Taking a firm hold on herself, Selena quelled her panic and eyed the mule through the thick gloom of twilight. He was not far away, and she thought that she might be able to reach him. She sat on her bottom and slid down the rest of the hill. By then, the mule was only about fifty yards away, but she couldn't walk that distance with a twisted ankle through the deep mud. Tossing aside all dignity, she crawled on hands and knees toward the beast. He snorted and pawed at the ground as she approached, but Selena talked to him in a soothing voice. She hoped and prayed he wouldn't bolt, and she took her time. When she was within a few feet, she slowly stood up, so the mule could see her more clearly in the near darkness.
"Come here," she coaxed him. "Come on boy."
The mule fixed her with a baleful stare and refused to budge. Selena sighed. Of course it would be too much to hope that the wretched beast would make it easy for her.
"Come on," she cooed, hobbling her way over to him. She stretched out a hand, letting him smell her, and she managed to grab hold of his halter. "Thank God," she breathed.
No sooner had she said the words than the mule shied, yanking the halter loose from her hand before he ran a short distance away. Selena ground her teeth in frustration and began crawling toward him again. Each time she got within reach of him, the hateful mule would bolt a few feet further. Selena was beginning to despair. It was almost completely dark by the time she finally managed to grab his halter once more.
"Gotcha," she cried triumphantly.
The mule backed up a few steps, and Selena landed on her rear in the muck. This time, she stubbornly refused to release her hold on the halter, and the mule drug her a few feet, coating her entire lower half with oozing mud.
"Will you stop it, you stupid mule?" she railed at him. She heaved a frustrated sigh and struggled to her feet again, wincing at the pain in her ankle.
Glancing up at the sky, she noticed it was nearly fully dark. Selena was afraid to let go of the halter, so she had to stretch and grope to reach the length of rope that had been used to hobble the mule. He had kicked it loose from his back hooves, and it was trailing behind his front leg. Grunting with the effort, Selena managed to grasp the rope and slip it off from first one hoof and then the other. She leaned against him, panting from her exertion and the throbbing pain in her ankle. When she regained her breath, she tied the rope to the sides of the halter, fumbling in the darkness to tie the knots. When she was satisfied that they wouldn't slip loose, she looped the rope over the mule's head to form a makeshift bridle.
Hauling herself onto his back was no easy task, especially since it was now dark enough that she couldn't see what she was doing. The sucking mud and her heavy skirts combined to thwart her efforts, and the mule had a nasty habit of sidestepping just when she seemed to get a good hold on him. Still, Selena was determined, and by sheer dint of will, she finally managed to drag herself onto the beast's back. She sat for a moment, feeling relieved and exhausted before she realized that she had become completely disoriented in the darkness.
Hoping that the mule would know which way to go to get to camp, she gave him his head and prodded him forward. She could tell they were climbing a hill, and she prayed it was the right one. When they reached the top, she gave a frustrated groan. She could just make out the faint glow of their campfires, but she had gone the wrong way and was even further away than before. She fought back tears and took a few steadying breaths. She was cold and tired and oh so ready to be back at camp.
It took a lot of coaxing, but she managed to get the mule headed back in the right direction. Selena couldn't see her hand in front of her face, but she hoped the mule could see well enough to walk slowly along. They trudged down the hill, with Selena biting her lip and hoping the mule would keep going straight. They climbed back up a hill, and Selena released her pent up breath when she realized it was the hill she had originally been on. She had never been so happy to see the glow of a campfire getting nearer.
All of a sudden, she heard her name. "Selena! Selena, where are you?"
She recognized Liam's anxious voice and could see a lantern light weaving around as he carried it through the tall grass. He was clearly looking for her and couldn't see her in the dark, so she yelled in response.
"I'm here! Liam, I'm here!" she yelled.
He came toward her voice at a run. She kept calling and steered the mule toward him at the fastest pace she could, but it was still several minutes before she reached him.
"Oh Liam, thank goodness," she cried.
He set the lantern down, nearly tipping it over in his haste. "What the hell were you thinking?" he snarled, snatching her off the mule's back.
When he had returned to camp to find her gone, his mind had been consumed with fear. During the time he had been looking for her, his fear had turned to panic. Liam didn't appreciate being reminded once again of how devastated he would be if something happened to Selena. Now that he knew she was safe, his panic had congealed into cold hard fury, pushing aside all vestiges of common sense. He shook her roughly by the shoulders as he yelled at her, clearly enraged.
"Dammit, what possessed you to go wandering off by yourself in the dark? Don't you know you could have gotten lost or hurt? I ought to take you over my knee and tan your backside."
"Liam, please. You're hurting me," Selena cried. His fingers were biting into her shoulders, and he had set her roughly down on her ankle. She winced, leaning on him for support. "My ankle is hurt," she wailed.
For the first time, he really noticed her appearance, and a tiny bit of his anger dissipated to be replaced by concern. She was liberally coated in mud and muck. Her hair hung in filthy globs, where it had escaped from her bun, and she was soaking wet and shivering. She was uncomfortable beneath his regard. She didn't like for him to see her like this.
"Please Liam, let's just get back to camp," she implored him.
Liam lifted her back onto the mule and led them back to camp, his jaw rigidly locked. Marcia and Gerald came running, and when they saw Selena, Marcia put a hand over her throat, obviously distraught.
"What happened to you?" Marcia cried. "I thought you were just going to the top of the hill to look around."
Selena blinked back tears of humiliation. "I meant to, but then I saw your mule on the other side of the hill, and I wanted to catch him for you. I slipped and twisted my ankle. I'm sorry if I worried all of you." She noticed the glare Liam shot her, but she ignored it for the moment.
"You poor dear." Marcia patted her arm and looked at Liam, "You'd better get her washed up before she catches a chill."
"You must all be starving by now," Selena said. "Go ahead and eat, it might be a while before I can get washed up. Take the pot of soup, and we'll come and join you in a bit." She watched as Marcia lifted the pot off the fire and carried it back to their own campsite.
Without a word, Liam lifted her down and carried her to the wagon. He sat her inside with her legs dangling out the back and turned to get the dry blankets she had stashed inside the wagon earlier that day.
"Stay here," he growled.
He turned on his heel and stalked to the tent. After laying the blankets out into a fresh pallet, he returned to the wagon. He didn't look at Selena as he grabbed her suitcase, the wash basin, towels and soap from the small trunk. He disappeared once more to the tent, and Selena blinked back tears, realizing that he was still very angry with her. She could hear him filling the basin with water from the barrel, and he carried it to the tent before returning for her.
Without saying a word, he scooped her up and carried her into the tent. His body was rigid with anger, and she bit her bottom lip, feeling foolish and childish. He stood her on the ground next to the pallet and stripped off her filthy clothes, steadying her with his strong hands while she balanced on one foot. When she was naked, he picked her up and set her none too gently on her bottom in the middle of the pallet, leaving her muddy feet off the edge of the blankets.
"Here," he commanded, shoving a clean cloth into her hands. "Clean up your face and hair."
Selena flushed with chagrin, and she meekly complied as Liam took another cloth and began to wash her body. He handled her roughly, scrubbing at her skin until it was pink from the friction, but Selena didn't complain. She understood that he had to get his frustrations out somehow, and she would prefer this over him shouting at her.
He cleaned her entire body, even her private parts, with the same impersonal, rough strokes. Only when he washed her injured ankle did he soften his touch. When Selena was clean from top to toe, Liam handed her a clean chemise.