*Click* Hi *Click* Hi *Click* ...
Over and over. Another night I'm spending online trying to find a girl to strip for me. But no luck whatsoever. Each click brings me to either a fake video of a girl trying to lure me into some kind of scheme or some guy just as desperate as I am waving his dick at me. It's become so rare to come across an actual live female that I've taken to jerking off while watching porn, and letting anyone watch. And that anyone always turns out to be a guy.
When I first discovered these random cam generator sites there was no way I would do this. But eventually there came a little thrill when another stranger would stop and want me to strip for them. I've even become more discerning, wanting to jerk off for only someone with a big dick or strong body. Sure enough, a guy sporting only his boxer briefs pops onto my screen. He doesn't immediately click away, is muscular, and from the outline in his underwear I can tell he's sporting a nice dick. This'll have to do.
Me: "Hi"
Stranger: HI. Age?
Me: 25, you?
Stranger: 30. Gay, Bi?
Me: No, just bored.
-(although I wonder to myself how long I'll do this before I have to rethink my place on the sexuality spectrum).
Stranger: Wanna play?
-(sigh, here we go).
Me: Sure, show me what you've got.
And with that I put on some porn video I know will do it for me (usually Little Lupe or sexypattycake- look em up and thank me later) and shift my focus back and forth between that and the stranger I'm arousing. I pulled off my shirt to show off my own build. I'm fit without being overly muscular, with tan skin, and a patch of hair down my stomach that suggests a path to hidden treasures. I rub my thick cock through my boxers and tease the tip over the edge of the elastic. I'm in it for the desire, so I wait until the lonely stranger is begging me to unleash my cock as he tugs at his own. Eventually, I pull my boxers down and stroke my dick. Sometimes I'll ask the stranger what he would do to my cock and jerk off to the descriptions of how they would suck me dry. I have them model for me just how hard I've made them, and after some time, I'll cum, not bothering to wait for my partner to finish.
*Click*
The browser closes, I clean up and head off to bed. I've ceased to feel shame or conflict about my hobby. No longer worried that some hidden part of my sexuality has awakened. Instead, I accept it for what it is. I'm horny and I like being watched. I'd rather it be a girl, but I'll take what I can get.
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A few days pass uneventfully. I spend my time in school, or meeting up with friends, or flirting with this girl Sarah in my anthropology class I'm dying to fuck. If she works me up enough I know I'll be hopping on the cam that night. I'll look forward to it, itching to see if I will finally match with a partner I won't be bored of.
That night, I strip off my jeans and log on.
*Click* Hi *Click* Hi *Click*
Me: Hi
Stranger: Hi, want to mess around?
-In the small square in front of me sits a skinny guy with no shirt, in a dark room. I can tell he's sitting at his desk. Like me, he's only showing his body, not his face.