Many, many thanks to Bebop3, without whose suggestions and guidance, this story would have remained forgotten.
This story has fourteen parts and is published in its entirety.
A glossary of terms can be found at the end.
The characters of this tale are 18 and above.
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PROLOGUE
"Can't I try it,
kuya
, just for a little while? You can always tell me what to do," Emanuel's younger sister, Katrina, begged, not for the first time.
"No, Katrina, threshing is not for girls... farming is not for girls!" Emanuel said, as he jumped off the huge machine.
He took off the kerchief tied around his neck and wiped the sweat from his brow.
"Come along now, Lucas wants to talk to me before lunch," he held out his hand to his sister.
"Alright, but I left my clogs by the paddy. You go on ahead, I'll catch up," Katrina said, already running to the opposite field, where her wooden slippers lay under the hot baking sun.
Her brother smiled and shook his head as he watched her, blue-ribboned pigtails bobbing as she ran across the field to get her clogs, she could get away with anything.
"Hurry, Mamá will have a fit if you're late to the table," he shouted back and laughed as Katrina turned and put out her tongue at him.
He was still smiling as he turned for home.
That was the last time he saw Katrina alive .
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She was called Maria del Sueño. That was what her mother named her - after a difficult birthing that had gone from bad to worse.
Cradling the tiny bundle in arms that were growing weaker with every minute, she kissed the baby girl with lips pale from the loss of blood, and died.
At first, all that Maria's father could feel was grief, but it did not last long; a week after he buried his wife, he felt the anger... white hot anger... at the fickleness of fate, the injustice of heaven and the heartlessness of a god who could mete out life and death at the flick of a finger.
And as the little girl he was left with grew, his anger turned cold - a dispassionate, uncaring, soulless contempt - which spared no one, not even his own daughter.
Thus, Maria spent a childhood sparse in conversation, lacking in emotion and devoid of touch. Her upbringing, if it could be called that, was spent in the company of her father's servants - an elderly married couple, Naring and Kiko - who made sure that she was fed and dressed and given the comfort she sadly lacked from her parent.
Maria had no recollection of speaking with her father before she turned seven - the age when most children started school. She only remembered
Aling
Naring, waking her up unusually early, giving her breakfast, dressing her and then marching her off to her father's study - a room which the young girl had never entered before.
Don Panchito was behind a huge desk, surrounded by empty bottles of
lambanog
, a potent coconut wine, most of which were empty. He sat unmoving, staring out at the window across the room.
Maria knew what he was looking at. The window was large and offered a magnificent view of the garden and beyond the flower beds, which Don Panchito's wife had planted - Aling Naring took great pains to recount the gifts her dead parent had possessed - the small hill where a lone marble tombstone stood.
The floorboards creaked as Maria and the old woman walked towards the desk. Don Panchito looked at them. The young girl saw the way her father's jaw tightened, it was clear he was not happy with the interruption.
"Well?" he asked, speaking to Naring.
"Maria wants to say good-bye, Señor, it's her first day of school."
Don Panchito's eyes fell on his daughter, and the cold rage once again filled him. It did not help that Maria looked so much like his beloved wife, the beautiful but tragic Elena, whose life was snuffed out by the young girl standing in front of him.
"Go, then."
If Naring was surprised by the curt dismissal, Maria was not. She had known for quite some time, with an intuition innate in all young children, that her father did not love her.
I
It was many years later - a few weeks after she turned eighteen - that Maria was once again told to go to her father's study. She and Don Panchito seldom spoke, except the customary greeting during dinner, if and when Don Panchito was at home in the evening or when he was not too drunk to eat. She sighed, supper would be uncomfortable again.
"Wear the green dress, Maria," Aling Naring said.
"Why?" Maria asked.
"The color suits you, besides the Señor has guests coming over tonight and I'm sure he would have you looking more... presentable," the servant answered.
"Is there anything wrong with how I look, Naring?"
"No," Naring said, eyeing the faded blue dress Maria was wearing, a little haughtily, "but there is a need to impress these guests. Besides, your mother was always well dressed on every occasion. It would be a shame if the same could not be said of her daughter. Now, hurry, girl."
The older woman turned to leave Maria's room, but turned back again.
"And do something with your hair. Put it up or at least tie it back. Show them your pretty face," and with that, the old servant left.
At eighteen, Maria had indeed grown into a lovely young woman. She had inherited her mother's beauty - light brown skin kissed by the sun, long dark hair, a short straight nose, and eyes that were like a cat's - but she had also inherited Doña Elena's timidity, and growing up alone and unwanted, had made her extremely shy. She had no friends, for she could never summon up the courage to make one, so everyone assumed she was either simple-minded, or worse, a snob.
Maria walked to her closet, took out the green dress and laid it out on the bed. It was a deep green and was her father's gift to her two months earlier - her birthday - at least, that was what Naring said.
The old servant had given Maria the beautifully wrapped package while the young girl was having breakfast, told her it was from her father and left it at that.
Maria never thought of asking, although she knew that it was unlikely that her father had given her the present or that he even recalled that it was her birthday. In all likelihood, it had come from Naring herself and her husband, Kiko. She remembered thinking then that she did not care about her father's callousness.
A single tear fell on the green dress as it lay on her bed. The truth was that she did care... and the only reason she never asked Don Panchito, was because she did not want to hear him say he had never given her the dress, in the first place.
Maria wiped her eyes with the back of her hand. Then she stood up and undid the buttons of the blue dress, letting it slide down her ankles. She put on the green garment and smoothed it over her hips. Then, after clipping her hair back, she left the room and went downstairs to her father's study.
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"A toast, then, gentlemen," Don Panchito said as he raised his glass.