9. One
When Keri and Victoria awoke and arose the next morning there was no breakfast awaiting them. Perplexed and even a little alarmed, Keri went from room to room looking for Sam. She found his jacket on the living room floor and thought it very odd and unlike him to leave it like that. With an ominous feeling she opened the front door to see if he was in the hallway, and on the ground in front of the door, on top of their morning newspaper which he always before brought in, was an envelope addressed to them both.
She called to Victoria and after showing her the envelope, had her sit down as she opened it. As she had feared it was from Sam, and after composing herself she began to read the handwritten note aloud.
Dear Keri and Victoria,
I realize that by not being there to serve you today that I have broken the most basic tenet of our original contract and agreement. I fully understand that the consequence of this act is that I will never be allowed to serve or see you again. While this is the difficult price that I will have to pay for my action, it is without any doubt the best course for us all. You are soon to move into the home of your dreams and begin the life you both have so long envisioned and looked forward to together. You don't need anything that might compromise or interfere with that happiness, or in any way bring you distress. I now recognize that my continued involvement in your lives would do that, and this is something I cannot ever bring myself to allow. I know that I have no right to ask, but I do make one small plea. Please do not try to find or contact me. It will not be easy for me if you do. Forgive me for any pain or hurt that I have caused. It was never my intention to do so, but that is no excuse. I tried, I overstepped, I'm sorry. Most of all, please be happy. You both deserve only the best in life, and you will always have that in each other.
Sam
Keri, bereft, put the letter down on her lap. "He was here last night, Vicky." she said plaintively. "He heard it all. That's why I found his jacket
on the floor."
"Well at least he's made it easy for us." Victoria replied.
"EASY!!! You think this is EASY?" Keri proclaimed. "This can't happen. It's not right." She looked resolutely at Victoria. This was her turn now, in the full light of day. "Vicky, you are the most important person in
the world to me, and I love you with every fiber of my heart, and nothing, NOTHING will ever change that or come between us." She paused. "But Sam is very special to me too, in his own special way. And he could be for you as well if you gave him any chance at all. He certainly tries hard enough for you. God knows he's different, with his own unique needs, but we're different too, and we've all become connected, intertwined. He's become part of us, Vicky. He's made us whole. Complete. We're much better people ... nicer people ... happier people with him around. I can see that. Why can't you? We need him as much as he needs us. And I don't mean that 'slave' thing. I can live with that if it's so important to the two of you. But we need SAM. Every part of him. Badly. We can't let him go like this. We just can't."
And now for the wild card.
"And if it wasn't for him, we wouldn't even have a new home to move into."
"So he helped you with your investments." Victoria challenged weakly. "So what."
"That covered less than half of the down payment. Sam put up the rest and asked for absolutely nothing in return."
"He did what?" Victoria stammered. "Are you telling me that he paid for half of our down payment?"
"He made sure to call it a loan." Keri responded. "I have no doubt to make it clear that he didn't want or expect anything in return. Except for us to be happy. And this is how we pay him back. For that, and for everything else he's done for us."
Victoria was seriously shaken. She had never seen Keri so animated and vehement. This all put things in a new and different light. She didn't know if she could agree with Keri's premise. She just couldn't comprehend what all Keri saw in him, or in the arrangement that was so important. But it
clearly was to her, and Victoria realized that things couldn't stand as they now did. She made a preliminary decision.
"Okay Keri. My Love. We'll go talk to him, try to calm things down, and see if we can figure out what to do from here."
"But he's asked us not to try to find or contact him." Keri whimpered.
"Oh I wouldn't worry about that." Victoria offered with her half smile. "He's still our slave." She stated. "Until WE say otherwise."
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But all of their initial efforts to find Sam proved fruitless. Numerous attempts knocking at the front door of his apartment brought no response, and this time it really did seem as if there was no one within. Calls to his cell phone yielded only the 'voice mail full' message, and queries to all of the local merchants and shopkeepers in the neighborhood also produced little in the way of results. They all knew and had come to like Sam, and many commented on how much more outgoing and convivial he had become since they had first come to know him. But none unfortunately had seen him recently.
This was all further complicated by the rush of events leading up to the closing on the lake house. Fortunately, the lease on their apartment was running out at roughly the same time so they wouldn't incur any further expenses there, but there were movers to arrange for, new furniture to buy, and an incredible amount of packing to be done, all while they were both working full time. For that reason alone Victoria was coming to lament Sam's absence. But as she watched Keri's growing despondency as the weeks progressed approaching their move, in what should have been a busy but joyful time, she also surprisingly was coming to the realization that she herself was becoming depressed as well.
This was not only because of Keri's despair, or that it would have been extremely useful to have the slave around to do the lion's share of the
packing and all of the other myriad number of moving tasks. It was more that she noticed a change in herself that had not been so readily self evident
to her before, a sharpening and prickliness in her attitudes, particularly at work in her interactions with others, that had always been present in the past, but had been softened and even absent over much of the past year, but were now again beginning to re emerge.