Women in the Arcadia Community are governed by what one might call a totalitarian principle. Everything we do, everything we say and think and even feel is regulated by and focused on the fact that we are female. This is challenging, can be frustrating, discomforting and sometimes infuriating, but is always stimulating, often unpredictable, never dull.
Yet I still struggle to fully understand the appeal of being a woman in the Community. We are, with very few exceptions, well-educated, highly motivated, independent-minded and free-spirited. And yet, despite the veneer of equality -- for example Alice's role as administrative director, and the academic and professional achievements of most of us in the "outside world" -- we are in a real sense property. We are owned both individually and collectively by the minority of citizens whose sole qualification for the rights and privileges they enjoy is to be male. And there is no doubt that while we may delight in aspects of our lifestyle, our primary pleasure as females is derived, is expected to be derived, from the males and what pleases them. We work not just as hard but harder, make more sacrifices, tolerate more, demand and expect less, much less, than those we serve and obey. And it is irrelevant whether they have earned their privilege. Our servitude, obeisance and obedience are unconditional and unreciprocated... at least in theory.
Nobody, so far as I know, has ever tested the limits of female sufferance in Arcadia. I doubt very much that the rules which govern our lives can be enforced. It is social pressure and perhaps the threat of ostracism which keeps us "in line"... but that's neither motivation nor deterrence. We are here of our own free will; we understood what was expected of us before we arrived. We knew that our status would be defined and delineated not by what we do but by (in a turn of phrase I hear a lot) what we are and what we are not. And while no one except maybe the most bigoted men and most servile women would claim that we females are inferior -- mentally, emotionally or even necessarily physically -- we do acknowledge
la différence
. It's the
raison d'être
of the Arcadia Community.
Sabrina is perhaps the best example of this. If, all other things being unchanged, she had been born with a penis, she would fit perfectly into the role of master, getting as much satisfaction from that as she actually does being a slave... but probably with less of the thrill that she desires. After all, genuine thrills come from challenging yourself, testing and expanding your limits, enhancing your insight and perceptions. And I honestly believe that this is the birthright of the females in Arcadia.
We
are the fortunate sex. Our lives are never boring, never simple, never mundane. Every waking moment, even while preforming the most menial and dreary of chores, is a sensual and sexual experience. It's because whatever it is we're doing, we do not, cannot, are not allowed to forget or ignore, even for an instant (and here's that expression again!) what we are and what we are not.
I've pontificated long enough, but will nevertheless add this. We (the women of Arcadia) are all, to an extent, exhibitionist, probably more sexually oriented than most women. Some of us are submissive and even masochistic by nature. I have never considered myself that way; but this may be the key to comprehension. For instance, being naked in public is, you might think, a novelty that wears off. At first you feel embarrassment, because it's something that (paradoxically) feels unnatural, to be so completely exposed. You may feel shame at being so wanton. These sentiments don't last; and yet, as I've mentioned, familiarity does not breed contempt or complacency. In the end you feel joy and take pride in your nudity, not just because it is pleasing to men, but because it is an expression of your commitment to this lifestyle.
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My second full day in the Arcadia Community started out cool and overcast and stayed that way.
When I awoke Lucy and Carlo were still asleep. She was on her back and he was lying half on top of her, one leg hooked over hers and an arm clamped around her head... like in a wrestling hold. Maybe that's what it was. I tried not to disturb them; but as I raised myself off the mattress it sagged and rebounded, rousing them. Lucy yawned and whispered something to Carlo who, without a word, he put his arm around her thigh and literally pulled her onto his penis. She wrapped her own arms around his shoulders to tighten their embrace. Her calf muscles tautened and her toes curled. His buttocks tensed. The squeaking of the bed, the squishing of their body parts, their sighing and puffing and panting and grunting and groaning made for an evocative paean to the dawn as the birds' chorus just outside the window reached its own climax.
I felt uneasy watching them, so I went to the bathroom and then the kitchen. Alice was already at work. Once Lucy had come to assist, we set the breakfast out on the patio table. Robert joined us, along with Carlo. The sun peered occasionally and weakly through ashen clouds. The frosty air tickled my skin and the coarse weave on the wicker chairs was rough under my backside; but I was learning to revel in my nudity. I used to run half-marathons, even tried the real thing, and a triathlon once. The feeling is not dissimilar. You savour the adversity because it broadens your experience, takes you out of your comfort zone, immerses you in a sensual reality that is actualized by stress and struggle. And if this comes across as overly portentous, what can I say? It feels good.
Alice said she hoped Lucy and I had not made any plans. We hadn't. On every second Saturday a Citizens' Assembly is held. There are no prizes for guessing which sex constitutes the entirety of its membership. While the Council is the formal managerial body (and the Community is in the jurisdiction of a Local Government Authority), the Assembly has a definitive role in policy-making and decision-making. All male residents are expected, or at least encouraged, to attend. Their deliberations can take up the whole day; and since the men give up their Saturday to fulfill their civic responsibilities, so do the women. Of course, we have different duties.
At eight o'clock we (females) mustered in the park near the Civic Hall, some three hundred of us altogether. With a few exceptions, all the women living permanently in the Community plus weekend residents had gathered. Most of the exemptions are for those with jobs providing essential services that cannot stop just because it's the weekend. Meanwhile, a hundred or so visitors had taken up vantage points around the edges of the park to witness the proceedings. Because it was still nippy, many of the female spectators were clothed; but we were, of course, naked, except for footwear and headgear. Below my stylish raffia straw visor I wore gardeners' gloves, heavy-duty woollen socks and scruffy work boots (which Alice kept in storage with several other pairs). Apart from those items, my only coverage and protection was a thick layer of sunscreen lotion.