I live for the moment I hear that catch in her throat with our first kiss. Her breathing getting heavier with each tender touch, and caress of her sensitive places, I wait for those three words she will not say..., yet.
Our Phone Calls Part 2
When Catherine and I ended the call I fell back onto the bed, closed my eyes, and let everything she said play back in my mind, especially what she revealed to me about that married couple. An for sure, All of it will fill my thoughts for many nights yet to come. And especially what she said about her being a bit of an exhibitionist! HOLY SHIT! That floored me! But maybe it shouldn't? What happened on the train, was that her...., in a public..., way? But damn, that must be one lucky guy! But Swaggart, you know something about that too; don't you? And more!
So when are you going to tell her all about Jennifer, Alex, Ryan..., Carly, and..., that other? You certainly have been busy yourself; and in a variety of ways! And about that..., that's going to be even more difficult, isn't it Swaggart, and not just about Alex. That can be explained as just part of what happens when you're together with both Jen and him. But Chris? Well..., I'll cross that bridge, if or when that subject becomes a reason to talk about!
So, if nothing else comes of this relationship, she'll replace for now, my waking up from those sweat soaked dreams I've had since returning from..., which one's..., all of them!
Damn it..., now what the HELL is that noise! Bringing me fully awake. And realizing it's my cell phone that's buzzing; but why is it buzzing? Reaching over to pick it up, and just as I do it stops. And almost as soon as it stopped, it begins buzzing again; it's Catherine calling. But why is she calling and what time is it anyway, looking at my watch, Five-thirty?! Heck I didn't get off the phone with her until after, what, two-thirty, and she's up already? Where the buzzing phone in my hand stops.
Catherine, please give me a break, saying it out loud in my frustration. But Just as I start to lay the phone back down, it begins buzzing again. Shit!
Hey, your up early! Answering it.
"Well hello to you to, so..., what took you so long? I've been calling for the last five minutes. Her scolding me. "I was beginning to think you didn't want to talk to me." Catherine some concern in her tone of voice.?
Catherine I'm sorry, but, after I got off the phone with you I set the phone to vibrate. I ah.., knew I would have a hard time getting to sleep because of all the things that were running around in my head, and ah.., if I got any sleep..., ah, anyway, I'm fine. So, let me start over. Good morning Catherine, and how are you?
"Okay..., and, good, morning to you too. An Bob. I'm doing fine, and thank you for asking."
Thinking the whole time she's stretching out those few words, and how much I love the sound of her voice.
You're welcome Catherine! So again,, can I ask what are you're doing up so early on a Sunday morning. You know, after your busy day and our long talk last night. I would think you might be tired, maybe even, sleep in some. Laughing at myself for saying it.
"Well, I usually sleep pretty well, especially after a hard work out...," Her letting that hang in the air a few seconds. That's the best sleep in the world you know..." Her letting that hang there a few seconds too. "Plus..., I had a little power nap before I called you last night." A lilt in her voice.
Catherine, I do know all that, but please don't start.
"Bob, are you okay? She ask. You sound a little..., well, I don't know, maybe..., you know, did it bother you about what I was telling you..., about..., you know, everything?"
Bother me Catherine? Well maybe, because what you were telling me was running around in my head which sure kept my imagination busy. You sure are a very interesting person to say the least. An you certainly, don't hold anything back, do you?
"Thank you!' she says. "I'll take that as a compliment. But trust me. I don't talk about myself like that with everyone."
Catherine, again, I'm sorry for what I said, you know what spilled out...
"Bob." Her breaking in. "I told you it was alright, and I think we covered that for now, so lets just leave it for a another time, Okay?"
Of course Catherine.
The other though, your girl friend and you Catherine, I told you that part turned me on, and I do mean on! But the second part..., that thing with your girlfriend and her husband. I was thinking..., well, those two people are very lucky, especially the husband. And then what you said about feeling guilty about that other guy where I..., thought I needed to..., let you go.
"What do you mean, let me go?" She says, sounding concerned.
Catherine, I meant the call, go to bed, get some sleep, that's all.
"Oh, okay. But Bob, before I called you I was laying here thinking about what you said..., about, what you said." Changing her mind about letting it go?
Catherine, girl, I told you I was sorry.
"No Bob, don't keep saying you're sorry. But did you really mean it? I believe what you said wasn't for the reason I accused you of. And I apologize for that. So, did you honestly mean it?" She sounds serious.
Catherine, please, hear this. I've been divorced for two years, separated six months before that. And I haven't been exactly celibate during all of that time. In fact there have been several women I've been involved with. One, her name is Carly, another is a very good friend, Ryan. The third lady is married, and her name is Jennifer. She and her husband Alex..., Sally and I were involved with them in a sexual relationship before I was deployed to Afghanistan. Sally, stayed involved in that same relationship while I was over there. Which I was perfectly fine with because it was people I knew and trusted. So I know something about the kind of thing you were telling me about with your married friends.
An this too Catherine, after Sally and I divorced, Alex and Jennifer contacted me a few months later. An well, I've been seeing them again too. That relationship has some, I'll say this, has other..., aspects to it too. An Catherine, except for one time, I was always faithful to my Sally while we were married, not considering that relationship we had with Alex and Jennifer which was open an consensual. But that one time I did slip up was with the friend of a friend. Where there's a long story that led to that too. And..., there's another involvement where I'm going to keep that for another time.
But Catherine, it's now that I'm single again, and the women I was tempted by before..., well the opportunities that were, are still there. An I've enjoyed them all, even though they're still friends of Sally; Ryan and Carly. And that triangle with that married couple..., I could write a book about how all three relationships, and how every thing about them has come to be, as well as the additional aspects to it.
Also know this Catherine, I wasn't looking for anyone to replace what I lost with Sally. What do they call it; rebound? But when I met you and what happened; something changed. I wanted, no I needed to know who you were. So after I saw you on the ride up from the train platform on that escalator..., Catherine, you hit me harder than if I had stepped in front of one of those speeding trains.
Plus Catherine, I don't ever want to say, or do anything to make you feel uncomfortable with, or about me. I can't say how sorry I am if what I said in anyway makes you uneasy about me.
"Bob." Her cutting in now. "Thank you for telling me that. But now, please answer the damn question! Did you really mean what you said?"
Shit! As look away across the room at a picture on a shelf without answering her right away. The picture, has nothing to do about any of this except; good advice.
Where now it's, Catherine, I've always been a very level headed guy, I've known what I wanted to do, and it's cost me. I ah.., have a great friend Catherine, Sargent Roy Williams, retired now, who was like my mentor, who always told me, "Keep your head screwed on straight Swaggart, and it will get you through most of the trials you'll run into. But when I saw you Catherine, my head became unscrewed, because I didn't do what you asked me to do, that was, not follow you. And I know if I had done what you asked, we would never have had these conversations. But, I just needed to know who you were, never expecting I'd ah..., lose my head over you. An now, for one of the few times in my life, I'm lost! Yes, Catherine, I did mean it! Okay?
Is followed with silence as I wait for something back from her. Silence is what we train for; go where we're not supposed to be, to see what we're sent to see, and leave without them ever knowing we were there. And last night, I made to much noise, and now I'm caught.
"Alright Bob, thank you!' She says at last. "Now..., I have to take a shower, get dressed and meet my girlfriend Nancy down stairs in the restaurant. Then, we're going to see a art exhibition at a local museum. And probably have lunch, do some sightseeing, maybe dinner. And I'm pretty sure we'll come back to one of our rooms later and well..., replay last night's work out. And Bob, I will call you later tonight, I promise!"
Shit! My relief at my escaping from what I thought was coming back at me.
