pictures..

8)Vibrators at home and in public: As you may already know from my diary entries, I am not allowed to have absolutely nothing inside my pussy at all times other than peeing, bathing or when ordered to. If there isn't any cock inside my pussy, I am required to insert a vibrator into it. Egg vibrators are mostly used by the men to insert into me for teasing purposes, whereas Dildos are the main options, for indoors and outdoors.

As usual, as you may had guessed, this originally started out as a form of training for me to only think about sex, cocks and pleasuring men... even when I'm out in public and walking around.. I had to think about those 3 things and only those 3 things.. Sex, Cocks and Pleasuring men..

With a vibrating dildo in my pussy, there was just no way that I could stop thinking about those 3 things even when I'm in public.. and that taught me to always be grateful whenever a man decided to use me for sex. Because having sex is like an reward for me and I love having sex.. especially gang sex.. where I am manhandled by multiple men.. the sense of helplessness at the mercy of a gang of strong men always excites me....

Plus having to orgasm in public and being seen by strangers is always something that I love doing.. I love being humiliated by men, in front of men, and for men..

9)Dressing super slutty and walking around in public: The definition of dressing super slutty was explained to me by Master and the gang at the start along with my dressing up rules. First, no underwear at all, meaning no panties and no bra at all times. Second, any form of clothing that covered my legs had to be at mid thigh length or shorter.. that goes for dresses and skirts and shorts. Third, there's no such thing as long sleeve shirts, only short sleeves or sleeveless, along with low cut cleavage that would exposed the top part of my boobs.

At first, it was like a dare. I had to dress super slutty and walked around in public.. enduring the lustful eyes of the male audience as they didn't even have to try hard to undress me with their eyes.. Being a shy introvert made this even harder for me as I also had to make conversation with the men that approached me.. Plus, I wasn't allowed to be disrespectful and could only be polite and always smiling happily with a few giggles as if I was encouraging them to take advantage of me..

Things would be escalated sooner or later and I would be groped and touched by the men.. Refusal isn't an option as I am not allowed (by Master) to Refuse, Run or Resist any man on earth. Even if the men that I never met before wanted to fuck me, I had to gladly fuck them.. even if it's for free..

This would also evolved into stalking.. which made Master ordering me to do more slutty stuff if I were to be stalked by men.. Stuff like walking into a dark alley with my dress or skirt up, waiting for my stalker to follow me so that I could lure him into sex with me..

Dressing super slutty is something I had to always do and to be honest, I am still not used to it.. Especially when I'm dressing super slutty in town where everyone would be dressing up decently and formally in their office attire.. Or when I'm walking back home from the train station in the morning where everyone was headed for work or school.. Or when it was raining heavily and anyone that passed by could easily see my nipples soaking and poking through the thin fabric over my wet body..

10)Wearing my slave collar in public: It's a taboo to do that.. because Singapore is a rather conservative country(with a lot of perverts hidden away). Sometimes during my walks in public, I would take out the slave collar from my handbag and collared myself around the neck before I continued walking.. Most people would immediately noticed that I had a collar with the word 'SLAVE' around my neck as it was huge and black in color. That only adds more humiliation and made my pussy very wet when I got caught doing that.. But the most humiliating and embarrassing part would be when they asked me what I was doing and why I had that collar around my neck.. then I had to explain myself to strangers that I love being a fuck toy for men.. and although most of them would give me a disgusted look, every now and then, there would be some that would be interested in using me..

11)Peeing in public: Orgasming in public and peeing in public, although there're similar in terms of humiliation, embarrassment and shame, they are 2 separate things.

Because men are all perverts with different fetishes and I love them perverts..

I love being at the whims of the perverted men, doing lewd stuff for men and being completely stripped of any form of dignity, pride and respect. To be treated as a piece of meat whose only purpose in life is to be a fuck toy for men and their entertainment.

Most peeing in public ordered by Master, the gang or the customers, always involved wearing panties as they would want to see my pee soaked panties after I had peed myself in public.

Peeing in the public crowded streets is always very embarrassing and humiliating for me but it also excites me.. It's something that I can't explain well.. but I love it.. I love being humiliated.. To be at the mercy of the men and their perverted desires.. to be completely helpless at their strong muscles holding me down.. to be made to do embarrassing stuff in public in order to prove to the men that I am worthy to be fucked by them..

With the main goal is to pleasure the men and to serve their desires of humiliating myself, I will now reveal (as ordered), my top 5 favorite fucks of all time.

1)Gang sex with my former class and school mates(including my former teachers)

2)Gang sex with the group of tourists customers in the hotel.

3)My very first gang sex.. which I couldn't post the details here due to various reasons.. you would have to email or message me for that.

4)Sex with my daddy.. (my real father) before he passed away... :(

5)Sex with my daddy's friends and their sons(which are now my foster family) after the history of my decreased mother got revealed to be a stripper and prostitute like me.. they fucked me like how they fucked my mother.. It got very emotional and it brought me closer to the mother that I never had..

Bonus: 6)Countless numbers of sex in the red light district when I had to pay off my debts of my dad's passing, wake and funeral and bribery.. I got robbed, exploited and fucked for free.. it was amazing!! :)

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The end. Let me know in the comments, emails or messages of what you want to be describe next. Because I am aimlessly writing here of my experiences.. :)

Q