I stared at the ceiling, the lawnmower of a man snoring beside me, grossed out as wondered how to get his cum out of my hair. Gorgeous though. Even asleep, I could see his beauty-dreamy eyes, that fuck-boy smile. Was that really it? Or was it simply the fact that I hadn't gotten laid in forever?
I've been here before. Disappointed, staring at the ceiling, wondering why I keep making the same dumb decisions. I continue to fall for the same tired charm. His confidence, that damn smile, the way he made me feel like the only woman in the room. How long could I keep pretending I'm not an ass?
Now it's clear that I should cry. Am I? What? Fuck! No, not tears. Simply Tyler's jizz dripping off my eyebrow. Enough. I needed to get away from him. The stink of regret clung to the air, mingling with alcohol and sex. I couldn't tell if I was disgusted with him, myself, or both. And wait-what was that? Cigarettes? Did I really smoke last night? Eagerly, I swung my legs over the bed, making sure not to touch him. Maybe a shower would wash it all away.
As I shuffled to the bathroom, in the dreaded Walk of Shame trying to keep the white goo from dripping off my belly onto the floor, I couldn't help but marvel at how hard, and sadly, fast, Tyler came last night. Or was his name Chad? Does it matter? Christ, his grey boxer briefs looked hot laying on the floor intertwined with my red thong.
Feeling my eyelids start to stick together from his super glue, I instinctively reached for the nearest thing, his Calvin Kleins. Clutching them like a lifeline, dear God, what was wrong with me? That musky scent hit my nose as I dabbed my eyes, letting the fabric glide across my cheek as the scent of him wrapped around me. A twinge shot through me, unexpected and unwanted, as his man scent infiltrated my nose. Are you fucking kidding me? What am I, a bitch in heat? Yeah, I suppose I am.
Standing there like an idiot feeling the soft fabric touch my cheek. It was the same goddamn feeling from last night in maybe the smoothest move ever pushing a strand of hair out of my face after I wiping my mouth with my sleeve after yet another shot of Don Julio. Little did I know at the time that I would be paying the bill before calling the Uber and dragging Don Juan back to my place to put out my fire.
Switching on the light in the bathroom, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror before turning on the shower. I couldn't help but admire what I saw. My 27-year-old body was just in enough shape to look sexy in yoga pants, with a well-placed thong strap peeking out from the back of a tight-fitting little black dress and 4-inch heels. At 5'4", my petite frame was just tall enough to attract a guy like Tyler-Chad. Not that it really mattered. My shoulder-length chestnut hair, now matted to my head like last year's Easter basket, was normally curled just the right way to capture any guy's attention before they got lost in my deep blue eyes. I could almost feel their hands itching to run up my shirt, eager to touch my perky breasts, with nipples even perkier. Big boobs had never made me jealous. more than a mouthful, as they say, is wasted.
Sliding the shower door closed behind me, I turned my face into the hot flowing water, hoping to wash away my feeling my makeup oil up on my skin. I reached down to grab the Neutrogena; the water pelting my back. I pumped a few squirts into my hand and rubbed the war paint off my cheeks. As I ran my fingers through my hair, one finger got caught in a sticky tangle, and I knew I had to shampoo.