\I woke up Saturday, the day after being at Melody and Mike's home. I was in my bed naked. I lay there and remembered the night there and how I was both embarrassed and humiliated and then aroused. Then I remembered using the wine bottle. I shivered when I remembered that.
For some reason I was expecting Melody to call me but she didn't. I spent a very quiet day at my apartment. I even got dressed. I read a little and watched some television. I did laundry, every bit that I had. I thought about my life over the past few weeks.
I thought about how my own stupidity had started me on a path that I never thought I would travel. I thought about how many people had seen me naked in the last few weeks and I thought about how many before that. I only counted people that would have been considered a sexual type situation and it was only three before. My three boyfriends. My first love, the boy that I gave my virginity to back in high school. Then my college boyfriend, the one that I lived with, much to my parent's dismay with their little girl. That lasted for my last year of college and the two years after.
I was surprised to realize that it was almost two years from then to my next boyfriend. That lasted a little over a year. It was from the time I was 28 until now, age 32, and I had dated but nothing serious.
I hadn't even been with a girl, well, except for Melody and that wasn't exactly either of our idea.
Now, in just a few short weeks close to 40 people had seen me naked. Now that I think of it, it's closer to 60 people. And I am not sure that I want it to end. The reason that I am saying that is that I am not sure if Melody will continue doing what she has. Diane has pretty much left me alone, other than expecting me to sell my panties at work and the meetings.
I don't miss her one bit. She started it all but now it's like she is bored with me. Daniels would love to be able to control me but I think Diane has stopped that before it got started and for that I am pretty happy and relieved.
I'm just not sure that I want everything to stop. I just want it to be Melody telling me what to do. Maybe some time in the future I would change but I know what I want right now. I just don't know if I'll get what I want.
Well, anyway, I spent a quiet weekend and Monday was off to work. Diane called a staff meeting. Melody got to answer the phones for us and I was nervous, thinking of all the bad things that Diane could do to me. Boy was I surprised!
In the meeting Diane informed everyone that she was no longer buying me panties for them to buy from me. Because of that, unless I was willing to give up my panties for twenty dollars apiece there was going to be no more stripping of Sabine. Of course that caused some upset amongst everyone else but me. There was some bitching and whining until Kate came up with an idea. Since on the executive meeting days I was still going to be naked in the meeting while I served coffee and water, Kate suggested that I just either take off my clothes when I arrived and stay naked until the meeting was over or that I just come to work without clothes at all. I was shocked! Diane smiled that dirty smile of hers.
"Well Sabine, what do you think of those ideas?"
"I don't want to do either one."
"It seems as though your coworkers are going to be disappointed and that doesn't seem quite fair. I'll talk to Mr. Prescott and see what he thinks."
I got that nervous feeling in my stomach all over again. Diane dismissed the meeting after telling everyone that Mr. Prescott would make the decision and there would be no further discussion. That didn't go over well with them either. At least for Monday I would be staying dressed all day for a change. And since the executive meeting wasn't until Friday I was going to be dressed for the rest of the week until the meeting. Or at least that was what I was hoping.
But later on that day I found that I was somewhat disappointed. Stupid huh? Here I was keeping my clothes on at work again and I was feeling disappointed. I found it hard to believe that I was feeling that way. No telling what runs through a person's mind, is there?
On Tuesday Melody and I went to lunch together. She could tell that I was conflicted.
"What's wrong Sabine?"
"Oh nothing much."
"Come on Sabine, something is bothering you. What is it?"
"Well, Diane at that meeting yesterday, well she told everyone that she wasn't going to be buying me panties anymore for them to buy from me."
"That's great! At least now you won't be stripping anymore everyday."
"Yeah, well, Kate made some suggestions."
"Like what?"
"Well, she suggested that I undress the day of the executive meeting when I come into work and stay naked until the meeting is over or that I come to work on that day without clothes at all."
"Diane isn't going to make you do that is she?"
"No, she isn't, but she is going to talk to Prescott and let him decide."
"I'm sure that he won't want you running around naked all day or for most of the day. I bet that you don't have a thing to worry about."
"I don't think so either, but promise me that you won't think I am crazy Melody. I sort of miss it."
"You miss having to strip for anyone on staff who hands you a twenty?"
"Yeah, sort of, Melody. I can't explain it to you but I do."
She kind of smiled at me.
"So you're telling me that you like being naked?"
"Don't think I am stupid or crazy, please. The thing that I like the most is being told to take off my clothes or having to do it like when someone hands me twenty dollars and I know what I have to do. The night that you and I went to the library, well, it was almost perfect Melody. You took me up to some people and told them I would take off my clothes for them. I wanted to do it because you told me to do it Melody. It's good for me because you tell me or make me."
"So you are saying that it's better for you if you are made to do things?"
"Yes, oh God yes!"
As soon as I said that I cringed inside because I didn't know for sure how Melody would take it. I didn't know if she would be disgusted with me. She just sat across the table from me and looked at me.
"I'm sorry Melody. I shouldn't have said that."
"It's all right Sabine. I don't know what to say."
"I understand. I'm sorry."
We finished lunch and went back to work. Both of us were very quiet. The rest of the week went by pretty much normally except for Thursday. Diane had talked to Prescott in the morning and in the afternoon she took me to his office. It was around 2 in the afternoon.
"So girl, Diane has told me about the suggestions that one of your coworkers made when she told them that you would not be selling panties to them anymore."
He had this huge grin on his face because I think he knew what was going on but hadn't seen me do anything except for the meetings.