Author's note: This is a work of fiction. All characters, including "flashback" scenes are over the age of 18. The last scene in this chapter contains non-sexual bullying.
Chapter 11: Obsessive thoughts lead to wicked pleasures.
"What is this wicked thing that you are doing?" ~ Nehemiah 13 v. 17
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Sunday, December 3
The morning sun beaming through the window brought me back to consciousness, fading the erotic images that had been replaying in my dreams. Those images from the frat party of oral sex, and all the positions of vaginal sex possible while sitting, standing and laying down lingered on my memory. Until last night, I had no idea that there were so many ways that people could fuck. Maybe there were still others I hadn't yet seen.
But most surprising was how aroused I became watching Penny and Gina (I think it was Gina) getting fucked in the ass. I nearly creamed myself when I saw those glistening cocks slide into those tight little holes. Then, to feel the girls' auras burst when they came as it was happening made me feel both horny and depraved at the same time. I not only looked like a demon, but I also felt like one.
I opened my eyes to escape those sinful thoughts and images only to find myself staring at my coal-black cock pointing rigidly at the ceiling. It twitched as if to taunt me for thinking about anal sex.
From the time I reached puberty, my penis seemed to have a mind of its own. I'd get an erection at the worst possible moments: in front of the Spanish teacher, in front of the minister's daughter after church, getting undressed in the boys' locker room. It was embarrassing.
But ever since my transformation, my cock felt like it belonged to another creature; a demon lurking deep in my groin, hungry for sexโand sexual energy. It felt like it was just waiting for the opportunity to take over to get what it wanted. Those gnawing sensations were a warning; and I could keep the creature quiet by feeding it enough aura energy to remain in control. But for how long could I keep this going? And what would happen if I lost control?
Maybe if I masturbated, I could keep it at bay. But with sharp claws on my right hand and a mitt on my left, a hand job was out of the question. I snaked my tail up from between my thighs and stroked myself using the flared tip. It felt nice, but it only made me hornier without supplying any sexual energy.
Something in the back of my mind still nagged me about last night. It was that girl April, the one I pushed into losing her virginity with a couple of extra boosts of aura energy. At the time, I thought I was doing her a favor, helping to introduce her to the joys of sexuality, but now I wasn't so sure. She was clearly curious, and showed some initial willingness, but then she hesitated at the last minuteโtwice. What if she wasn't ready and I pushed her into it?
I looked at the rigid black obelisk at my groin. "Whose favor was it, hers or yours?"
It twitched as if answering the question.
Damn it.
I also dream-walked for the first time last night. It was the new ability I attained from all the aura energy I consumed at the frat party. But I had no idea how it worked or how to control it. Being in someone else's dream felt weird, especially when I didn't know how I got there or how to leave.
Tina was pretty upset with me for entering her dream. She knew right away it was me dream-walking and not something she dreamt up. I wonder how she knew. And what was going on with that menacing-looking black cloud? Why was she afraid of it? Oh my God, maybe she was in some sort of danger! I should check on her!
I sprang out of bed and ran down the hall and knocked on her door.
"Tina?"
"Go away!" she panted through the door.
"Are you okay?"
"GO AWAY!" she repeated, still panting.
"Are you in some sort of trouble? Can we talk about it?"
"NO! (
fuck!
)" she gasped under her breath. My sensitive ears picked up her barely whispered curse.
"Something's wrong. I'm coming in," I shouted through the door. I opened the door a crack.
"NO!" she shrieked, "STAY OUT! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I closed the door. "Fine, but if you change your mind, I'll be in my room."
Whatever was bothering her, she wasn't ready to tell me about it. Maybe she couldn't.
I spent the rest of the morning in my room studying, although I kept thinking about Tina. I was worried. After a few hours, I started getting that gnawing feeling in my groin again and I wondered if this was what the rest of my life would be like. Maybe all this sexual energy I was accumulating was turning me into more of a monster. If so, there was very little chance I would ever be able to return to class or even need any of the courses I was taking.
The more I thought about it, the more I was convinced that this was just the start of my punishment for sinning. I was doomed to spend the rest of eternity in a demon body in constant need of sexual energy every 6 to 8 hours to keep my sanity. Or worse, that I would spend the remainder of my days becoming addicted to all the hedonistic pleasures of the human body only to spend eternity completely deprived and epically frustrated.
Shortly after noon, in addition to groin cravings, I began feeling food-hungry and decided to make lunch. I stopped by Tina's room first to see if I could get her anything. Standing outside her door, I heard a lot of panting and grunting and noticed her white aura pulsing at the edge of an orgasm. But instead of erupting, her aura kept growing just barely beyond her reach instead.
"Tina? Are you hungry? Can I make you something to eat for lunch?"
"No. Thank you," she gasped.
"Are youโ" I began.
"Don't come in. (
fuck
)," she gasped.
"Do you need my help?"
"(
shit
) No. Leave now, please," she panted.