Prologue
The last acolyte had finally left, not more than half an hour ago, leaving the house to darkness and to him. The lingering devotees had already been gone almost an hour prior to that. The lights had gone out long while the devotees still attended, for the proceedings were to be illuminated only be the flickering lights of a hundred candles, arranged in concentric circles bordering the edges of the intricate engraving carved into and inlaid into the parquet floor of the wide room with its vaulted ceiling upheld by richly carved beams of arched wood.
The air hung rank and thicka with the smell of incense and the odor of blood, sweat, semen, and sexual exorbitance. Even the bittersweet stench of feces could be discerned, for accidents happen, and nothing was to be denied, no act forbidden or repressed. Not on a night like this, not for such a ceremony as this one was to be.
Saint-John pulled the edges of his cowl from his head and inhaled deeply, at once exhausted and elated. The candles burned low, some had expired, but a pale light wavered in the shadows of the vaulted chamber. Saint-John beheld the empty room and smiled wistfully.
He usually found it somehow sad and lonely to linger after a ceremony; life was meant to be lived in the now, not looking behind you in a backward glance, clutching after memories to assuage the pain of the moment. Pain itself was not to be snubbed, and memories, no matter how sweet, paled in comparison to the living moment.
Still. The near past connected to the living moment somehow, and one could be forgiven for lingering in the golden glow of a good experience even when that experience was gone forever, as ineluctably beyond one's reach as the farthest star dying without noise in the infinite vast of the void is from the mind of a dung beetle crushed under the heavy foot of a passing rhino.
Surely there must be some connection, but neither the star nor the beetle knows. Or the rhino, for that matter.
The dung might know.
Or the living universe within the dung.
His head started to ache, one of those splitting headaches he'd suffered from all his long life. A life that had seen the world go from horse to car to airplane to rocket in its lifetime. A life that had witnessed the world at war twice, and had stared with horror at the devastation caused by perverting the natural fabric of the cosmos.
What were his blasphemes in comparison?
And he'd long stopped caring what society or the so-called leaders of society, polite society, good society, thought of his conduct, his lifestyle, or his teachings.
Sighing, Saint-John stepped down from his raised platform behind the altar and walked with slow paces across the floor. A heavy, dragging sound startled him from his thoughts, and he looked up to see the last acolyte standing in the doorway, a stupid expression in his stupid eyes, his mouth hanging open in his mouth-breather way.
Why Saint-John ever recruited the fool, he couldn't say. A soft heart or a soft head led him to make questionable decisions, from time to time. Someone was standing behind his acolyte slouching in the doorway, someone whose shape Saint-John couldn't make out, shrouded as it was in the murky shadows of the corridor leading away from the chapel.
Then the acolyte stepped forward clumsily, the person behind the acolyte came into view, and Saint-John stared blankly at the figure as recognition slowly dawned on the self-proclaimed priest. It was Jan, and it couldn't be Jan.
They had slaughtered her for the ceremony.
Fear gripped the priest's heart, his hair stood on end, his body trembled, and piss ran down his legs.
Jan dropped the dead acolyte to the floor.
"Oh, Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinnie," the sacrificial victim taunted the man. "Did you really think you could get away with this? You foolish, foolish man. And we had such high hopes for you."
The voice coming from the dead woman was not the voice of the dead woman. It wasn't even a single voice but many voices speaking the same words, unified and somehow discordant, unharmonious.
"I, I, I," Lloyd Vincent Saint-John stammered, but his sentence was never finished.
I
Lisa jolted awake, the sudden swerving of Sami's, that is to say, Dr. Kumar's huge black Yukon bumped her head hard against the window, and she glared angrily at the driver from the safety of the back seat. Carla shouted behind Dr. Kumar, and Shayleen, wearing sunglasses against the bright sun of the late afternoon, sat in the passenger seat and pointed at the line of the trees growing up to and over the edge of the narrow highway.
"It went there, y'all. It went behind those trees!"
"Oh my god," Li-wei kept saying, "what was that? What was that?"
The smallest and youngest of the outfit, a true underclassman despite the presence of Carla, she had been consigned to the middle, stuck between Lisa Reynolds and Carla Perez, also an underclassman. But with five years and well over 130 hours under her belt, she felt like and was treated as something of a graduate student.
A piece of luggage, fortunately made of light-weight blue canvas, flew out from the way back, where Shayleen had flung it, prior to the trip, onto the rest of the heavier luggage: big, molded cases with retractable handles and built-in casters. The canvas bag smashed against Li-wei's head. Being filled with notebooks, batteries, flashlights, and an assortment of odds and ends Shayleen thought of at the last moment, it hurt more than harmed, and Li-wei threw the bag without looking behind her, rubbing the back of her head.
"Dammit, Shayleen, what did you put in that thing? I bet I have a concussion now."
Even though she had lived in New Hampshire since an early teenager, her speech carried traces of the far-off East, but for the most part Li-wei's accent settled on the salient Yankee traits of the new country. Hearing her before you saw her made a person think that she must not come from around these parts, but you couldn't quite say where. Then you saw her, and the mystery cleared.
In that vehicle, during that long ride, Li-wei's accent was far from noticeable. Shayleen hailed from the Deep South, from Georgia or maybe Alabama, Sami Kumar from the sub-continent, Carla still went back to East Los Angelas every Christmas, and Lisa Reynold's plain Midwest Iowan accent sounded odd to all the women in the Yukon, although Lisa insisted that she had no accent.
"I'm the only normal person here," she protested.
Shayleen threw her head against the headrest.
"Goddam, y'all. How much longer is this going take? My ass is killing me. I need to get out and walk around."
Dr. Kumar turned and grinned at her doctoral student.
"Fitzhugh's just down the road now. Maybe thirty more minutes away. Not far. Then you can stretch your legs all you want, but only after we get our rooms."
Carla brushed the side of Li-wei's knee with her leg as she stretched, raising her arms in a broad Y, and groaned.
"Dios, I'm so sick of this shit."
Dr. Kumar shook her head.
"You're all worse than my kids. At least they fall asleep. Are we there yet? Are we there yet? I can't believe you're all grad students.