The dildo had become a regular staple in our sex life. I got the impression that Maggie was embarrassed to ask for it herself or maybe felt the need to shield my feelings from her being the one to ask for it. So, I was nearly always the one who initiated using it. We also ended every dildo-involved session with me doing her afterwards. She had a habit of staring me in the eyes when we did and on more than one occasion I saw a smile come across her face while I was entering her. I think she was getting off on not being able to feel me immediately after having sex with the dildo. I'm ashamed to admit this to you, dear reader, but I know I was. But it was an unspoken thing between us.
This chapter picks up several months after the first introduction of the dildo to our sex life. I went to get it in preparation for our evening's encounter and I realized that it wasn't exactly where it was when I put it up after cleaning it off last time. Was Maggie using it without me? She had ample opportunity. She worked shifts in her job as a nurse, so there were days when she would be home for hours without me. And today was such a day.
"Mags... Don't take this the wrong way and there's no judgement at all from me, but have you been using the dildo without me?"
Maggie turning several shades of red told me all that I needed to know.
"Yes," she replied meekly.
"Honey, seriously, it's fine if you do. It's not something you have to keep from me. Honestly, It turns me on that you're so into it."
She was still red, but her dismal face turned into more of a smirk.
"Do you think about it when we're not having sex?" I asked her.
"Yes," was all she said.
"Are you.. addicted to it?" I asked.
"Oh god," she replied embarrassed, "...yes."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"I didn't want to hurt your feelings. I didn't want you to know that I wanted it..."
"...more than you wanted me?" I finished her thought, questioning if that's what she meant.
She looked at me, clearly ashamed at that but nodded her head meekly.
"Maggie, I know you may struggle to believe me when I say so, but I really am just happy you're feeling pleasure. I don't mind that it's a toy that you're enjoying more than me."