What was she thinking? What was she feeling? Her gaze on his body was mesmerizing. My mind churned with erotic imagery. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. Her energy drew my attention away from the nude man before me ...
Perhaps I should begin at the beginning. The model had a dancer's body. Muscular, but not big muscles. Strong shoulders but not bulky nor too broad. A flat but and not rippled stomach. Long agile legs. And, of course, a firm and cute behind. Believe me, Tom -- I will call him Tom -- could strike poses! The muscles of his legs and arms had the quality of chiseled marble. His body conveyed meaning and intent that went beyond his physical features. He looked like the Praxiteles Hermes, except that his penis was much larger.
It is always a dramatic moment when a male model drops his robe and reveals his body to his audience. Many women artist will pretend that it is just a normal subject before them, something not much different from a flower or a vase, an object that can be broken down easily into lines and shadows and angles. Get these right, and you have a beautiful representation. Don't believe them.
When the object is a naked man, most women artist will pretend to pay attention to the definition of a shoulder or attempt the difficult renderings of hands and feet. They will give every indication that the twist of his torso or the angle of his leg is what interests them. When it comes to the nether regions, they will blurred the main feature or offer an abstract presentation. As I said, don't believe it for a minute.
Let me confess that the first thing I did when Tom dropped his robe was search for his penis. Many women will say that it isn't the penis that catches a woman's eye. They are lying. They may pretend that they are more broad minded in their sexuality, and indeed many are. Nevertheless, before they can focus on any of his other features, they will check out his penis. It is just the way it is, and don't let anyone fool you that it is otherwise.
Tom's back was toward me when his first disrobed. The fit outline of his buttock drew my eye. With school girl anticipation, I eagerly awaited, shall we say, the more complete, fuller version of Tom. I was not disappointed when a well shaped, circumcised penis with a very exposed head came into view. Tom was going to make a fine model.
Most men get women wrong when it comes to their interest in a penis. They think that this interest has to be mainly sexual in nature and, in a limited way, they are right. But men are mostly wrong because the sexual aspect is almost always indirect. When I see a naked man, my first thoughts are never about sex but are more aesthetic in nature. I like what I see, and what I see is a body whose sex is always on full display. It is this displaying, the prominence of its positioning, that inevitably captures my attention. My eyes always go there first.
The thing that made Tom special in my eyes was that all his attributes seemed to work together to draw attention to his penis. No matter how I tried, I always found myself looking there. His penis was particularly large but nevertheless looked thick and strong. If it had a special quality, it was the way it seemed poised on the verge of becoming erect. Its head was subtly swollen and clearly visible as the folds of his foreskin pealed back. The shaft seemed somewhat rigid but not in an obscene or pornographic way.
I don't know why, but something out of the corner of my eye caught my attention. While I wanted to enjoy at Tom, whatever it was wouldn't go away. With some irritation, I finally gave in and turn to my left to see what was disrupting me. It was one of my fellow woman artists, and I knew right away what the distraction was. The strong eroticism that I felt looking at Tom was but half of the energy present in the room. The other half was the way this particular artist was looking at him. Her eyes were devouring him. She was looking at him like I knew a woman should.
Some women will say that a penis is a penis is a penis, but it certainly wasn't true with this woman. While I get a thrill every time I see a fit naked man, this woman was in a state of total bliss. It seemed that, for her, Tom was making himself especially available to her gaze. Because a man's "equipment" is always fully visible, there is an emotional, personal aspect of him always on view. I find energy in the fact that a flaccid penis, long and relaxed, is also one that can at any moment become excitable. Sometimes the changes are slight and subtle, such as when the folds of his foreskin are peeled back and expose the organ of his pleasure. In any case, this woman was relishing Tom in a way that was close my ideal.
An idea that has long fascinated me came to mind. I have always been interested in how male nudity was practiced in ancient Greece. I am particularly captivated by those somewhat rare instances in which naked men walked around in the presence of fully clothes women. Forget the CFNM stuff, which has far much to do with domination and humiliation to interest me in the slightest. What I am curious about is the blend of the erotic and the aesthetic that those women must have felt and how men dealt with their knowing looks. How did a man deal with his exposed state in these situations?
I approached this woman after the session and learned that her name was Janet. I told her that I had noticed how she was looking at Tom. Her face turned a deep red. "Oh, my! Was I that explicit?"
"Oh, yes, most definitely," I responded.
"Sometimes I just can't help myself."