Authors Note: My apologies for the delay in this chapter. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Thank you to everyone left comments or sent me feedback about previous chapters of this story. Thank you to Margaret who proofread for me again, she is a gem. ~ellie
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Peri woke up in the bed that she and Josh shared during their visit to the farm and was not surprised to find Josh missing. He revelled in the large gathering and catching up with all the friends and relatives he rarely saw except at these events. The whole family seemed to be hyperactive and as promised Peri found herself being drawn to Emily and her quiet little corner of the Donati world.
They often sat in the glass atrium together chatting about the various groups of people they could see through the windows. They had announced her impending motherhood as soon as they had arrived rather than trying to maintain the secret and having people ask why they didn't say something earlier. Emily had been good about not lecturing her on anything to do with pregnancy but rather listening when Peri wanted to talk and answering direct questions with short factual answers, rather than long anecdotal spiels about what she had been through like the other women did.
Emily could remember when she was about to become a mother for the first time and how inadequate she had felt when taking with friends and relatives. Rosanna, on the other hand, had been a quiet port in the storm who had sat and listened as she now tried to do for Peri. Carmen and Bianca were full of unsolicited advice and scary stories, and Emily felt for the young woman who had been through so much already.
"It's so nice here away from the noise and excitement outside," Peri said leaning back in her chair and placing her book down beside her.
"I think Ben has threatened everyone with violence if they disturb, upset or over-excite me," Emily laughed lightly. "I love that man to bits, but he can be overbearing at times."
"I think it's a family trait," Peri agreed. "Plus all of the brothers seem to say the same thing. I have had Dante checking in on me so often I could almost forget which brother I am married to," she laughed with Emily.
"Josh is the baby brother they all love him the best. He's the one they all rely on never to be too busy to lend them a hand or keep them company. He's been at the hospital when each of his nieces and nephews was born. He's Mr. Congeniality in a family of big egos and even bigger wallets. You're lucky that they aren't all watching over you," Emily spoke of Josh with genuine affection. "If not for you I am sure he would be fussing over me like a mother duck and keeping me company while everyone else was out there enjoying themselves. Family means the world to him. I'm not sure Nik ever understood just how much he loved being part of this unruly mob. She hated these gatherings and would often pull him away from the crowd with one of her tantrums."
It was the first time Peri could remember when someone had mentioned Nik in casual conversation, and she blanched unconsciously prompting Emily to apologise.
"Oh, I am sorry, Peri. I didn't mean," she shrugged speechlessly.
"It's fine," Peri smiled. "I'm just not ready to think of her as part of the family again or at least part of Josh's life. I know that's irrational, but I have had to divorce her from all of you, so when someone mentions her casually like that, I react. My shrink tells me it will get easier as times goes on, though." She gave a sad half smile.
"Maybe it will help to talk about her in a distant context, you know like once removed. Or maybe it would help you to know that she was no one's favourite, but they all forgave her for being a bitch because she was family. She's been cut off from the family now, and they talk about her as if she is dead," Emily admitted. "What I am trying to say is that if anyone mentions her it will be in the past tense, and you have nothing to fear from the name being mentioned."
"Dead?" Peri took a deep breath and closed her eyes. "I don't wish her dead," she said quietly. The truth was that she barely thought about how the rest of the family were taking Nik's guilt and subsequent incarceration. So much had happened so fast in their relationship that she and Josh had barely spoken of her since the panic attack at the engagement party. It bothered her more than she would have thought possible that Josh and his family treated Nik as if she had died. Had Josh grieved for his twin? Had he taken the time to consider what this would mean twenty years from now when she was a free woman again? Would he resent her in time for the loss of his sister? The thoughts swam in her head bringing forth new insecurities along with older ones that she had thought she was beginning to conquer.
"I know that," Emily said quickly watching a range of emotions play across Peri's face as she considered the words. "I have upset you, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking, you seemed so happy and recovered I just didn't think," she gave a small shrug again. "I'm sorry, I never meant to upset you in anyway."
"I'm okay," Peri said. "You're right I am happy, and aside from a little nausea now and then I feel fabulous like I am bursting with energy all of a sudden. I feel like I could be out there playing, but Josh is trying to wrap me in cotton wool," she said. "It's like you said, I love him to bits, but he can be overbearing at times." She added making Emily laugh happily.
"I've come to steal my wife away," Josh announced walking into the atrium. "I have however brought you a replacement." Marisol walked into the room behind him.
"I could use a stretch," Peri said brightly coming to her feet. "I'll catch up with you later on," she smiled at Emily and took Josh's hand.
They walked through the main house which was teeming with people to the Athenaeum and up the long staircase to the main floor. Peri saw two women and three men all sitting at one end of the long rectangular table, and she looked up at Josh in surprise.
"I know we hadn't made a clear decision about the house yet but I ran into Carmella and Ferris, and they have some great ideas," he pointed to two of the people as he spoke. "Then we spoke to Paul and Tarsia and Grant. They thought if we can come up with some plans while we are all here together we could get it drawn up and submitted to the council by the end of the month so we could start to build."
Peri could hear the sense of urgency in Josh's voice and merely nodded rather than saying anything into the silence at the end of his speech about the idea. Instead, she turned to the small group and smiled. "It's very nice to meet you all. Josh had said there might be some people here who could help us out. It's very nice of you to take the time to look at our plans when everyone else is out there having fun," she said softly.
"Carmella lives for this stuff," Ferris chuckled. "I have t drag her away from work to get her down here at all, so this will keep her from getting bored."
"He's worse than I am," she shook her head. "I'm the dreamer, and he is the realist. Then we have the muscle and the pretty one and of course the bossy one." She went around the table smiling at each person.
"Would you like me to translate that for you?" Tarsia offered, "Considering I am the bossy one?" She waited for Peri to nod before continuing. "Architect and engineer, builder and interior designer and of course project manager," she pointed to herself.
"Thank you," Peri laughed softly and took the chair offered to her.