"You what!!!" Sophie shouted! Giggling like a schoolgirl I put my hand over her mouth trying to muffle the sound.
I had just now finally told my best friend about 'that morning' and this was exactly the reaction I figured she would have.
It was also the reason why I had been gathering courage for almost a month now before telling her.
Earlier that night we had a simple but nice dinner and as it was early we went to our usual hangout.
A sociable bar where we often ended up when catching up.
We were sitting in a small alcove at the side end of the bar and already had a few drinks.
The dinner and ending up at our usual bar all being part of my plan to open up to Sophie.
I knew I would need the drinks to relax a bit to be able to tell Sophie about those two days.
We both were not prudes at all and obviously had discussed parts of our private lives before, but this did feel different to me.
With us both being single Sophie had always been more than happy to share saucy details with me whenever she did 'get some' as she liked to call it.
She knew I had been grieving way too long over the loss of my soulmate who was so suddenly ripped from my life in that car crash.
She was always trying to lift up my spirits to try and make me start to enjoy life again.
Saying stuff like "You still have so much to give and deserve to receive even more Honey."
Or trying to drag me along with "You need to get out more and mingle girl."
But up until recently I somehow had not been ready to do so.
It did take until that recent first-ever nice dream about Pete that seemed to have helped and given me some closure.
I still had to tell Sophie about how happy that dream had made me feel and I would.
But just now I had started by telling her about the thing that happened at my window that morning right after waking up from the dream.
A bit less loud now she again went "Come again, you did what?!" eyes wide open full of question marks.
Leaning in closer now looking at me and whispering "Did I hear that right? You fingered yourself to orgasm in front of your bedroom window?"
"While watching a nude young neighbour across the street standing in front of his window stroking himself?"
I placed my hand over hers gave it a slight squeeze and nodded yes to confirm.
"Damn girl, you slut. Good on you, I knew one day you would come to your senses" and she pulls me in close for a warm hug.
Kisses my cheek and whispers in my ear "I am so happy for you. Now tell me all about it, where did that suddenly come from?"
So I started telling her, going back to how I did wake up all happy and warm from a dream about Pete for the time since he passed away.
She was so happy for me that she started crying as did I reliving that precious moment with my friend.
With tears on her cheeks mumbling "See girl, I always knew that day would come for you" pressing her lips on my cheek once more.
Only to take my head between her hands, look into my eyes and say "But now spill honey! how did that happy moment lead you to public masturbation?"
So I told her how events unfolded and that it did feel like it somehow was meant to happen.
That it scared me but also liberated me in a way. Sophie only listened and with a beaming face only approvingly nodded occasionally.
Why on earth had I ever been afraid to tell her? How could I of all people ever have doubted her? Of course she understood!
Just like she knew I would understand when she told me about her one-time thing with a girl.
That spur-of-the-moment thing in a changing locker of the lingerie shop with the girl selling her a bra afterwards.
Of course, I had been happy for her that she had had her world rocked, even if only for a short time.
I realized now it was her time to understand and be happy for me.
Beaming at me and still holding my head between her hands she said "I am so glad you finally found some release again. I almost wish I could have been there to see."
Deciding to completely fess up to my friend now I placed my hands over hers and whispered "There is more!"
Her eyebrows shot up gasping "More? Tell me girl!!!!" so I started telling her.
I told her about that second time I ended up naked in front of my bedroom window after I has spotted my neighbours 'in the act.'
Unable to restrain myself from watching my neighbours on the other side of the road in their living room as they started fooling around.
Feeling like a filthy intruder but at the same time unable to make myself stop watching.
The more I watched realizing my entire body was starting to react to their lovemaking.
Becoming more and more aroused as their play seemed to be building up to a climax.
How my hands with a will of their own had travelled down to my wet entrance standing in front of my bedroom window.
I had still been playing with myself when suddenly it seemed my neighbour was looking right as he started orgasming into his girlfriend's mouth.
The thought of him catching me peeking at them having that intimate moment startled me to my bones but it also made my cunt twitch.
The wonder in Sophie's eyes grew as I related my story, but I could also see them start to sparkle.
Suddenly she pulled me close again and this time her kiss did not land on my cheek but her lips briefly and gently ended up brushing mine.
"Oh my god Sarah, that was so hot" releasing me from her hold again. Smiling at me with that pretty freckled face, cheeks slightly red.
Now her turn to giggle while saying "I am all tingly from it girl. I am sure you will guess which of my toys I will be using later when at home." winking knowingly at me.
I was feeling ashamed now that I had been afraid she would somehow react negatively to my recent adventures.
We talked for a long time about how it made me feel and what had happened since those two days.
Did that part of me make me feel good or bad? Would I let it happen again if there was a chance?
Would I perhaps even be the one to try and create a situation for something similar to happen?
Did I actually somehow like the neighbour? Would I somehow try to reach out to him, or avoid him as if he had the plague?
What about his wife or girlfriend, could I be the bitch flirting with her friend?
Sophie obviously had all the same questions I had been asking myself without finding answers.
But after telling Sophie it somehow did not feel quite so scary anymore not having the answers myself.
She understood this would be a process and she would be there for me to help figure things out, as she always had been.
She kissed me once more on my lips and said "Baby, I am sure whatever happens, things will turn out for you exactly the way they should, and you will love it."
To drunkenly giggle again while adding "And you better always tell me all filthy details, you lovely slut!"
We left the bar late that night both quite tipsy and I could not resist myself as we were about to part ways.
This time it was me who drew her close once more, for a close hug and it was I initiating the kiss.
Her lips felt nice and I let the kiss last a bit longer than she had before.
Now I giggled as I pulled away and whispered "Have fun with the purple twister at home."
She smiled at me and softly moaned "fuck you bitch, I knew you would guess that and you betcha I will!"
winking back at me "Perhaps I will go stand right at my window to look for something enticing to watch"
She pressed one more kiss on my lips, smiled at me saying "Things will be getting better from now on, you'll see."
As she got in the Uber she left me standing there grinning like a fool until my own Uber arrived, and I was realizing she was right.
It began to drizzle and still smiling like a fool I got in the backseat of the car.
The driver was an attractive young blond guy, reminding me of my neighbour a bit.
Just what I need after this evening, I thought, to be reminded of him even more.
The poor guy was almost desperately trying to get a conversation going.
Looking in the mirror back at me I got the feeling he perhaps was even trying to chat me up a bit.
But I was not in the mood to talk. At least this time I did pick up the signs and while not up for it I did appreciate his efforts.
I realized it finally made me feel good again to still be noticed by men.
Even if his signs this time may only have been my imagination.
But there was a very different reason why I did not want to talk.
Talking with Sophie about my neighbours with her asking for all the saucy details had brought back the memories very vividly.
The lingering memories in my brain had started to spread very distinguished feelings to other parts of my body.
The thought of Sophie using her purple friend on herself while thinking about what I had done and kissing her twice only added to the intensity.
Plainly spoken I was soaking wet between my legs, right there on the backseat of that Uber.
I did not want to talk to the driver, in truth I wanted him to fuck me, fuck me hard, but obviously could not let it show.
So I sat there in silence, pretending to be looking outside while at the same time I started grinding and circling my hips over the backseat.
Pressing my wet pussy onto it and from the corner of my eye watching the driver to make sure he does not notice it.
I was dry-humping his backseat as I think I caught him glance back.
Oh my god, did he look just now? My cheeks must be going red, did he notice?
Why am I so horny, I need to stop this!
But I kept on going and was just about to slide a hand between my legs to add some pressure when his sudden voice startled me "Miss, almost there, where should I stop?"