I want to go back, and talk a bit about my life in Japan before I came to Oceanview, and how I ended up this way. I think a lot of it has to do with my older sister Norika and a few other things that happened that year, the year after I turned 18. I was living in Kamakura, a small resort town on the coast, with my parents, just finishing up high school (a year late), and trying to decide what to do next. My family moved around a lot when I was growing up because of my dad's job. We lived in Hawaii and New York before coming back to Japan. I was kind of thinking about studying abroad.
At school, I hung around with my best friend Michiyo, a shy girl, polite, studious, but kind of funny. I theoretically had a boyfriend of sorts, Tomoyuki, not a swimmer, just a guy who'd asked me out. He was kind of cute, but he too studied a lot, so we hadn't really done much at that point.
My sister Norika changed after she got into university. She started dressing and acting differently, more worldly. She'd get all dressed up, and go out, and only return home late at night, not telling us where she'd been. I wasn't sure what she was doing, but I was curious what it would be like to be your own person, out on your own, deciding things for yourself.
Anyway, one weekend, I saw her come out of her room carrying a stack of magazines.
"What's that?" I asked.
"Mom wants me to clean out my room, so you guys can use it after I move out."
"Can I see?" I asked, pointing at the magazines.
"Sure. Just throw away anything you don't want." Norika dropped them on my bed, and went back to clean some more. I untied the bundle, and started looking through. She had a whole bunch of Japanese fashion magazines: "slim down for summer," "the latest bikini fashions," that sort of thing.
One of the magazines that she had a lot of is 'anan.' I guess it's sort of like Elle or Vogue in the States. As I leafed through, I came to this one with a photo of a nude girl on the cover. I was a little surprised because I guess I had this picture of 'anan' as a pretty serious women's magazine. I didn't really expect a women's magazine to have nudes. I turned to the cover feature--Beautiful Nude--and all the pictures were of these different girls running around naked on a beach in Chiba just east of Tokyo. Apparently, the models were just readers--college students or housemaids-- who'd written in, and said they wanted to have their picture taken nude by this famous photographer. The shots were of the girls laughing and running on the beach, or posing by the rocks. It all looked so natural. I thought 'Wow. I'd like to do that too.' I mean, not pose for a magazine, but just run around naked on a beach somewhere. It seemed adventurous, naughty, something grown-ups do.
I kept going through the pile, and Norika had a couple of more issues of 'anan' with the same feature. I looked through at all the pictures, and was really surprised at how many girls were willing to pose nude like that. I also began to wonder why Norika seemed to be collecting just this series. Was she planning on writing in, and asking if she could do it too? It was a bit hard to imagine, but the way she was acting, it did seem possible.
Just then, my mom called up from downstairs. She and Norika were going out to buy some pastries at the bakery. Dad was already at work, so after they left, the house was really quiet. I decided to have a shower, so I stripped off my p.j.'s, but before I went downstairs, I finished looking through the magazines. I lay naked face down on my bed. It was kind of fun having some privacy for once. Without really thinking, I slid my hand underneath my tummy, and began dabbing at my you-know-where.
Another of the magazines was 'Zekushii.' It has all this bridal information on wedding halls and dresses and honeymoons. Norika could be dating now, but I don't think she had a steady boyfriend. She'd never brought anybody home anyway.
I leafed through, and I was shocked when I found they had this feature on... get this--outdoor sex!!! I'm not kidding either. They were recommending that readers try it on their honeymoon, and they had these pictures of this couple getting naked right next to a river, and making out as if they were making love. I was just so amazed that they would recommend this kind of thing in a bridal magazine.
I read the article, but I was a bit disappointed. They made it sound so romantic and everything, but whoever wrote the article probably had never even tried it. They just said go out camping, like it was easiest thing in the world. What I wanted to know was the more practical things: what kind of stuff to bring, how to find a good spot, and how to tell if anyone else is around. But what's Norika doing with this? Was she into the outdoors? She did seem a bit wild especially lately.
I kept going through the pile. In one of the weekly glossy picture magazines (Friday or Flash), I found an article about this girl who went to a popular disco in the Bay area of Tokyo, and stripped off all her clothes while she was dancing on the stage. It wasn't like a strip club or anything, just a regular disco. Apparently, she got arrested, but she told them that her boyfriend was in the self-defense forces, and had been sent overseas, and so she was doing it as a kind of protest. I thought that sounded like a silly excuse, but anyway, I was impressed she'd gotten up the nerve to strip naked out in public. At that point, I could hardly even imagine being brave enough to do something like that.
Anyway, I wondered a bit more what Norika was doing with all these magazines, but I decided not to ask her. I know she's my sister and everything, but I didn't want to pry. What she does is her business, you know? She can decide for herself.
At the end of April, we got a break from school for golden week. My dad took the three of us to the States to visit some of his American friends from when he studied there when he was young. One family we visited was the Andersons. Jack, the father was a protestant minister who'd gone to school with my dad. He was easy-going and funny, a bit different from my picture of what preachers are like. His house was fairly big, but there weren't enough bedrooms for all of us, so for some reason, I got put out in their backyard in this tent with Jack's son, Duane, a boy around my age. Duane had red hair and freckles. He peered over at me, curious, but was polite at first.
Night fell, and I went out to the tent with Duane. I was kind of nervous.
"Are you like a ninja or something?" Duane asked.
"No...," I laughed. What does he think Japan is like anyway?
"I've seen the movies. You can like walk through walls, and jump thirty feet," he insisted.
"Are you talking about kung fu movies?"
"Yeah."
"That's Hong Kong, not Japan," I corrected.
"Anyway, I'm going to go back to the house, and change into my p.j.'s," he finally told me. I nodded for him to go ahead, and he left. I was still in a bit of a daze, taking all this in, but I eventually realized I should change into my p.j.'s myself. I checked the door of the tent, making sure no one was outside, and then took off my shoes. I guess I could have gone back to the house too, but I figured Duane would be gone a few minutes. Should be enough time.
I peeled off my sweater and t-shirt next. My jeans were quite tight, so it took some doing to push them down my legs and off. I undid my bra, and stuffed it away in my bag. It felt kind of weird getting naked out here in this stranger's back yard. I kept checking the door, listening to hear if Duane was coming. I pulled my p.j.'s out of my bag, only then realizing they were some silly owl design. I wish I'd brought something more adult. I pulled on the p.j. top, did it up, and then peeled off my panties as well. I started shivering. It was a bit cold outside, but more than that, I think I was reacting to the danger of being naked out here with Duane so nearby. I did manage to pull my bottoms on, and just in time too, because soon, Duane came back. His p.j.'s weren't all that fashionable either, a blue and white plaid.
I got into my sleeping bag, thinking we'd just go to sleep, but Duane sat up, kneeling, facing me, and giggled,
"Show me your hooha!"
I looked at him, not quite sure what he meant, but he went on,
"You know, your box, your slit, your cooch."
Slowly realizing that he might be serious, I got out of the sleeping bag, and got up on my knees, a bit on my guard by then.
"What? Are you kidding? No!"