I had fucked Amy. She had fucked me. In a moment of sadness for me, she made it all go away with one simple act. I didn't care about Becky anymore, realizing she had made her decision about us.
The day after, things were w bit awkward between us. At least, they were for me.
"About last night," I said to Amy when I saw her during lunch.
"What about it?" she asked and then took a bite of her hamburger.
"Um... Well... I, uh," I stammered, not really sure what I should say.
"Marc, relax," she told me. "It was just sex."
"Just sex?" I said.
"Yeah... You were all depressed about what happened with Becky, I was feeling a bit guilty because of what happened, plus a little horny, so I killed three birds with one stone. It doesn't mean anything."
"What doesn't mean anything?" Andy asked as he sat down with a tray of food.
"Nothing," I blurted out.
"Marc and I had sex last night," Amy said nonchalantly.
I expected Andy to get mad and punch me for sleeping with his sister. I was his friend, and there are rules against that sort of thing.
"Nice one," Andy said with a bit of a smile. "Pass the ketchup."
Amy handed Andy a small bottle of ketchup, which he put on his burger before taking a bite.
"Am I the only one weirded out by this whole thing?" I asked.
"Yes," Amy and Andy said together.
"Look," Andy said after a minute. "If you're worried that I'm gonna be pissed at you for it, don't. My sister is a big girl. If she wanted to get stuffed with your sausage, that's her business."
"Thank you," Amy said, then looked at me and said, "Marc... I know last night was your first time and everything. And I got to say, not bad for a beginner. But it was just sex. It doesn't mean you and I are together or anything. That's not what I'm looking for. You should be happy. Guys go their whole life without meeting a girl who wants nothing but just a little casual sex without any strings attached. You got handed one on a silver platter."
As confused as I was by the whole thing, Amy did have a point. Not only did she help me to get over Becky, but she also fucked me. I was no longer a virgin. And I was free to go out and meet someone if I wanted to.
I suddenly felt a bit of power over myself. Looking around at all the women in the cafeteria, I didn't feel as awkward as I would have before. I felt like I could go up to any of them and at least get their phone number, if not a date.
"You're right," I said.
"Of course I am," Amy said. "Just remember, that was more than likely going to be a one time thing."
"More than likely?" I asked.
"Well, yeah," she said. "Who knows what might happen in the future. If I get that itch again and you're there, I might give you a jump. Then again, I might tell you to fuck off so I can take care of it myself. It all depends on what I'm in the mood for at the time."
"Sometimes you feel like a nut," Andy sang. "Sometimes you don't," Amy joined in and then they laughed.
"Surprise," someone said as they jumped on my back, knocking me hard into the table. I turned my head and it was Lisa with Jake standing a foot away.
"When the fuck did you guys get back?" I asked as they sat down with us.
"Just now," Jake said. "We got up early and decided to come back today instead of tomorrow."
"Mostly because Jake's parents weren't comfortable with us sharing a room," Lisa said.
"I spent the last two nights on the couch by myself," Jake said.
"Speaking of fucking," Andy said. "Marc and Amy did it."
The looks on Jake and Lisa's faces were priceless.
"That's a joke, right?" Lisa said. "What happened to Becky?"
"She dumped me," I said and then told them about what had happened.
"Pay up," Lisa said. Jake begrudgingly reached into his pocket, pulled out a ten dollar bill and handed it to Lisa. "Thank you."
"What was that about?" Amy asked.
"I bet Jake that Becky was one of those girls who's constantly paranoid that someone is going to hurt her in some way," Lisa said. "And would end up breaking up with Marc over something trivial or even made up in her head."
Lisa put her hand on my shoulder and added, "It's not your fault sweetie. She's just screwed up. If it didn't happen when it did, it would have eventually."
"And you know this how?" asked Amy.
"The signs were all there," Lisa said. "Her upbringing, mostly the fact that her dad left right before she was born. So obvious daddy issues as well as suspecting of any man she gets close to will one day abandon her."
"That's impossible," I said. "I saw a picture of her with her mom and dad."
"Step dad," said Lisa. "Number six, if I remember what she told me that day."
"How the hell did I not know about any of this?" I asked.
"Did you ever ask?" Jake said.
"She told me about her family," I said. "She never mentioned that her dad was actually her step dad, so I didn't think there was anything that I should have asked."
"Holy crap," said Amy. "Now I understand why she kept giving me that look on Halloween."
"What look?" I asked.
"Like she wanted to kick my ass," Amy said.
"Why the fuck didn't you guys ever tell me about any of this before now?"
"Would you have believed us if we did?" asked Lisa.
I thought about it for a minute before I answered, "Not really."
"Exactly," Lisa said. "You were blinded by the L and L."
"L and L?" asked Andy.
"Love and lust," said Jake. "All guys go through it during the first few months of a relationship. Especially if they haven't been laid in a long time, or even at all. Once you actually have sex with the person, then you start to see them for who they really are. Luckily, I was with someone who is just awesome."
Jake pulled Lisa to him and gave her a quick kiss on her lips.
"So," Lisa said after a moment. "Now that you two are together."
"We're not together," Amy said. "It was just sex to help him get over Becky. Like charity work... Really, really good charity work."
"For his first time?" asked Lisa and Amy nodded. "Lucky you. I remember the first guy I slept with. It was his first time as well... Wow, was it bad. Three seconds and it was over."
"It was five," Jake said. "And I thought we wouldn't talk about this to anyone."
"Oh, sweetie," Lisa said. "You're so cute when you get embarrassed. Just makes me want to take you up to your room, rip your clothes off, and make nasty monkey love to you."
"See you guys later," Jake said as he grabbed Lisa's hand and they ran off.
"Stay off my bed this time," I shouted to them as they ran out of the cafeteria.
"You know the first place they're gonna do it is on your bed, right?" asked Andy.
"Yeah, I know," I said.
That Monday, classes resumed and so did the beginning of the time leading up to midterms. The workload for each of my classes doubled, and some even tripled. I had three papers due all on the same day one week, and only had a few days to work on them. I spent most of my time in the library researching and going over all of my notes.
As for Becky, she and I didn't talk to each other anymore, which was fine with me. The one class we shared, she moved to an empty seat on the other side of the room. Then, after two weeks, she suddenly stopped coming to class. I would later find out that I wasn't the only one to have gotten lucky that night. The only difference is that while Amy was on the pill when I came in her, stopping any chance of her getting pregnant, Becky wasn't so lucky when creepy Carl unloaded his seed into her. When she found out, she told her overtly religious parents, who refused to pay her tuition anymore and demanded that she return home. And of course, when creepy Carl found out, he bolted for the hills.
I felt kind of bad for Becky, but I couldn't dwell on it because almost every free moment I had went to studying. To give you an idea how hectic everything was with our classes, Jake and Lisa barely had time for sex.
"I don't know how much more of this I can take," Lisa said one evening while she and I were studying in the library while Jake was in one of his evening classes.
"Come on," I said. "I know the work load is tough, but..."
"Fuck the work load," Lisa said. "I'm talking about the lack of sex. Jake and I barely get to see each other, and honestly... Mama needs it bad."
"Needs what bad?" asked Andy as he sat down with us, a huge pile of books with him.
"Damn it man," I said, looking at the pile. It was half as tall as I was. "What the hell are you studying?"
"You don't want to know," Andy said as he grabbed the first book from the pile, which was something about advanced space/time theory.
"BTW," Andy said a moment later as he looked up from his book. "My birthday is tomorrow." He looked at his watch, "Actually, make that in twenty minutes."
"Well happy fucking birthday," I said, patting him on the back. "Finally eighteen. Old enough to buy cigarettes, vote, and get sent by the government to kill people."
"Yeah," Andy said. "Anyways, don't make any plans for tomorrow night. We're going out celebrating."
"Count me in," Lisa said. "I could really use a night off."
"Yeah," I said I was really starting to feel burned out by all the studying and assignments I had to do. One night off was sounding like paradise to me at the moment. "Where are we going?"
"Keeping it simple," Andy said. "Bowling."
"Bowling?" I said.
"Yep," said Andy. "Just the five of us. A lane. Some balls."
Lisa let out a little moan.
"And lots and lots of beer," Andy continued. "Amy found a place not far from here that doesn't bother carding college students."
"Sounds good to me," I said.
The next day I only had one class before noon. When it was over, I dropped my books off at my room to find Jake going over some of his class notes.
"What are you up to right now?" I asked.
"Trying to figure out world peace," he said without looking up. "What does it look like I'm doing?"
"I'm heading out to get a present for Andy's birthday tonight," I said. "You want to come?"
