THREE SISTERS Chapter 6
"
You have to marry my daughter
."
I heard her plainly. Loud, and clear. I couldn't say 'What?', or 'Pardon?'. Asking her if she was serious might not be particularly helpful, either.
Then I had a moment of inspiration. I hadn't had too many of those, in my life. But I seized on this idea, as a drowning man clutches at anything close to hand.
- "I ... I have to discuss it - with my daughters."
The old woman raised an eyebrow.
"She - Sulcen - would be step-mother to my girls. In a way." I realized at that moment that it would be better if I stopped talking. Shut up, Veran.
- "I understand." said the Mother of Nadestis. "You can have until the day after tomorrow."
***
I didn't know how to explain it to Inisian and Moruith. So I told them nothing.
Hedyn was curious, and probably deserved to know something. But I couldn't think of what to tell him, either.
- "Just give me a day, will you?" I asked him.
- "Of course."
I took my three daughters to the woodpile, and burned off some of my aggression splitting logs. Yevna had the patience of a forester. Tanguiste was dying to ask, but had the good sense to wait. Guenna was going mad, wanting to start questioning me, but I held up three fingers - and she sat down, to consider her options.
- "We can stay here." I told them. "There's only one condition." And I related my entire conversation with the Mother of the Nadestis.
- "What?" shouted Yevna, as she leapt to her feet.
- "That's completely unfair!" said Guenna.
- "Wait!" said Tanguiste. "Wait!" She had to slap her older sister on the arm to get her attention. "Wait, Yevna!" I was struck - again - by how much she resembled her mother.
"Wait!" she said, once more. "Let Father speak."
My three girls all looked to me.
- "What?"
- "What do
you
want to do?" asked Tanguiste.
- "I could think about it in private, Tan." I said. "Alone. But I decided to ask you three how you would feel about it. Your opinions - and your feelings on the matter - are important to me. So ... please - tell me what you think."
I turned to look at Yevna.
My eldest daughter was a creature of the woods, of the forest trails. She was a hunter, a forester.
- "She won't be my mother, Papa." she said. "But I have to respect her, for killing the man who mistreated her."
"If you want to marry her - or if you think you should, just so we have a place to stay - I have no objection."
I could never say 'No' to Yevna. Every time she spoke to me, every time I saw the gap where her two front teeth should have been ... I remembered what she had done, to free me, to save all of us.
Tanguiste was more complicated. She insisted on staring deep into my eye, as if she was trying to read my mind.
- "Papa." she said. "What do
you
want?"
- "What do you mean, Tan?" I asked, in return. It was especially disconcerting, because the experience of looking into her eyes reminded me all too painfully of her mother.
- "Would this make you happy, Father?" she asked. "Or is this just something you would do in order to keep us safe?"
-"You don't like the idea, pet?" I said.
- "It's up to you, of course." she said, with Meonwe's eyes.
That was too much for me to take.
- "Guenna?" I asked.
- "Are you completely in agreement with the idea of marrying this woman?' asked my youngest.
She was clever. Her use of the word
completely
left me hamstrung.
- "What's your second question?" I asked.
- "You didn't answer the first."
- "Correct. Next one."
- "Would this solution be best for us?" she said.
- "That's debatable. Possibly." I said. "Last question."
Guenna looked me in the eye. She didn't resemble Meonwe at all. If anything, she was beginning to look like me.
- "What do
you
want, Papa?"
- "That's the same question your sister asked."
And I still didn't have an answer.
***
What
did
I want? It was a reasonable question.
Ever since that fateful night, I had only wanted to keep my daughters safe. Once their safety was assured, I hoped that they could lead happy, relatively normal lives. In a strange way, the coming of Kestutis and his band might have been a blessing.
Not for Svijo and his sister, obviously. But if nothing had changed, my girls might have continued to grow up in an isolated cabin, with only Inisian and Moruith for company. There were other families nearby, but it was not a community. The forest folk were far too wary of each other.
Here, on Prospal, the girls would be safe, and surrounded by other people like us. They could make friendships, laugh and learn, meet young men and perhaps fall in love and marry.
If the price for their future was a wedding - even if it
was
between me and a woman I had never spoken to - did I have the right to refuse?
I had to admit to myself that I
was
lonely. I had gone six years without a woman. Now Guen Nadesti had opened up the possibility that I might have a wife, a companion. She couldn't replace Meonwe, of course, but she might at least partially fill an enormous void in my life.
But why would Sulcen want me? Was she being forced into another marriage against her will? I was no Duenerth - but I
had
killed two of her brothers.