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The Hot Adventures of Cool Félise
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by Portia de Shade
CHAPTER I
The Dreadful Letter
He
should
have his face pressed up against my door-- he should be begging and pleading to have me back!
From the sounds coming from outside my apartment this morning, I imagined that it was my beloved Professor Stephan, that he had shown up, his ear pressed to my front door's peeling red veneer, pitifully knocking and listening to hear if I was inside. "How dare he think he can win me back now!" I sneered to myself, "After everything he did, after everything that's happened!"
"Félise," I imagined him whispering between broken chokes and sobs, "this is impossible, just impossible!" And then silence again.
"He has no idea how to treat a woman," I thought with fury. "Nor will he ever!" Then the sounds of knocking outside resumed.
"I beg you," I joyously imagined him crying, "on my knees, in tears, all the tears I wept upon the dreadful letter I wrote, don't abandon me this way!" Then the knocking ceased as I heard the familiar clink of antique locks unbolted and a creaking doorknob turn.
"Monsieur," said my landlady from next-door, "what do you have for me today?" She bid the postman enter. "Christ's tears, another letter from that abominable tenant!"
"Christ's tears, indeed!" I muttered, imitating my landlady's country accent. At least I wasn't the only one cursing unwelcome letters.
The last time I saw Stephan was the day I found and read the dreadful letter he'd written. Why our last encounter occurs to me at so inappropriate a time, I shouldn't say. But when I imagine he's alone, crying and pining for me, a freezing thrill steals down my sides. In any case, Stephan-- that is his Christian name-- is not exactly welcome in my thoughts just now. At the moment, I'm a little busy. My womb was just full of a boy's prick, a blond boy named Jean, and his hands were quite full of me. Hoping this afternoon to lure him like a minnow between my legs, I chanced upon him a few hours ago at the Café de Louys, where he sat quite innocently reading his little book in his lap. I could tell he didn't remember that we'd met before, and I wasn't about to tell him we did! Our first introduction, you see, came under very different circumstances.
But to call it a chance encounter isn't precisely right. I had definite designs on Jean before I was everywhere passionately fond of his hands and mouth on my body. And I've grown wildly fonder of him in the short time we've gotten to know each other. But just meeting him was no easy task. That's why I couldn't leave anything to the whim of chance. I strolled past his table at the café twice before I had the courage to approach him. The first time I passed by, I caught the fine lights of his eyes in mine; the second time, I took a gander at what he was reading-- Thomas à Kempis'
Imitation of Christ
. That happens to be a book I know well, and I was pleasantly shocked to see him reading the writings of a 15
th
century monk.
"But perhaps," I thought, "his reading a guide to repentance and holy living means he has something to repent of!" I envisioned a variety of scenarios involving Jean doing things to me that would later require him to enact some desperate religious measure to correct. When I finally did approach him, my uninvited-- nay, my unrepentant--boldness paid off for me like a sinner attaining heaven. Without asking, I slithered up to his table in my slinky dress and picked up his matches to light a cigarette-- pretty piece of impudence! Though I'd not said a thing, he looked up at me with a sudden expression, as if lost for a reply.
"You look as though you are on the verge of speech," I said, winking. He laughed. "I'm Félise," I added, extending my long white arm for him to take my sleek white hand. "I hope you don't mind, I'm taking this cigarette, ok? I like yours better. Mine are the cheap kind anyhow." Even though it was apparent he didn't recall our having met, what solitary boy turns me away -- a gorgeous nineteen-year-old girl-- to continue reading a book? None, I should think; that principle of nature admits no exceptions.
"Do we know each other?" Jean asked me.
"If you'd met me, could you forget?" I replied. He laughed, and I lit the cigarette he had no choice but to give me. "What's your name," I asked, sitting down in the chair he had no choice but to offer.
"My name is Jean, Félise. It's Félise, isn't it?"
"You've forgotten already!" I said with mock-surprise. That actually made him blush. Jean's lily-white cheeks going scarlet reminded me of a welt-covered bottom after a good flogging. At once, Jean's bashfulness set me to imagining his hands kneading and slapping my ass until they were red as his cheeks. "That's fine if you forget my name, Jean," I told him. "But how will I ever teach you anything if you can't remember?"
"Teach me? What do you mean?" was his retort, and he flung himself to the back of his seat. He lit a cigarette, and looked the other way. Now I thought I'd hurt his feelings, and had to act before my chance to get to know him really was ruined.
"I didn't mean anything bad," I said, putting my hand on his closest knee to smooth out the rough edge. "I meant nothing, really." Jean frowned at me. "May I?" I added, subtracting another one of his cigarettes from his inlaid silver case. He smiled at me and I knew he was my captive once again. It's wonderful that girls have it so easy sometimes, men can be so difficult. But once I'd regained my stride toward his bedroom, I was sure to pursue only the gentlest topics at hand, letting nothing pass my lips that wasn't aimed at his cock.
"So what are you reading there?" I asked, motioning to his copy of
The Imitation of Christ
. He told me the name, which I knew already, and I asked him why he'd be interested in that kind of book. From what he was reading, I guessed that he wasn't a Protestant, which sect I blame most of the world's problems on. If I'd found out, after fucking him, that he was a Calvinist sympathizer, or worse, a Lutheran, my cultural standards would have been dearly compromised. I might never have forgiven him for the dark deception of such an omission. But the facts of Jean's religious affiliation were far from my mind after he told me where he'd gotten his pious volume.
"My girlfriend let me borrow it," he said. "Her professor at the Sorbonne assigned the book in a class, but I don't think she ever read it."
"You have a girlfriend, then?" I asked. He squirmed in his chair and glanced around in search of an explanation to explain yet another lapse in his memory. "I'm sorry, I didn't know you were involved," I said in a settled way, and feigned disappointment as I feigned getting up to leave.
"Yes, but she's-- Félise, don't go so soon!" cried Jean. "Why don't you join me for coffee? Come, come, sit here."
"But wouldn't she get mad if she saw us?" I replied, doubling the hurt in my voice. "I'll bet she would. What if she heard you were sitting with a girl she didn't know?" I twisted the barb just to see how bad he wanted me to stay; I already knew he'd bend me over on a moment's notice.
"Oh, she's not even in Paris right now," Jean replied.
"Your girlfriend?" I said with damnable iteration.
"Yes, she-- my girlfriend-- is spending the month in Toulouse with her parents."