Part II
Chapter 10
Imogen was sitting on the sand enjoying a perfect afternoon at the beach with her father, sifting fine white sand between her toes, watching the way the grains fell and wondering why. Why did one grain fall this way and another that way - and what caused the disparity in action? Was it gravity, or were there different coefficients of friction on the various parts of her feet? Then she looked up as a breaking wave tumbled and came to the beach - and the same question darted through her mind...if each wave is essentially the same, why does each individual wave look and, sometimes, behave differently?
'There's something happening here, something happening beyond...' she said to herself - but she stopped, lost in thought, lost in 'the beyond...' Just how far could we go, she wondered. How small was this new universe?
"But how can things happen in such - chaos," she then said, and so loudly it startled her father.
"What things, daughter?"
"I was looking at the waves, father. Each one is different, though often only in very subtle ways, yet the conditions here are almost uniform. So, why aren't they identically shaped?"
"Well, are conditions really identical - even 'almost' so? Now, think about it. Are there sudden shifts in wind direction or strength, even very small shifts, or are there harder to detect shifts in air pressure? And let's not even mention the same possible variables happening underwater." He looked at his daughter, at this little human being by his side, and while he felt a not so modest pride at the workings of her mind he felt a strange duality at coming into play.
One moment, just like this one, and Imogen was caught up in the physical world all around her, - her senses engaged with deciphering the inner-workings of nature - yet there were little intermezzos in these passages...a sudden stillness, or an equally sudden irrational outburst of energy. What was happening in her mind, he wondered?
He felt one such cloudburst coming-on again, coming right now, and he watched her face, saw manifest curiosity give way to startled fear, and he held out his hand in front of her face and waved it up and down, watching the pupils of her eyes for signs of constriction - but he saw nothing. Inexplicably - nothing. 'How is this possible?' he asked just as she twitched, then suddenly she was warding off blows from an unseen assailant.
He grabbed her and held her close, now very much afraid he just might understand what was happening...
"What is it, Imogen? What is happening right now? Describe it for me...?" he pleaded.
She moaned as he hid her face in her father's robe, but she pushed herself deeper still - into the scent of the clean fabric and the faraway places she went when she could smell his skin. Her arms wrapped tightly around his waist, she pulled herself closer and closer, trying to escape the grasping fingers of the man in the black cape...
But his cane was out now, and the caped man was conducting his symphony once again...a symphony in the clouds...as if the storms he summoned were orchestras in and of themselves.
And as suddenly she was trying to feel for little variations in wind speed and direction, for even the smallest changes in air pressure, and as the raging storm gathered around her she felt herself smile as new chords formed in the clouds...
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Parish was standing at attention, his eyes level and focused dead-ahead, trying not to move a muscle as the colonel read through his personnel file.
"I don't get it, captain," the colonel said. He was supposed to be a fine general surgeon - and a career military officer - and suddenly Parish was aware he respected this physician simply for the choice he'd made. "You're due to head home in less than a month, aren't you...and suddenly you want to re-enlist?"
"Yessir."
The old man read a few more notes from the file, shook his head more than once, then looked up at Parish again. "I said 'at-ease,' doctor. Now, would you sit your ass down and tell me what's really going on? Is it some girl? Knock her up, maybe?"
Parish sat, tried to gather his well-rehearsed thoughts once again before he began...
"I'm not needed at home, Colonel. I don't need to join a country club and I don't need the big house. I do need to get back out to the men out there. Because I am needed there..."
"So, you got yourself wounded and now - all-of-a-sudden - you've had your 'Come to Jesus moment' and want to get back to the trenches. Is that it? Because looking over this file I see a fine surgeon masking as a world-class fuck-up. What happens when this little epiphany of yours fades away, eh? You think the Medical Corps needs a screw-up in the ranks?"
Parish looked down, studied his hands before he spoke again: "I think it's something more than that, Colonel, but I'm not sure I could get it into words right now. Anyway, I want to make it official. I want to make the Army my home, and I want to make taking care of these guys my life's work. Maybe I don't really understand where all this is coming from, but I do understand the choice I've got to make is right here staring me in the face. And I feel comfortable about it, about the choice I've made."
The colonel nodded, then pulled out a sheaf of carbon-copied papers and handed them over to Parish. "Read 'em over, Captain. Take your own sweet time about it, too. Maybe a week...or a month...then sign 'em if that's really what you want to do. But this is a big decision, son, maybe the biggest you'll ever make. So... you be sure you know what you're doing before you sign. Okay?"
Parish read through the pack of documents right then and there, then he took one of the black ball-point-pens from the colonel's desk and began signing his name...in triplicate, and on all the forms. When he was finished he looked up, looked into the colonel's eyes and he thought he saw recognition in the old surgeon's eyes. He saw the ribbons on his chest then, too, at least a dozen Korean campaign ribbons, and right there Parish knew the old man knew the score.
When he walked out of the building and into the heavy Hawaiian air he looked up at the flag and felt a gut-punch of pride, because now he knew exactly where he belonged. And why.
But first, he had to scoot over to personnel and see about getting back to C-Med.
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"So, tell me about your mother. What's going on with her?"
Callahan looked at Stacy Bennett, then down at her plate. "I see you liked the abalone. It's supposed to be the best in the city."
She smiled her approval but he could see by the look in her eyes the deflection wasn't going to work.
He sighed while he rolled some linguini on his fork, but then put it down and looked her in the eye. "It's kinda hard to tell from one report to the next. Not being there, not seeing what she's working on, well...it's like flying blind..."
"Is she still working on the nuclear stuff?"
He shook his head. "No...she's not really stable enough right now; she just works on her music."