Before I tell my story, I need to share some background on my upbringing. My name is Kelsey and I am an only child. I was raised from the age of ten by my mom as a single parent. We lived in a nice house that my parents had built in a small suburb of a major midwestern city. My dad was killed by a drunk driver going the wrong way on the interstate. It was a crushing blow for Mom and I.
I had been a daddy's girl and a bit of a tomboy. I adored my father, and I know he loved me. He was busy a lot with work. He was a very successful architect, but he still found time to take me on adventures. Creative stuff like bird watching, theater, and astronomy. He bought a really expensive spotting scope that we took on bird watching forays. We also used it to star gaze in the back yard. It was good enough to really see the details on the moon, and if the sky was dark enough, you could make out the rings on Saturn and a couple of Jupiter's moons.
Mom and I were set financially. There was a big life insurance policy from his work, and another he had taken out himself. Mom had her lawyers sue the other driver's insurance company for wrongful death. He was driving a work van at the time of the accident, and they settled rather than go to trial. So I had a nice trust fund that would pay for college, and Mom didn't have to work unless she wanted to.
The next couple of years were pretty dark as we grieved together. Mom got us both into counseling, and she made sure we talked openly with each other and didn't bottle up our emotions. We cried a lot. People told Mom to move, that she'd just be walking around a house with memories of dad that she'd have a hard time moving past. She disagreed. Dad had designed the house and she felt like he was part of it and was still there protecting us. I completely agreed. So we stayed put, and eventually we began to feel like we were going to be okay.
Somewhere in there my mom sat me down and told me about the birds and the bees. I learned later from friends that the talk she had with me was much more than what a parent typically does. And I also figured out that it was going to be more of an ongoing dialog rather than a one time discussion. She was keen on explaining the difference between having sex and making love. That sometimes people had sex because of physical desire, and sometimes it was because they wanted intimacy with a special person.
She told me how normal it was to want to experience sexual pleasure, and as I got older, she told me more and more specifics about sex. She said I was going to find out about it on the internet anyway, and she'd rather it came from her. She told me that most of what I would see on-line was choreographed and acted, and not people in true relationships.
By the time I turned eighteen early in my senior year of high school, Mom had pretty much completed my education. I knew about masturbation and sex toys, which she actually encouraged me to try. She said she often did it, and she thought it was better for me to learn my own body before I got into a sexual relationship with someone. She told me about oral and anal sex, and about various positions for intercourse. She said she expected me to experiment because all young adults do, but she wanted me to be smart about it. She took me to the doctor to get birth control pills and to get the HPV vaccinations. And after all that, she told me I could always ask her questions.
During my high school years, when I was old enough to not need a babysitter, Mom started dating again. She never brought any of the guys home. I guess she just wasn't serious enough about any of them, but occasionally she would call to say she was staying over with a friend. I knew what that meant, and I didn't question her about it.
I was a late bloomer physically, and it wasn't until that senior year that I started to be sexually pretty active. I liked what I saw when I looked at my nude self in the mirror. We often were naked around each other, walking from the shower or getting dressed in the morning. Mom commented on how I'd grown up to be a beautiful young woman. That made me blush. My mom is really pretty. Guys are always shooting her glances when we are in a restaurant or shopping. I had always hoped I'd look like her when I grew up. It made me happy to know that my mom thought I was attractive. Looking back, it was all in keeping with Mom's straightforward honesty on self-image, self-awareness and sex.
I lost my virginity later that fall in a predictably forgettable episode with a friend's older brother that I had a school girl crush on. After that, I stuck to playing with myself. I'd seen my Mom's vibrator on the nightstand a couple of times. It was a light purple, rabbit-style device. I ordered something similar to it on-line and when it was delivered, it became a regular part of my masturbatory routine. I often found myself feeling horny. Hormones I guess.
One evening after dinner I had gone up to my room to do school work. Sitting at my computer, I just couldn't concentrate, so I clicked on the mouse and redirected to one of my favorite porn sites. I got my vibrator out of my bedside table, and in the blink of an eye I was back at the computer with my pants and underwear around my ankles and my shirt and bra pulled up over my breasts. I had my rabbit on high and jammed completely into my pussy and my free hand was twisting at my nipple. I was watching a particularly raunchy video of a women and two men. The woman was on her hands and knees with her mouth locked onto one guy's cock. The other guy was screwing her anally. Grinding the rabbits buzzing ears onto my clit, I came quickly and hard. I was going to go for a second orgasm when my Mom walked into the room with a basket full of clean laundry.
"Jeez Mom, don't you knock?," I exclaimed as I removed the vibrator and turned it off.
"I'm so sorry Kelsey. I thought you were studying. I'll just leave the laundry and you can go back to what you were doing."
"No that's okay. Now I'm kind of distracted," I said as I stood to pull up my pants. "Do please try to knock though when my door is closed, though. I kind of have been doing this a lot."
"I understand completely. And again, I'm sorry," she said as she turned for the door.
"Hey Mom, wait a minute. Can I ask you some questions? About sex?"
"You know you can. What's on your mind?"
"A couple of things. Have you ever had, um, anal intercourse?"
"I've tried it, yes. I don't enjoy it. I find that it hurts. I do like it occasionally if a man inserts his finger there though, provided its lubricated and he is gentle about it. It can take an orgasm to the next level."
"That's what I figured. In all these porn videos I see the woman pretends to love taking a penis back there. I just can't see that it would be pleasurable. Ok. Next question. Most of the women in porn videos have shaved their pubic hair. And I noticed the other day when you came out of the shower that you had too. Why?"
"Well, that's a little complicated. I do it because I like the way it feels, and I find the look to be sexy. There's a practical reason too; it can make it more appealing for your partner to perform oral sex. Unfortunately, a lot of women shave because men tell them to. And porn has glorified the bald pubic mound to the point that women think they have to shave. That's not right. If you do it, do it for yourself. And by the way, if your partner wants oral sex, don't be afraid to ask him to trim or shave either. It's a two way street."
"And, um, about oral sex. When you give a guy a, you know, blow job, do you let him cum in your mouth? In these videos, some women let the guy shoot their semen in their open mouth and then spit it out. Some swallow it. And some pull out the cock before the guy ejaculates, and then they cum on the girl's face or breasts, or sometimes in their hair. It all seems kind of gross."
"So you've never given oral sex?"
"Never given, never received. Most of my experience is pretty vanilla so far."
"Well again, it isn't a simple answer. Yes, when I am giving oral sex, I usually let the man cum in my mouth and I swallow it. It's an acquired taste, but I don't mind it. And from a practical perspective, it's not as messy. You don't have to wipe the guy's load off of your face or body or clothes or sheets. I guess I'd say try it, you might like it. But you do what you are comfortable with, not what a guy tells you to do."
"I totally get that. Ok, one more. Have you ever been in a threesome?"
"Nope. I'm a one partner gal. I suppose if it was a casual encounter, a threesome might be interesting, but the two girls-one guy scenario just seems awkward. I wouldn't know how to share. And two guys and me seems like I'm more of an object to be used, or that I have to perform. To be honest, the opportunity has never come up and I've never sought it out. Why, are you thinking about it?"
"No not really. It turns me on when I see it on-line, but I just don't think it's realistic. I'm having a hard enough time finding one guy I like, let alone two. And being in a sexual situation with another girl would kind of freak me out I think. I was just curious."