In Part 1 of the story a young woman named Sarah meets a man on the train and is enticed into becoming a member of his exclusive club. He recognizes her submissive tendencies and he and other members of the club introduce her to a whole new world of sexual pleasure. Part 1 describes the club and the things that are done to Sarah, and the things she is forced to do to others. At the end of Part 1 she has been turned over to Ian, the manager of the club in charge of training new members, and she has been told to come to the club dining room at 7 pm.
In Part 2 Sarah becomes deeply involved the erotic activities at the club, all the while maintaining her special feelings for John, the man she met on the train. In the end, however, John disappoints her.
In this final Part 3 John comes through for her.
Chapter 26 - Sarah is Crushed and Comforted
Sarah was in shock. For days she had been anticipating John's return, anxious to show him all she had learned. She thought that the red ribbon he had given her had symbolized her special place in his affections. Pleasing him had been her goal. In fact she felt that she had fallen in love with him.
Now he was clearly pulling away. He seemed almost angry in the rough way he had treated her with Ian. And then there was the indignity of his branding her with the yellow ribbon, giving everyone the signal that she was fair game to be used by anyone in the club who desired her. She turned her head into the pillow and let the tears flow.
For hours she lay there, feeling sorry for herself. The world was such a confusing place. In a manner of days she had gone from an innocent country girl to the sexual plaything of powerful men and women, placing her trust in an older man who seemed to care about her. She found it hard to believe that he wanted her only for sex.
But the sex had been incredible. As she thought about the intense experiences of the past week a shiver went down her spine. She knew that a craving had been awakened in her that would not be denied. With or without John she would remain at the Club.
She dozed off and was awakened by a soft knock on her door. "May I come in?"
The soft voice of her friend Camille was like manna. 'Oh yes, Camille come in. I'm so glad you came. The most awful thing has happened..."
Camille closed the door behind her and sat on the edge of the bed. "I know dear. John told me and asked me to come see you. He thought you might be upset and was concerned."
"Upset? You're damn right I'm upset! I gave that man all I had and he has thrown me to the wolves. Look at this yellow ribbon. I feel like tearing it to shreds!"
"You're looking at the wrong way," said Camille sympathetically. "John took away the red ribbon because he is afraid he likes you too much. I know him. At heart he is a softie. He always pulls back when relationships with women get too close because he thinks he will become obligated. His freedom is very important to him."
"I don't want to take away his freedom," Sarah cried. "I just want to be special to him. What am I suppose to do?"
"If you want him to stay close you have to convince him that you understand and accept him the way he is and will not be disappointed or hurt when he withdraws or has sex with other women. That is a hard thing for us women to do."
"How do you manage it with Isaac?"
"I struggle. He takes what he wants from me and then goes home to his wife and family. I know he will never belong to me, but the way he makes me feel is like a narcoticβI can't give it up, at least not for while. Eventually I will leave this place and lead a normal life somewhere, but for now I am content to savor the experiences I get here."
Camille's words resonated with Sarah. The Commerce Club experiences were incredible. Maybe she should just forget about having anything special with John and go with the flow. It was all so new and confusing. She put her head in Camille's lap and sighed, "You at least have a red ribbon from Isaac and can share the experiences with him. I will have no one."
"Nonsense. Don't think for a minute that John is going to ignore you. If you accept the yellow ribbon and don't cling to him, he will probably get jealous and want you back as his exclusive playmate. You are going to get hit on by lot of members. Enjoy the variety and watch John squirm."
"I don't know. Maybe I should leave the Club and go get a job in town like I originally intended."
"Only you can decide that. Why not take a day off and go to town to look around. You need to buy some clothes anyway."
"Will they let me go while I am still in training?"
"You know the contract. With twenty four hour notice they have to let you go. There is no exception for a training period."
"Will you go with me?"
"If Isaac is not here, I will."
"When is he coming back?"
"I never know. He shows up whenever he can get away, sometimes in the middle of the day. I have to always be ready and responsive. But with him it's not hard to do."
"He is very sexy."
Camille laughed. "That's an understatement. He likes you a lot, by the way. Now that you are wearing a yellow ribbon would you like us to play with you?"
"Oh yes, very much. I feel comfortable with you both. And Camille, I have to tell you that I love it when you touch me."
"Like this?"
"Hmmm...."
"Are you naked under this sheet?"
"Why don't you check and see."
"Yes, I see you are. Scoot over and I will lie with you."
Camille kicked off her shoes and climbed into bed with Sarah. She was wearing jeans and a tight sweater and did not bother to remove them. When she pulled Sarah to her, she let the rough clothing rub on bare skin that was rapidly heating up. Her hand moved over Sarah's stomach and down between her legs. Sarah responded by kissing her hungrily.