This is the story of my least gracious breakup.
This was ages ago, and I'm married now, but I don't think I'll ever forget it. Strictly speaking, I know it's something I ought to be ashamed of, and, in fact, I must be a little bit, as I've never told my husband this story, or any other boyfriend or prospect who came afterward, and very few of even my closest friends. But a part of me can't help but feel a sneaky sort of pride. Not even all of the few friends I've confided in believe it, and I don't blame them, but be that as it may, I hope you at least enjoy it, since I sure did.
It was the second semester of my Junior year in college, and relationship ennui was beginning to set in. I hadn't been entirely faithful and sneaking around was becoming more tiresome as my boyfriend (let's call him, hmm... John) and I found ourselves spending more and more time together. Yet I found increasingly that spending more time together produced diminishing returns on becoming fonder of him, or none. I started to miss being single. I had suspected from the get-go that attempting a serious relationship at my then age, headspace, and stage of my life was less than wise, but against my better judgment had decided to give it the old college try. Well, now I'd tried.
I could have simply dropped that bomb and left, but that wouldn't have been as interesting.
I'd originally gotten the idea from an on and off friend-with-benefits of mine (we'll call this one Fred). At his place, two or three months prior, in a state of semi-undress and semi-sobriety, we'd been discussing fantasies. And he, eventually, coughed up this one. I remember laughing and making fun of him, while he defensively reminded me that I'd been the one to ask so insistently, and, not too long after, he wrestled me to the floor and shut me up.
I had laughed the idea off at the time. But afterwards found myself dwelling on it. What was the appeal? And why was it starting to appeal to me? I found myself fantasizing about it while I was alone, sometimes touching myself to the thought, sometimes even when I was in the middle of the act with my boyfriend, I would imagine I was with someone else while he, red-faced and struggling against his bindings, provided me my captive audience.
A few weeks before the end of my relationship, it came up in conversation and I admitted to Fred the fwb that I was thinking of ending it. Having known that I was starting to enjoy his earlier fantasy, he suggested I make things interesting on my way out. It took a lot of careful coaxing, and a lot of patient waffling on my part, but eventually, he (and I!) convinced myself to go for it.
On the big night, I met up with John and twenty minutes later he and I were on the couch, watching something unremarkable on tv. I looked over at him and reflected for the first and last time in awhile that he was a decent looking guy. Dark medium length hair, slender but in decent shape, with a cute nose, full lips, and greyish eyes. He wasn't a supermodel, but he was definitely one of the better looking of the not huge number of guys my age who were in the market for a relationship. But there's just no substitute for interest.
Without much prelude, I started making out with him, and felt his hands run upward along my leg he pulled me closer with his other. It came to rest on my skinny-jeaned butt for awhile before moving upward and creeping in under my top. I disengaged from his lips to sweetly whisper into his ear "I want to tie you up".
We'd tied each other up before, so this didn't come as a shock to him. He grinned and stood up and allowed me to lead him to the bedroom where I had one of my sturdy chairs set up and tape on hand. He chuckled at the fact that I already had the chair in there but didn't seem otherwise suspicious and happily plopped down into it. Almost giddy with excitement and nervousness, I looked away from him as much as I could to hide my expression, looking closely instead at his arms and legs as I wrapped the tape tightly. first his forearms to the arms, then each of his ankles to the legs. This was a slightly awkward position as his stance wasn't naturally quite as wide as the chair legs' but it was close enough to work. Halfway through, he seemed to notice I was being a little more thorough than last time. "Huh, a little tight there" he said, not yet quite in the tone of complaining. "Damn right" I stood up, leaned over him, took him by the neck, and said into his ear "can't have you going anywhere. You're mine. And I'm about to get mean. You're in for it darling." 'You have no idea' I thought as I returned to the taping. To be on the safe side I put a rope tie on each limb and then told him to do his best to wiggle free. He couldn't.