I guess everyone has their own version of being busted watching porn as some point in their lives. This is my story. But it wasn't watching porn, it was listening to it. It's not the traditional tale of a boy masturbating when his mom inopportunely walks into his bedroom. No, I was a middle aged woman with a professional career on the bus home from work.
I had a stressful job in town managing several IT projects that were all heading south. All day long I had competing demands across the projects and managing the team was a nightmare. I'd get enormous pushback from the software developers who were charged with doing the work and at the same time there were unreasonable expectations permeating from above. I was squished in the middle with limited agency and all the responsibility. Essentially, I was the scape goat for every failing in the business.
As a way to let off steam, I found it useful to decompress with erotica. I'd watch porn to give me that dopamine hit, but honestly, I found it a bit too confronting and I had some ethical concerns. When I came across erotic literature, I realised that I'd found my panacea. The authors' stories let my imagination run wild, and the build up to a climax was just the thing to help me to my own climax. For those few glorious moments of freedom, I'd leave work behind and just enjoy the moment.
My penchant was for FFM threesome stories. I loved to hear of the interplay between the triangle of characters - which one would take the lead, who would follow and who ended up as the meat in the sandwich. I loved all the different situations and circumstances which led to the threesome and I especially loved the sex scenes themselves. I imagined myself in the place of the characters, getting fucked by a man while I kissed a woman or ate her pussy. It pushed all the worries and stresses of work out of my head, and reminded me what were really the important things in life.
I liked all sorts of FFM genres, but I had a penchant for the taboo and incest themes. Nothing too freaky, but a daughter seducing her dad or a mom with her son in a drunken tryst was just so sexy. And that little kink made it all the more embarrassing when I was caught out.
I didn't have children of my own of my own - that ship had sailed long ago - and I was happily married to an older handsome, if somewhat vanilla man. I had absolutely no sexual attraction to my own mom or dad. But just the thought of a sexy milf threesome or horny siblings with their dad was enough to get me off.
As a 40 year old diminutive woman with a few grey hairs starting to sprout, I don't think anyone really suspected me of anything. People tell me that I still look significantly younger than my true age, but all the same, to see me sitting innocently on the bus, listening to audio, I don't think any onlookers would have guessed of the perversions in my ears, the kinks that I adored and the sexual desires that raged within me.
You might think that the pool of content for audio erotica is restricted to podcasts, but that's not true. Automated voice creation is so incredibly smart now that you just need to install the add-in to your browser, point it to your favourite website, and hey presto! The voice of the text-to-audio software knows where to put in the inflections and pauses for dramatic effect. It helps of course if the author creates nice neat sentences like Hemmingway and puts commas in the right places to break up the prose, but anything on Literotica is ripe for the picking. For those of you who might suffer travel-sickness trying to read on a moving vehicle, I highly recommend it.
My home was on the far outskirts of town and the bus traversed a long route
and took forever with interminable stops. There was an express bus which departed earlier, but I always had to stay back late at work in the evenings. As a consequence, most of the passengers alighted early in the trip, which left most of my journey in a near-empty carriage.
I always waited until I had some clear space with nobody around me before I switched my audio across to erotica. Working with software developers, I was only too aware of the way that sound can leak from earbuds.
On that particular night, I occupied a window seat near the back of the bus, somewhere around the rear wheels, The only other passengers were a young couple, who sat on the opposite side of the bus ahead of me, just forward of the rear doors and vestibule. They were obviously keen on each other, and engaged in the tactile play of young lovers. He had a sandy mop of unruly hair that reached down his neck, but not as far as his broad shoulders. She was a slip of a girl in a black mini, with straight black hair and lips of red and gorgeous big brown eyes.
I navigated the screens on my phone to the essay that I'd been listening to that morning. I'd only made it half way through on my inbound commute, and the story had played on my mind all day at work.
The plot centered around a girl, Rae and her stepbrother, Marcus who were both in their freshman year at college and still living at home. The parents had gone away on a cruise to celebrate their wedding anniversary, leaving the kids behind.
Typical of teenagers at that stage of life, they were hopeless at looking after themselves. Sure, they could manage Uber Eats, but for the other essentials of life they needed comprehensive supervision. To compound the issue, the affordable cruise season coincided with final exams, so the need for competent supervision was amplified.
The upshot of the situation was that the mom's sister Trish, that is the step-aunt, had agreed to come and stay at the family home and provide some oversight to the youth while the parents were on vacation.
The parents left a long list of strict instructions but Trish had a more laid back attitude and only enforced the rules that were really important. As a result, the trio got along well and the kids actually hoped the folks would go away more often.
Where I had left off, the scene had been set, and the characters introduced. There had been a few flirty interludes between the aunt and her nephew and neice before she had gone off to work leaving the youngsters to study for their finals.
I hit play and a familiar comforting female voice dictated the story.
Marcus was struggling to focus on his physics revision. Across his desk, textbooks lay open and messy pages were strewn across the surface. He'd tried endlessly to force the formulas to make sense, but they were just a scrambled mess of Greek. He decided to abandon the strategy of understanding the formulas, and to just commit them to memory instead.
He read the formula out loud
s equals u t plus a half a t squared
. He repeated it several times.
Then he closed his eyes and tried to repeat it. "
s equals u plus a half.
Damn! I'm never going to understand this shit."
When he opened his eyes, he noticed that his step sister Rae was standing at his doorway, dressed in a cute white tank and loose running shorts. She leaned against the jamb with her blonde hair spilling over her shoulders and Marcus couldn't help noticing her pointed nipples pressing hard against the fabric.
Almost straight away I could tell that there was a problem with my headphones. I'd come across this issue before. They sounded really feint like the batteries might be going flat.
I turned up the volume through the little buttons on the phone. It became marginally better. The girl on the bus turned her head and glared at me for a little longer than socially comfortable, but then turned to continue chatting with her boyfriend.
Rae slumped in the doorway in a provocative way to maintain Marcus's attention.
"It's so fucking hard to study for such a long time," she whinged. "There are so many subjects and the exams go for weeks. I don't know if I can keep this up."
"Yeah, it's a challenge," agreed Marcus, spinning in his chair to face his step sister.
I've just been staring at my books and when I get to the end of the page, I realise that I haven't actually taken any of it in," Rae admitted.
"Me too."
"What do you mean?" exclaimed Rae in surprise. "I've always thought you were so smart, doing that super hard physics and stuff. I thought you could study like a robot."
"No, it's tough for me too."
"That's too bad," she smiled and continued in a supportive way. "Well I think you are very clever. And handsome and strong too. I've always thought that even though we fight sometimes."
"Aw thanks," said Marcus, a little embarrassed. "I think you are really sweet too."
"My mind was totally wandering when I was meant to be studying," said Rae searching for excuses to keep talking.
"What were you thinking about?" asked Marcus, feeling that the conversation was quite inane, but thankful for the break from his books.
"You really want to know?"
"Yeah sure."
"A couple of things," said Rae.
"Which are?" prompted Marcus.
"You."
"Right. What else?"
"Sex."
I turned the volume a little louder. It was obvious where this dialog was leading and I didn't want to miss the good parts.
The couple in front of me were heavy petting now. Although they were busy groping at each other's bodies, she kept turning to look back at me. I guess she might have been nervous that they didn't want to offend me. Or conversely, maybe she was an exhibitionist and wanted me to watch. I couldn't quite tell but she definitely made sure that our eyes connected.
I had to concentate hard to hear the narration.
"Funny," said Rae. "We've lived together for like ages now, but I've never really noticed you. I mean
noticed
."