"We need to talk," Jess said to me.
These are not words that I guy generally wants to hear from his girlfriend unprompted. This was a couple of days after our evening with Lindsay.
"Of course, Jess. What's up?"
"It's about what happened with Lindsay," she started in carefully.
"It wasn't what you intended, was it?"
"No. I guess I thought I could have a controlled situation where I got you both some pleasure without mixing in... dangerous emotions. Stupid of me, I get that. And weird, yes. I think I'm feeling some guilt over how much I have been with Jacen and denying you. I know it appeals to you, but in my head I felt like I needed to do something to show my appreciation. You are such a good fit for me but this is all new. It's a path I've never had to navigate before."
"I understand. And yes, it was weird as shit."
"I know, I know," she said, blushing, wearing an embarrassed grin, "But, when Lindsay took off the blindfold and was happy it was you, I... it bothered me. So stupid. I'm the one who set it up. But the moment there seemed to be some emotion shared between the two of you, despite what she said, it scared me."
"Oh," I replied in genuine surprise.
"I know it's ridiculous. With all you are willing to allow me to do. But you're my rock. I've never had that before and I'm not willing to risk that. It's so hypocritical of me, I know."
"I get it, Jess. You were very upfront with me about your interests and you have explored mine. Yes, it was hot to be with Lindsay. But it was only good for me because you wanted it and, frankly, because the denial thing had gotten me more wound up than I was willing to admit. I don't think I can go that long again without you. Lindsay was new and different, but don't you for a moment think I would EVER willingly choose to be with her or anyone else over you."
"Damn straight you won't," Jess said, smiling sheepishly, "There's something else we need to talk about. It's Jacen. Since you've met, I'm getting some vibes that things have changed."
"What are you saying?"
"I think his competitive nature has kicked in and he's mistaking that for love. I fear he's developing feelings for me. Normally I wouldn't mind that. It'd be hot to have a lover become very devoted to me. But I get the impression he wants to have more than just a great 'fuck buddy'. I think he might be seeking to be a rival to my affections for you. I'm not saying my feelings have changed towards him, but I'm starting to feel like my actions are leading him on past what I ever intended with him."
"Well that's a shame," I said, half-heartedly actually meaning those words.
"Yeah. I mean, goddamn he's such a good fuck. Maybe the best I've ever head," Jess replied with a smirk.
It was both awesome and shitty to hear that.
"Jess, why do you want to stay with me if he fucks you so much better?"
"You're so needy sometimes. It's funny to me. I've told you- what we have is different. It's so tied to the feelings in my heart. When I fuck Jacen, it's all about my pussy. It's lust, not love. And the feeling when it's just about lust, filled with that great big cock, that great big BLACK cock. Ugh, it feels so good physically. Emotionally, mentally, that's all fulfilled by what we have, what we do, together. And I'll admit, I have been starving for it. The denial has affected me too. It's probably why that stupid plan with Lindsay backfired on me so much. I'm missing my Darren time."
"So, we're done with denial?"
"Oh, not completely. I think it was pretty hot for both of us. But probably not for that long of a stretch. And afterwards, it'll be me and me alone that you get your rocks off in," Jess insisted.
"Is there any chance you can talk with Jacen, clear the air and make sure you are both in the same place so that you can continue on with him?"
"You are such a cuck, Darren," Jess said jokingly, "You love me being with him, don't you?"