When you travel for a living, one airport tends to look like another. A hotel in London might as well be in Chicago, and the meal on one long flight is the one you'd swear you'd eaten last week, a month ago, last year.
But then, sometimes travel has its perks, a moment that remains with you for a long time. Or forever.
I don't know what I remember best about Katarina. It might have been her uniform, a navy blue skirt that hugged her shapely hips, the matching jacket with narrow lapels on which she pinned her small nameplate and gold wings. It might have been her smile, equal parts happiness and mischief, that spread until it produced a deep, infectious laugh. Or her warm hands. Or her hot, wet mouth.
I'm thinking now that it was all of the above, each and every part of her layered to make her whole. And I still get short of breath when I think of being the willing pawn in an erotic game: sitting in the galley at the rear of the plane, my trousers at my ankles with Katarina kneeling between my legs, another flight attendant named Gabriele standing guard in case of a wandering passenger, and a third, Petra, boldly watching us.
I can scarcely believe it happened on this flight from New York to Frankfurt, eight-plus hours flown mostly over a dark sea, leaving at dinner-hour and arriving, with the change in time zones, in time for breakfast.
A flight attendant's lot is not an easy one, especially on these long hauls. For her, it's two hours of frenzy, preparing meals, feeding and cleaning up the trays of passengers, squeezing down too-narrow aisles, being bumped and jostled by turbulent air and the ill-mannered. Once the first of two movies is underway, she retreats to the relative quiet of the galley for four hours of boredom, followed by another two hours of gently waking those who have managed to grab a few winks, hot-towelling them back into the land of the living, serving a snack and preparing the plane for arrival.
It was during yet another horrible movie, one that had flickered on the screens of three of my flights that month, that I did as I usually do on a transoceanic trip: I got up and walked, to the front of the aircraft, then to the back, stretching my legs and exercising my mind.
"May I help you?"
I heard her voice before I saw her, then recognized her as one of the attendants who worked the starboard side of the plane, opposite me. She was sitting in one of the fold-down seats in the galley, two of her fellow attendants doing likewise.
"Just going for a walk," I said to her. "I see you're finally able to get off your feet... Katarina."
She glanced down to her nameplate, seeing where I'd learned her name.
"A short break, yes," she said through a soft German accent, nodding with a smile.
I had taken note of her during the meal service, and wished she had been working my aisle of the plane. Not that there was anything wrong with the other two women in this small cabin – Petra and Gabriele, I would learn – but there was something about Katarina...
She was tall, about 5-foot-9, with short brown hair, layered and streaked with a few highlights, that perfectly framed her lovely face, dimple and a sexy, small mole on her left cheek. Her smile lit up the galley. I could only imagine what she looked like beneath her functional if elegant uniform, a matching pleated navy skirt and blazer, aquamarine and gold silk scarf and low-heeled black leather shoes. Her gold wings sparkled on her lapel.
The four of us made small talk, the women laughing easily and teasing each other with subtle things only they understood. Then Gabriele excused herself to answer the call of a passenger, and Petra got up to stow a few things in the galley's stainless-steel cabinets, organizing things for the morning snack and coffee that would be served when we neared Frankfurt. She was still within earshot of my conversation with Katarina, but otherwise occupied with her work.
"How often do you fly this route?" I asked her, settling into one of the vacant seats. "And please call me Robert."
"Too often for my liking," she replied, her voice nearly lost in the drone of the engines. "It does nothing at all for the internal clock."
Another thing I didn't envy about her work: she crossed time zones like most people crossed the street, sleeping when the body said it should be awake, eating lunch when it would have preferred to be asleep.
For 15 minutes we chatted about her work, and mine, Petra still at work in the galley. I figured that Gabriele, still not back, was working from the galley midship, tending to those who weren't interested in the movie or sleep.
There was a reason these three women laughed easily and seemed to finish each other's sentences. Eight years earlier, they had gone through flight-training school together, and this airline saw that women who knew each other were kept together as a team wherever possible. Katarina, Gabriele and Petra were as close as sisters, and now there was a communication, an exchange of knowing glances that I couldn't decipher going on between the two in the galley.
"What am I missing?" I said, playing along as best I could.
"Missing?"
Katarina shot a look at Petra, and both women burst out laughing.
"Robert, you've caught us," Petra said. "But this might be kind of hard to explain."
"I'm a captive audience, and I'm going nowhere for the next four hours," I replied, feeling a blush in my cheeks.
Katarina studied me for a moment, and then she began, so quietly I had to lean in closer to hear her words.
"Robert, this is hard to explain," she started. "You know that Petra and Gabriele and I have been flying together for some time, right?"
I nodded, as Petra took her seat.
"Well, you can imagine there are long, boring hours to kill on these transoceanic flights. We've come up with what we think is a pretty good game. We don't play it on every flight, the conditions have to be exactly right."
My mind was racing, without anywhere specific to race.
"Robert," Petra added, "this gets a little naughty. Say the word now if you don't want to hear the rest."
"Are you kidding me?" I said. "Tell me more."
Katarina cleared her throat and looked at her smiling friend. Petra reached to Katarina's knee and patted it, leaving it on her thigh, just below the hem of her skirt, for a lingering moment.
"Robert, sometimes, but only sometimes, we find a male passenger like you to talk to. Sitting back here, like this. And if he's willing, he plays this game with us."
I looked from Katarina to Petra without a word.
"Before we board the plane, we draw straws to see who wins, who watches, and who stands guard."
I hoped I didn't look as stunned as I felt.
"Who wins... what?" I said.