With this, Olivia seemed to remember she could move.
She wasted no time in lowering herself from the platform, ignoring the playful caresses, pats, and
tweaks
as she did so.
Though he'd started from far across the room, Dean worked fast; he was already cutting into the fringe of the audience Olivia had built in front of the platform. She slipped and squeezed through crevices in the tightly packed bodies to meet him in the middle.
The smell of sweat and sex on her skin was as damning as her nakedness and the stream of cum still dribbling down her thighs. As she closed the remaining distance between her husband and herself, she seemed to trip, breaking through the last remaining bodies separating them -- a couple of burly men in strappy, leather garments.
Dean's hands caught her around the elbows -- warm and firm and out of habit, before he seemed to remember exactly what was happening here, and his grip fell like she'd burned him.
His expression was drawn into the hard planes of his face.
Olivia already knew he was unhappy.
She took a deep breath in preparation for a fight.
"Dean, I can explain--"
The music was so loud, though, the bass pounding. Olivia's apology, no matter how genuine, was marred and drowned in the torrent of noise.
Dean wasn't going to put more effort into understanding the apology than she had in making it.
"Don't."
A robust and vise-like grip wrapped around her wrist, and then the next thing she knew, Dean was dragging her out of the main room and down the back hall to the locker room.
Her free hand came around to cover her bare breasts -- she was still naked, and with the exertion of sex cooling at her skin, she was getting cold too.
In the locker room, she felt ironically underdressed.
The walls and floor seemed to sweat like the 'players' out on stages in the front of the house; things were sticky and clammy underfoot. She'd been filthy moments before, and it was only now that she was disgusted. Dean rounded on her, and she found herself shrinking back into what she couldn't place.
When he released her, she felt the phantom of a bruise at her wrist. She ignored this for now.
Meanwhile, Dean's eyes were red -- what he was no doubt seeing -- as he looked at his wife, naked and cringing away from him as around them, others tucked towels between their legs and nursed bottles of water.
"How
could
you?"
"Dean, I know it looked bad--"
"Bad?" He gave a hard laugh. "Well, bad for me, who got to watch other men fuck you, put their fingers
inside
you, and--" He cut himself off, giving his head a little shake like he was trying to be rid of the images replaying in his head.
"It wasn't--I wasn't trying to betray you. It was...a
me
thing. A sex thing. Not a betrayal to our marriage."
Rather than groveling and crying -- something Olivia already knew her husband had no patience for -- she had decided to take the rational approach.
The one where Olivia told him why she did it and why she didn't think it was some terrible hurt she'd inflicted on him.
Instead of seeing her flippancy as a respectable honesty, though, it only seemed to add salt to the wound. When she saw her husband's distress deepen, Olivia's first instinct was to rush to her own defense again. A thought occurred to her;
when you find yourself in a hole, quit digging
.
She shut her mouth.
"Not a betrayal? Then why didn't you tell me about it beforehand?"
It was hard to focus on an answer or Dean's rage, to be honest. Stagnating in her chilled post-sex sweat was making her really freaking cold now. Her nipples were tight like bullets and aching.
She was almost shivering.
"Dean, could we just--go home and talk about this?"
Her husband's eyes fell on her arm curled tightly around her, the way her form seemed to be shrinking down into itself and misread it.
There were several people in the break area, toweling off, relaxing, listening...
"What, don't you like being watched?"
Olivia felt her brow raise. She almost stepped back from the surprising wash of vitriol coming from her husband.
"It's not that I don't love you anymore. I just wanted--"
She didn't know how to say it. Something new? Some
one
new?
"--butterflies again," she finished quietly. "And I know you...
prefer
our usual way of...making love."
Her admission, soft and reticent and earnest, fell on her husband's stony demeanor.
"You know what? You didn't even ask."
Olivia opened her mouth to protest but realized she had nothing she could stand by. It was true; she
hadn't
asked. She had been so sure of her husband's feelings, she'd felt guiltless in steamrolling over them to sate her urges and went straight to the option that would keep him off her back, without even considering the inherent deceit of the act itself.
"I'm...sorry," she finally said in a way that suggested the words were scraped from the very bottom of her skull -- all she had left to offer. "I thought I knew what you liked. Knew how...limited that was."
"You
assumed
."
"Yeah. I did, and that wasn't right."
Dean watched her tightly for a few moments, his eyes slipping over her form. Olivia couldn't read what passed behind his eyes. She thought it almost looked similar to how he sized her up during sex but attaching that to the current situation felt like trying to jam a jigsaw piece that didn't fit.