This story is a continuation of
A Little Harmless Exhibitionism
Sheltered wife regrets marrying her first boyfriend
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If you haven't read Part I already then start at the link above before reading this one.
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We pulled off the motorway back into the city and he drove me to my hotel. I asked Jeremy if he wanted to come up and have a drink while I got ready. He said no, he would meet me in the lobby at 7pm. I was a little disappointed that he was so respectful - not even a kiss yet - he had more or less seen me naked at the beach not to mention several clothes shops but he hadn't tried anything - maybe it won't happen? I was being really compliant, not throwing myself at him, but totally letting my guard down - all he had to do was ask or even not ask, just read the signals. What do I have to do?
Be patient, I told myself, I think it will be a good night. I was excited to get dressed up. I was excited to be in a city where no one knew me.
I was ready. I forced myself to be a few mins late coming down to the lobby. I was keen to continue our adventure, but I wanted him to wait for me, not the other way around. I was self conscious about the dress. I had built myself up to wearing it, I was determined. But, it
was
taking
all
my determination! I didn't want to hang out in the lobby alone. I wanted him to support me, help me, like he did in he boutique and on the beach. I wanted the bravest outfit I ever wore to get off to a good start, like him saying something nice. Not a bad start like the hotel staff complaining or asking me to leave or unwanted attention from random strangers. So I had a GnT in my room as I counted the minutes to 7pm and counted the seconds to to 7:05.
Ready? At the last minute I started panicking. I had already spent over an hour at the mirror - not including hair and makeup. I had tried almost everything in my suitcase with the dress. It just seemed impossible to wear it on its own. The only thing that was remotely like an option was a silk scarf, it kinda looked OK as a shoulder wrap. At least I could cover up a bit? At least some of the time. At least until I got out of the hotel. I had decided not to wear it, put it back in my case, taken it out again, put it away again. Now I grabbed it.
I was in the lift. In my white heels from that morning, my new white dress from Jeremy, and the white silk shawl - my safety blanket. I felt shame for not behaving more shamefully, if you know what I mean. Like I had not lived up the the standard that I had set for myself.
An older couple got into the lift on the way down. I could feel them staring at me. The lift had mirrors on 4 sides, nowhere to look without seeing myself and their reactions. Oh my...
As the lift doors opened onto the lobby Jeremy was waiting for me. I was happy to see him. He kissed me on the cheek. Hmmm, we'll have to improve on that later.
"You look fantastic," he said.
I was happy to hear it, even if it was kind of formulaic, I was still very happy to hear it.
"Shall we get out of here?" he asked.
I was happy to get out of the hotel lobby too. In a foreign country, in a city where no one knew me, the hotel staff were the only people besides Jeremy that had my details, that knew my name. I was happy to get out of there, back to the anonymity and all the promise of London nightlife. The evening air was warm, in the city, in the summer, hot.
First off Jeremy lead us to a London pub for a drink. To my eyes it looked exactly like the London pubs I had seen in those old Guy Ritchie movies, it was called the 'Crown and something', or something. Typical British pub, it had lots of wood, and carpet and archways. I had a GnT, he had a beer, a pint. There were a few regulars, a few after work drinkers. It was a bit lame, if I'm honest. I had a feeling like I didn't get dressed up to drink GnT in this dive. And, mores to the point, I'm not taking off this scarf for these loosers.
I guess he sensed my disappointment, half way through his pint he said, "Lets move on. Bit dead here in fairness." I was happy to hear it. "I made reservations in a nice restaurant near here. I think it will be OK to show up early," he said.
The restaurant was nice. Modern. Fancy. This was more like it. I knew that London has great restaurants, I had been looking forward to it. The maรฎtre d' was attentive. As he lead us to our table I sensed eyes on me. I liked the look of the other diners, stylish, trendy, all ages, well dressed, smiling and enjoying. Lots of couples, not really any tables with more than 4. I felt eyes on me, the diners, the men, women, the staff too, and I didn't mind, I liked it.
Jeremy ordered champagne. I did not look at the prices.
I was feeling chatty. And brave. The champagne arrived. We hadn't read the menu, had to ask for more time before we ordered our food. I folded my shawl and placed it behind me on my seat. I was feeling vulnerable, in a good way. He was entertaining me. I tried to keep a lid on my giggles. I was mostly successful, but with the nerves and the champagne the giggles were just simmering below the surface, they broke free a few times. The food was great, delicate, tasty, small portions. Burrata, seafood, ravioli... yum...
I avoided eye contact with the other diners, I sensed their glances, but I focused on chatting with Jeremy. As soon as I took off the scarf he had complimented my dress again. He had seen it before, of course, he was there in the shop, the reality is I had let him pick it for me. As I explained already, I was wearing it for him, for me.
I haven't described the dress fully, it was white, short, strapless. Bandeau type top running around under my arms. It was pretty much open at the back between the skirt part and the bandeau. The front was slashed left to right, lots of slashes, you could see my navel and pretty much all my torso. Lucky I had shaved down there, I think the slashes might have been below where my pubes would have been! Before I came out I had practiced adjusting the height of the dress so it covered or exposed the bottom part of my boobs. Now in the restaurant I had covered them, I was holding something back for later. It was still pretty brave in the restaurant setting, I was more naked than pretty much any of the other diners.
As the waiters busied themselves and came and went with our orders I made a point of being brave. There was no doubt they were looking, they were getting an eyeful every chance they could, I made a point of letting them look, not covering up. What would be the point of wearing this dress and not letting people respectfully admire it, admire me. What a buzz. I was high. I noticed Jeremy was also enjoying it. Not just enjoying looking but enjoying other people looking too.
When the waiters had left us for a few minutes I asked him, "do you like it when the waiters are checking out my dress?"
"I do like being with the most beautiful woman in the room," he answered a different question to the one I had asked. Evasion aside, I took the compliment, that made me happy. What woman would not like to hear that!
I smiled at him, "But there is more? You like when others are checking out my body?"
"I like that you are having the time of your life," again he managed to answer a slightly different question to the one I had asked, and managed to bring a smile to my face as he did it. He was right, I was having the time of my life. I didn't press the point about how he seemed to get a kick from exposing me. I was getting a kick out of exposing me, he was helping me along, that was enough. He was having the time of his life too, so what, all the better, we are a team. Maybe I will ask him again later, I thought.
We finished with desert and an aperitif. He paid, I didn't look at the price.
After the restaurant we went to a bar. Wow, things had changed up a gear while we had been eating, or maybe this bar was just way better than the first pub. It was busy, fun, techno music, really loud, people were drinking, dancing, shouting. As we walked from the restaurant to the bar I noticed one or two other 'party dresses'. Now in the bar I realized that my sexiest ever dress is not any more revealing than at least half the girls here. UK girls are crazy, they really kind of dress like sluts! I'm impressed and horrified at the same time. Maybe it is for the best, I am pushing my limits in a place where no one seems to have any limits! I kind of lost the shawl, no need for that any more. I fit right in here! I am enjoying myself. My 9AM self would be scandalized!
Later on we went to a night club. More techno. It was huge. It had a massive laser light show. It seemed like thousands of people dancing. He said it was famous, but I don't remember the name. We danced. As we got swept into the crowd I noticed there was stage below where the DJ was. The crowd was really vocal, lots of cheering every time the DJ played a new track that people liked. As we got closer to the stage I found myself watching the people on the stage picking out the good dancers, the best looking, the ones with the most unique look. Jeremy was enjoying too, so positive and upbeat. The tempo built as the night wore on, the crowd got progressively more active, more vocal.
Then I saw one of the coolest things I think I have ever seen. As I danced I was watching a girl dancing on the stage, she was center of attention. She started teasing the crowd below her, drawing the hem of her top left and right on her belly, sliding it up a bit and down again. The crowd below her were going crazy, shouting and encouraging her, she kept teasing until the excitement and noise was enough, I sort of knew she was going to do it but I was still bowled over when she did pull her top all the way up.