Dear diary,
I haven't written in since 4/1/24. This year started awfully. After all these years, Max dumped me. I was heartbroken, well, still kind of am. Somebody I saw a life with decided, one day, that his sexual appetite was swayed by some office whore. I am so angry, even writing this. I fought embarrassingly to keep him.
I've had enough. I'm a free woman. There aren't many people, if any, I can share this with. My friends are in relationships and don't understand. The ones that are single, casually hook up, although aren't mega slutty. On the exterior, I'm this goody-two-shoes who people assume would get embarrassed at the word 'anal'.
Well, that was the 'old' me. The 'NEW' me went out and had some serious fun last Saturday. I've spent months getting over Max and getting underneath the squat rack. My body has taken the shape I've always dreamed of, and I can't lie, the attention I receive is through the roof.
I've majorly branched outside of my comfort zone. Your girl now has a wide sex toy collection. I've been exploring things I didn't previously. More to come on that. I'll skip to the good part. When I went out, I hooked up and had sex. I ticked something off most girls' sexual bucket lists. Fuck, yeah. I didn't fuck one guy. I fucked two guys.
In a club, I wore an eloquent white dress. I purposely wore a black thong, so that you could see my underwear. I'm sick of turning to my vibrator first thing in the morning and last thing at night. I want more. I need more. I need the real thing and hopefully something big and meaty. This is where John came in, and then, where Eric said hello too.
You can spot military guys a mile off. I was approached by a handsome, athletic man called John. He's 5"10, well-spoken and polite. We got talking at the bar, in between enjoying myself on the dance floor. As I leaned across the bar to order a drink, I felt a sixth sense kick in, and knew my ass was being scoped.
John joined me, insisting on buying me this round. I hesitated for a second, then thanked him and agreed. I was blown away by his charm. I was giggling like a girl desperate to get back on the cock wagon and wondered about his intentions.
Then, it's like I hit the jackpot, as a second guy approached me. Two at once, you girl-stud, Ashleigh! He introduced himself as Eric. Equally charming and a blonde hunk, he insisted that the round after this was on him. The two joked and I sensed they knew each other, and then they confirmed they were actively in the military (hello, wet underwear).
As I sipped my drink, I froze. This was the first interaction I'd been in, in forever. I've been immersed in a long-term relationship, and I'd forgot how to talk to men. We sat down, with one of them either side of me. I felt safe, giddy, and I'll admit, aroused. Our small talk continued and they insisted on getting my number.
Put it this way, the brave girl in me didn't have her pussy waxed for nothing. She didn't put in endless hours in the gym. I figured, fuck it, why not shoot my shot. I messed it up a little, sharing, "I've just gotten out of a long-term relationship." I felt awkward. I didn't know what to do, as I didn't want them thinking I was hung up on my ex.
Eric reassured me and I went for it. I planted a huge kiss on him. I turned towards John, who laughed, asking where his kiss was. I locked lips with him, passionately kissing him, realising my ass cheeks were virtually lifted off of the seat as I angled left towards him in the seating booth.
I placed my hand around Eric's waist, turning to kiss him again. I caressed John's leg with my spare hand and took a huge risk in fondling up towards his crotch. Eric placed one hand around my boob, and I bit his lip passionately. I was extremely horny and gushing wet. This felt like a movie.
"Which one of you is taking me home?" I asked, looking at them either side of me, with my heart beating like crazy.
"We can't take people back to the military base. I'm so sorry." John said.
"A hotel?" Eric suggested.
"I'm bringing you back to my place. I have a roommate, who's working away. Who's coming with me?" I pitched.
We drank up, and I pretended not to notice a fist bump as I retrieved my jacket. My friends smiled at me in disbelief, with one of them taking a photo of me as I left the club with two clean-cut military men.
John insisted on paying for a taxi, as we hopped in, taking the short journey to my place. I opened the door, trying not to let anybody in my apartment block see that I was now bringing back two men. I was nervous, although living in the moment. I welcomed them in, giving them a drink and excused myself to the bathroom.